Trying to be someone we are not - Day 448

Sometimes we look up to someone who is standing in a position of Authority and we would like to stand as this point ourselves. We would like to be this person ourselves. For most parts, it would come from a starting point of a desire to either be recognized or accepted by others but sometimes, it would be coming from a starting point of seeing one's true potential to stand within a particular point of authority.

 

Here, within the context of 'Potential' and 'Authority', it is imperative to define the word 'Authority' because the common use of the word 'Authority' is normally associated with Superiority and Control however, Authority, as a Living Expression of the word is when for instance one had Mastered a specific skill within oneself and therefore is now able to stand stable within a specific position and support others within/as a principle of that which is best for all Life.

 

For one to master and stand as a specific skill, one would walk a physical process and within that test one's skill in real time to ensure that what ever one faces, one is stable within and as oneself wherein one first establish Self-Authority within and as oneself in relationship to the skill that one is busy mastering within oneself. Slowly but surely, as one accumulate physical moments where one applied one's skill in real time, one would start standing as a point of Authority and thus be able to assist and support others in the same way that one had walk one's own process of mastering a skill within and as oneself.

 

Due to how the current system is built and structured, wherein Authority is a symbolism of Power and Fame, many would like to create themselves as someone who has Authority, without realizing what Authority as a living expression of oneself is; how Self-Authority is created; what is the responsibility of standing as an Authority; What is the Physical Process that is involved in mastering a specific skill; Now, when one is directing oneself from the starting  point of desire and does not consider all of these points, one would try to mimic the expression of others who are standing in a point of authority without actually Mastering the skills for/as themselves as a point of self-authority.

 

Often one would find that one is actually creating the exact opposite reality than what one had wished for, whereas, one would be rejected/ignored by others within one's attempt to support them because when the expression of oneself is not real, from the perspective of standing as something/someone that self hasn't yet established Self-Authority within and as oneself, others would pick it up as 'fake' if you will and may resist to one's presentation of 'Authority'.

 

Will share tangible examples within my next blog.

The Family Charade in Character - Day 80

This is a continuation to my previous blog:

My Life as a character - Overview - Day 79

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to see the separation that we have created within the family character wherein, there are specific roles that each participant is playing according to one's created character that one as accepted and allowed self to be defined as and accordingly, separate oneself as character from oneself as LIFE and the others as a whole.

Part 1: The Mother/Daughter Character - Overview

The Daughter Character:

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've created myself as a character of and as the 'Daughter' and within that, also created the parents as characters that will assist and support the Daughter character to remain in character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that who I am cannot be defined by characters and thus, the daughter character cannot be real.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that for me to be someone's daughter, I must have created that relationship in character, in agreement with all the other characters to remain in character and within that, I've not seen, realized and understood the limitation that exists within and as characters wherein one is tie to one's character and cannot express and experience oneself as who one is but only as the character that one has created for oneself, in separation of oneself.

The Mother Character:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create myself within and as the character of the Mother according to how I've observer my mother's character, the character mothers in the Movies, my characters' friends mother as so on and accordingly, created myself as the character that I would like to be in this life, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the character that I would like to be was also a character that I've defined according to my memories and experiences and that the fact of the matter is, the decision to be and become the specific mother character that I've created as myself, wasn't a free, informative and clear decision of who I am but was born from the circumstances of my life as the sum up of all the characters that allowed me to create myself as the character and within that, I haven't even considered that I've created the other characters so that I could remain in character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create and design myself as the mother character because I believed that the mother character is who I am and I haven't realized that for me to remain in character of the mother, I must create in agreement other character that will provide me with the continuation of me as the mother character which than raise the question, what was my starting point in having children? To create myself in character or to actually bring a life that is best for all into this world?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how limited the mother character is in fact where I'm not fully walking in absolute the physical expression of a mother in this world where I take care of all children in this world equally but rather, separated myself within and as my own little bubble which I've defined as the family character, taking care of only those who can keep me in character so that I won't have to step out of my character and walk my responsibility as LIFE to take care of all parts of LIFE equal and one.

For context, also read:

Day 79: Stepping out of Character - Bernard Poolman

Day 79: Kill the Buddha - He's Just a Character, Part 3- Lindsay Craver

Day 79. I'm Nothing But a Character - Malin Gunilla

Day 22 - Me as the Main Character within the Cinema of my Mind - Rozelle de Lange

Day 44: The Character game - Esteni De Wet