Suppressed Self Expression - The Beginning of the End - Day 102

This is a continuation to

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a child in this world, to when and as I hear grownups making a statement in judgement towards other human being's expression, to invert the statement into me and from that moment onwards, suppress my beingness as self expression within and as fear that if I allow myself to express myself, I would be mocked and judged by others.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a parent in this world, to make a statement in the nature of judgement towards other being's expression when and as my child can hear me and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences of accepting and allowing myself to judge other being's expression within and as myself and how it will effect my child's Life as the Expression of who my child is wherein from this moment onward, my child will make the decision to suppress one's expression to make sure, that one will never be in a position of judgement by others. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my own suppressed expression character that I've created within and as myself to be able to exits within our society as its norms and codes, and I haven't seen, realized and understood how I was the one who decided to suppress my expression as who I am, already from a very young age, when I heard/seen my parents judging someone's expression and feared being judged as well, if I accept and allow myself to express myself unconditionally. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I was the one who have accepted and allowed myself, to pass on, generation after generation the suppressed expression character because I haven't took my responsibility to educate myself, to see for myself what I've done to myself within the decision to suppress my expression to the extent to which I have become an automated machine that is able to sustain and maintain myself within our environment and existence as a whole, as enslaved and controlled beings to the world system as without, and to our mind as within. I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to take my power back to myself, within the realization that I am the one who decides and to thus decide to put a stop to the supressed expression that is emerging generation after generation and to free myself from my own imprisonment of myself in my mind, and the imprisonment of others in their mind through the example that I decide to be and become - within and as my Living Physical Expression.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Judge that which I do not understand and according to the judgement, suppress my beingness as self expression, Here, because as a child in this world, I gave value to what those who have come before me taught me - who I am, what I am, how should I express myself and how should I not and have thus, abdicated my responsibility to see, move and direct me as who I am in every given moment and accordingly, express myself unconditionally as who I decide I am to be in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to imprison myself within my human physical body, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I am my human physical body in its totality and that in that moment of imprisonment, I've separated myself from myself as my human physical body, allowed systems to integrate to and as my flesh and decide for me, in any given moment, who I am and how I should express myself according to society norms and codes that will ensure my survival within and as this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to imprison me as the self expression that I am in every moment of every breath and within that, have accepted and allowed myself to always think about how I should express myself in a way that will fit in with my environment so that I could be accepted and validate and wouldn't be defined as insane. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that our society has defined insanity according to specific rules and regulation that will keep the humans enslaved and controlled by the Money System of this world and we would not, in any way, be able to step out of our characters to see, realize and understand what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become which is insanity in itself where we accept and allow our backchat to exits while we would not allow ourselves to express that which we think because we know, that when we would, we will be defined as insane and thus, to make sure we will never face our backchat as the insanity that it is, we have internalized the thoughts, feelings and emotions within the belief that no one can know what's going on in our mind and thus, no one would define us as insane; within that, we have made sure that we will never change, stop the insane thoughts/emotions/feelings that control and enslave and imprison ourselves within our human physical body until our expression is so suppressed that who we are is just an automated organic robot with no life essence whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the thought as picture in my mind of me doing a salta in the air when I see green comfortable grass or when I'm at the beach and the sand is soft and as I start moving myself towards jumping in the air, a backchat comes up: "I can't do it, I will fall" and instead of stopping the back chat to control and enslave me, I give myself the permission to follow and continue having internal conversation as fight between - "I want to do it but I fear doing it" and thus, in that moment, I have accepted and allowed my expression as who I am to be locked down within and as my mind, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the utmost potential of who I am is here, within any given moment as self expression where I'm the directive principle, I move myself and I asses in self honesty according to the physical equation if I can or cannot do a specific task and accordingly, act upon my decision in absolute self trust and self honesty.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the backchat: "they will think that I'm crazy" when and as I see the emergence of me as self expression of and as my human physical body moving myself as the body and instead of allowing myself to express myself in that moment as breath, I accept and allow my own self limitation and self imprisonment to dictate me what and how I should be in expression because I gave permission to fears of judgement to be my directive principle, I gave permission to the society norms and codes to be my directive principle, I gave permission to myself to follow my thoughts/emotions/feelings and within that, suppress myself as the expression that I am so that I won't be judged and mocked because what I saw during my life was that when and as someone is expressing oneself unconditionally, the person is being judged and mocked and defined as weird and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the starting point of the person who judge, to see, realize and understand that it is in fact the very being who judges others, judges oneself as per the design and program that one has accepted oneself to be and become; I haven't seen, realized and understood that those who are judging, are not standing as an example of self expression as who they are in every given moment but rather stand as an example of imprisonment of oneself within one's mind and thus, if I accept and allow this example to be real, I accept and allow my own imprisonment, in my own mind because I am the one who decide.

I now see, realize and understand how extensive is this point which will be required to be walked in much more specificity and details and thus, I commit myself to brake down each and every memory, reaction, back chat, aspect of the suppressed expression character and walk the Self Forgiveness Process until it is done.

So again… stay tuned.

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

Where and When have we "lost" our expression? Where and When have we decided to suppress who and what we are and thus have become an expression Character that will fit into the Society norms, Culture, Religion etc.?

Where and When during our Life we have decided to deny ourselves as the expression of and as Life and have become automated in our expression, an expression that will sustain us in our existence within this world system and abuse us as who we are as Life and within that, compromise our entire existence as a whole?

 

It is ridiculous that despite of me seeing that I'm suppressing my expression, I still allow it. It is ridiculous that despite of me seeing my expression emerging as who I am, I decide to lock it down due to thoughts and fears like: "what if they judge me? What if they make fun of me? What if they will think that I'm weird?" And because of those thought, I will accept and allow myself to participate within the suppressed expression character that I've created to protect myself from my environment, to protect myself from other people because I have placed value in what they have to say about me, and I've given myself no Value as LIFE as who I am when and as I accept and allow myself to suppress the beingness that I am and act as the actor in my own movie of my own life - the movie that will keep me "stable" in my environment and won't take me into a mental hospital with other people that has no barrier between what they think and what they express.

 

I mean, imagine Who and What we'll become when and as our secret mind will become equal to and one as what we express? Will we then allow ourselves to become spiteful and judgmental towards other beings in our world? No! the only reason we allow it within ourselves is because we believe it is a secret that no one will find out about and we do not even consider that they are accepting and allowing the same nature of thoughts to exists within and as them. 

 

So who will we be when and as we will give ourselves the permission to express ourselves as who we are? According to this current world system, we will be defined as insane but isn't insanity to define Self Expression as insane? Why is it that we have accepted and allowed our own self expression definition to be Equal to and One as insanity? Why is it that the Current system dictate our expression? What we have become within and as the system as suppressed expression? We have became slaves to our own boundaries that we have placed within and as ourselves to maintain and sustain us within a system that we call LIFE. Though, is it LIFE? NO!

 

Thus, how to return to ourselves as the expression of who we are as a physical living expression of and as LIFE? How to assist and support us to Express Who we are in any given moment? It is to Stop THINKING lol

 

Within this blog, I will be looking at the first moment where I've decided to suppress my expression and become equal and one as organic robot to maintain and sustain myself within and as this world system, to be validated, accepted and appreciated by everything and everyone. 

In order to Identify the Suppressed Expression Character, we will first have a look at the thought manifestation that emerge; then, we will look at the back chat that perpetuate the thought manifestation that we will blindly follow. The next step would be to identify the reactions that emerge as emotions and feelings and finally, what physical changes are manifesting in our physical human body as a complete lock down of and as the Suppressed Expression Character.

 After we'll identify those components, we would be able to have a closer look at the functionality of the Suppressed expression Character which from there, assist and support ourselves with a practical corrective living application/expression.

 

So let's start:

 

The thought manifestation:

Picture of playful child expression. Like for myself, it would be often a picture of me doing Salta jump on the grass or a picture of me Dancing.

 

The Back chat:

"I can't, I will fall"

"They will think that I'm crazy"

"Don't do it; do it; Don't do it; Do it". (which BTW - the "Don't do it" 99% of the time wins)

"shit, if they see me, they would laugh at me for ages"

"If I can't do it properly, I should not do it at all"

"But I want to do it!"

 

Reactions:

Frustration; Jealousy; comparison; embarrassment;

 

Body Change

Constriction in the shoulder area;

Needles in the solar plexus towards the heart regime;

Energy movement in my harms and hands;

Slight pressure in my head.

 

Now, I will go back to the first memory that I can recall where I decided to suppress my expression. In the blog post: Behaviour Modification - Day 74, I've walked through that memory. However, to assist and support myself to identify the first creation of the Suppressed Expression Character, I will look at some more dimensions to be able to remove that memory and stop the memory from influencing me, as who I am, as a physical expression.

 

Stay tuned for my next blog :-)

Give Life to Receive Life - Day 76

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where everything cost money and if one doesn't have money, one doesn't have the right to live a life that is worthwhile but is doomed to live a life of day to day struggle with no way out but death.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define my freedom through money and I've failed to see that I've created an idea that freedom is the ability to fulfil one's desire and Money is the mean to get to the fulfilment of my desires and thus through money, I can experience freedom. (For context with regards to Desires, please read: Day 30: The design of desire). Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to practically free myself from the limitations hat I've set forth to myself as my mind because I have failed to realize what real freedom is but only looked at one point/dimension based on my self interest desires instead of redefining 'Freedom' as a principle of oneness and equality that ALL can live as and accordingly, direct myself and this existence towards 'freedom' that is physical, practical and as an expression of who we are as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed Money to give me Life and I have failed to see that the very fact that we are living in this world, as human being, we should automatically receive Life unconditionally and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the equality equation of Give as you would like to Receive and if we would to actually live that principle, we would all work together to Give Life to Receive Life that is best for all. But, we have programmed ourselves, generation after generation, to consider ourselves and our immediate environment and allowed ourselves to disregard, ignored and abandoned those who are less fortunate in this world wherein their lack of Money means - NO LIFE as they born to die in poverty, starvation, famine and diseases.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a world where children are being taught from a very young age the value of Money as a mean to survive in this world and as they grow up, the family/world system pressure them to stand in a high position in this money system so that their future will be secured and safe. I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see how this mind control brainwash pattern of thinking about money from a very young age, has veiled us from seeing the greater picture which than thus, we never considered that the race of our survival and the daily fight for money, isn't a NORMAL thing as we believed it is and Normality is a LIFE that is best for all, where no one is left behind, no one has to fight for one's survival, no one has to compromise one's expression to fit into specific groups within the money system to sustain their income, no one will have to compromise their family and could actually walk with their children and be the key in their upbringing - all of which and more, can be done when and as we see and realize our ability to response to the current Life condition and accordingly, take the responsibility to establish and implement a new system, a system of Equality, a system that will ensure LIFE for all Equally - The Equal Money/Life System

I commit myself to show and shout with everything that I've got that the Right to LIFE should and must be UNCONDITIONAL and I will repeat the speak up, shouting out and standing up for as long as it takes until People could hear the Message, see the common sense for themselves so that we can together, 1 by 1 by 1, stand up and create a world that is best for all. A world that should have been from the beginning a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to show that unless everyone are free, no one is free - mentally and physically.

I commit myself to show that freedom as the current definition of the word is dependent on Money, according to one's self interest desire. However, if we change our self interest desire and transform the desire to collective interest of LIFE that is best for all, we can in fact start walking towards our freedom within the establishment of Equal Money System as the initial step wherein all will then have the platform to free themselves from themselves as the mind through a process of writing, self forgiveness application, self corrective actions, Self Honesty, Breathing etc.

I commit myself to the following goal: Freedom:

The Equal Money System will allow Religious Freedom of Association as long as it does not impede on the Right to Life and Protection and Equal Distribution of Resources, or impede on the Fulfillment, Education and Lifestyle of Each Living Being on Earth.

I commit myself to explain in details to my children how the current world system works and functions and how we can practically change the world system to a system that support all lives.

Who I am is a Free Choice? Day 23

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to move and motivate myself according to what and how other people will see me and I failed to see that I’m defining myself according to What I do instead of Who I am as the decision within what I do and thus, separated myself from myself by NOT walking my life as WHO I am but only as What I do to define Who I am and within that, I’ve missed LIFE, I’ve missed myself as I gave my entire power away to the enslavement system of and as the mind and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to walk the decision of Who I Am as Life and direct myself and this world according to Principle of Oneness and Equality as What is best for all because What I do was always in the nature of Self Interest and thus, Who I have become is/was in the nature of Self Interest, always looking for rewards within what I do as the incentive to Live.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that Who I am as a self interest Principle is in fact Evil because while I allowed myself to direct and move myself within self interest, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to see that that which I’m allowing myself within, I allow in the world system and thus, the manifestation of the world as we know it today, is a direct reflection of my participation from the starting point of self interest and yet, despite of the physical reflection as the world as myself, I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to change and take responsibility for myself and this world as ONE.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that this world is a direct reflection of my acceptance and allowed self interest participation with and as the mind and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE and realize WHO I AM as Life and thus, limited my expression to my own self interest desires and allowed a world to be control and directed through and as self interest desires that manifested an abusive and cruel world as we exists within and as today.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give my power away within the belief that I have no power to change this world but what I’ve failed to realized is that changing the world start with changing self as what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become is in direct relationship to what I’ve accepted and allowed this world to become and thus, through the accepted belief that I’ve no power to change this world, I’ve gave up on myself and this world and allowed the compromise of billions of beings in this world in blinded faith of my self interests and fearful beliefs.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I have control over my life and that I have a free choice within it and yet, I’ve failed to see that my “free choice” is defined by my self interest desires and if I would really have a free choice, I would have chosen Life that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and belief that I have a free choice and yet, I’ve failed to see that my free choice is defined according to how much money I have to fulfil my self interest desires as well as, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where only a select few can fulfil their self interest desires instead of living in a world where the self interest desires is a LIFE that is best for all which is NOT defined according to Money but according to practical living expression that is of a support of LIFE as the sum up relationships between humans, natures and animals within an agreement to live, direct and express that which is best for all in every given moment.

                                         

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that Beings has a free choice and if they live in poverty and/or abusive Life situations it is due to their Karma and they have the capability to assist and support themselves to change their experience and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the nature of this belief is based on my own self interest desires through justifying and making excuses of why I do not have to stand up and  assist those beings through and as the principle of what is best for all because if I would, I would have to give up my own self interest desires and in essence, I would have to give up my Life and, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up my self interest desires as well as giving up my LIFE because I couldn’t grasp that LIFE is an accumulate relationship that works together within an agreement of what is best for all and that my life, is just a limited version of what LIFE is and thus, giving up the limited version of LIFE is to be in fact able to Live LIFE for the very first time in Equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only Free Choice that exists is to become LIFE that is best for all. And I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make decisions based on my free choice despite the fact that the consequences are in no way best for all because If I have walked my life in the ultimate free choice, I would have NOT accepted and allowed the abusive and Evil nature that I’ve become which has been proven by my backchat and I would have pushed myself to STOP, correct and change and become LIFE that is best for all in every breath, in every step, in every moment.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that If I would have a free choice, I would have chosen Life that is best for all and I would not accept anything less than that, from myself and from others in this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to continue participating with my backchats, internal conversations and secret mind, despite of the fact that I’ve proven to myself time after time after time that the backchat, internal conversation and the secret mind are always based on self interest desires and has nothing to do with WHO I am as Life as a physical expression and yet, through my acceptances and allowances of such participation in the mind, I’ve proven that I’m less than Life, I’m less than WHO I Am as Life and that I’m limited, control and enslaved to a system that abuse Life and all that is Here. And Thus, I’m making the commitment today, Now, in this very moment, to STOP my blinded acceptance and allowance of the backchat, internal conversation and secret mind because I realized that as long as I accept and allow my own participation in the mind, I’m abusing, sabotaging and compromising myself and this world and thus, when and as I see myself accessing a backchat, internal conversation and secret mind participation, I stop, I breathe, and I bring myself back here to and as my human physical body. I immediately correct and direct myself to change through self forgiveness and deletion of the pattern until it is done.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk my talk wherein even though I’ve realized the consequences of my acceptance and allowance participation in my mind, I’ve still haven’t taken the responsibility to STOP in every moment and direct myself according to principle of Oneness and Equality because every time that I’ve accepted a back chat as valid, as me, I’ve further separated myself and access another time loop. Within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that as long as I accept and allow the shit to continue within me, I accept and allow the shit to exists in this world and thus, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to stand as an example and direct myself and this world to a world that is best for all in all ways possible.

I commit myself to take the responsibility of assisting and supporting myself in every moment of every breath to get back to myself as a living expression of a physical LIFE.

I commit myself to immediately direct each and every point that I’ve missed that is proven through my participation in my mind and correct my living application in the moment of breath.

I commit myself to do so till I’m Life in fact and thus stand as a pillar of support for ALL as Equal as One as Me, as Life.

I commit myself to expose the nature of free choice that is accepted in this world and prove that   what we perceive to be free choice at the moment is a free choice to continue abusing ourselves and each other in this world and I commit myself to do whatever it takes to show and support the world that the only free choice that we truly exists is the free choice to become LIFE and that will be determine by the relationship that we have with each other as a whole within the establishing of a new world that is best for all.

Role Models – Day 17

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to see specific beings as a role model which I believed myself to be inspired by, without seeing that that which I’m inspired by is a point within me that I’ve not accepted as me, in separation of me because I perceived myself as lacking and incapable of standing as that point of self-expression as equal to and one as me.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to perceive people as a role model within an idea that I’ve created about them, without realizing that the idea is not even about them as who or what they are representing, it is about me and that which I’ve perceived myself as lacking in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to place value in specific people which I’ve define as a role model, without realizing that if they were in fact a role model who stand as an example of what is best for all lives, they would actually challenge this existence and direct themselves and this world to a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that parents are a role model to their children despite the fact that if they would, they would challenge their own existence as their beliefs, opinions, religion of self as well as the world system and they would walk towards a solution that is in fact best for all lives and in doing so, will support and direct their children to become an effective human being as the Living expression of Life, within and as the Physical reality.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to see specific Politian as a role model, despite the fact that they have not done any substantial change in their lives as well as in this world as the physical evidence is of a world that is still a world that is best for only a select few, a world that is determine according to how much money one has in order to fulfil one’s desires while allowing the majority of the world to die in starvation, malnutrition, diseases and suffering.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to resists standing as a role model within the example that change is possible because I have not taken the responsibility to decide WHO I am as life and actually walking that decision within every moment of every breathe through a physical and substantial change, without realizing that as long as I wait and justify why I am not willing to change, I’m putting this world in jeopardy because if I can’t change, I can’t expect the world to change.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to deny, ignore and spite those who are standing as an example, those who can in fact challenge my existence and assist me with expanding and empowering me to become LIFE, because I’ve been secretly jealous and competitive towards them, not realizing that by doing so, I’m compromising and limiting myself and this world by not giving me the chance for a real and substantial change.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see those that are standing as an example and to actually grow and expend myself with their assistance and support because of my Ego wherein, I’ve decided to compete with them and make them less than me in my mind so that I could define myself as worthy through finding fault in them and in doing so, miss an opportunity for an actual change within myself and the relationships that I have in my life.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to compete with those who are standing as an example for me to grow and expend myself because I perceive them as a threat to my Ego, not realizing that the very resistance that I’m experiencing towards them is due to jealousy when I perceive myself as lacking with what they have however, what I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize is that it is not what they Have that define them, it is who they are as the decision and the process they have walked to get to who they are and thus, they stand as an example of What and Who I can be when making the decision to walk the process to get to Who I am as a living expression of life

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE that those whom I’ve decided to follow by example weren’t standing according to principles of what is best for all because if they would, they would insist of self perfection and support others to reach their utmost potential by not accepting and allowing any form of shit from themselves and others and in doing so, assist and support existence within exposing the dishonesties and deceptions that are the foundation of this world and would have done whatever it takes to change this world to a place that is worth living.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that those whom I should see as an example are those who stand for principles of Oneness and Equality and wouldn’t not take shit from anything or anyone in existence, those who will do whatever it takes to expose the deception that we have defined as life so that we could actually become LIFE that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to follow by the example of those who will not assist and support me to expend and grow but rather, assist me with remaining prisoned and occupied in my mind and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the reason why I’m using those people as an example is because they do not threat my existence nor challenge me as that which I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exists as and thus, I do not have to face and practically change myself for what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be jealous at those who I see as effective, discipline and self directed because I perceived them as a threat in the secret competition of the ego personality that I’ve created, instead of seeing those people as a pillar, as an example of who I can become if I make the decision to be self effective, self discipline and self direct in every moment of every breath and within that, direct myself and my world to take full responsibility for what we’ve accepted and allowed so that we could face and change ourselves and this world to a world that is worth living, to a world that is in fact best for all in all ways possible.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to transform the jealousy to a point of self change and instead, became spiteful towards the beings I’m jealous at in my mind, tried to find fault in them so that I could feel worthy, good and better about myself.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to ignore the example that other people are standing as and instead, fight for my limitations by competing with them in my secret mind in the attempt of making myself feel worthy and validated.

I commit myself to stand as an example that a change is possible and I commit myself to challenge the existence of me as well as others so that we can all face ourselves and practically change, to never again be directed by self interest limited starting point but rather, direct ourselves and this world according to and as principle that are best for all LIFE, practically and physically.

I commit myself to stop jealousy towards those who may assist me in my process to become LIFE because I see and realize that my acceptance of me as jealousy doesn’t support me in anyway. And thus, I commit myself to utilize Jealousy as a gift for self transformation wherein, when and as I see myself accessing jealousy, I stop, I breathe and I investigate where, how and why I’ve separated myself from myself by perceiving that I’m lacking.

I commit myself to breathe and stop back chat when and as I see that I’m accessing resistance to what is being shared with me, so that I could look at the point in self honesty and direct myself in stability and self trust because I realize that whenever a resistance comes up from within me, there is a key point to self transformation and when I supress and hide from the actual point, I’m manifesting unnecessary time loop for myself and in that, compromising my entire process as well as the world process.

Who I am – Day 16

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to spite myself through holding on the desire of relationship even though I see and realize the consequences of such desire to exists within and as me because I haven’t yet made the ultimate decision of WHO I AM in every moment of every breath and thus, in every moment that I haven’t yet decided who I am, I’m literally spiting myself and compromising this world because I than, have no power as there is no Self-Trust.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to spite myself through going back to my mind even though I’ve seen the time line, my responsibility within it, the outflows and consequences because I haven’t yet accepted me as Life and there for, haven’t yet made the decision and walked myself back to myself as Life.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted myself as a desire for a relationship from the starting point of energy as the feeling that I’m waiting for because I haven’t respected myself enough to walk the decision of getting back to myself, as the entirety of myself, as Life that is here and within that to give up every desire and decision that I’ve made in a process of accumulation of self interest.

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to get myself back to myself here, it is a process of accumulation of living breath by breath and thus, I commit myself to walk myself to freedom, step by step, breath by breath. If I make a mistake, I face, correct and change, and I move myself within the breath as a living expression of myself as Life.

So – I Commit myself to walk myself back to myself as Life that is here. I commit myself to breathe and Live in every moment because practically, that is the only thing that can be done in every breathing moment.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to even consider WHO I AM and instead, I’ve accepted the limitation of myself as the mind to only a few personality designs that I’ve created as a protection mechanism to suppress my fears that I’ve accepted to be me.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the limitation that I’ve become through the accepted and allowed personalities creations which within doing so, I’ve separated myself from WHO I AM and suppressed my beingness to the extent of not realizing WHO I am in fact.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the actual LIVING in and as the Physical reality because I was occupied in my mind, in my safe and protected reality which I’ve taken for granted as if it is life.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the world is a reflection of who I am within the actions and deeds that I do as equal to and one with the decisions that I make and the thoughts that I follow and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT see the relationship between Who I really AM and this world system so that I won’t have to face my acceptance of me as EVIL that have accepted and allowed this world to manifest in its correct existence of abuse and suffering.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT consider that Who I am create what I do and if WHO I am isn’t Equal to and One as LIFE, who I am is in fact Evil. And thus, I forgive myself that I haven’t considered that What I Do is determine by Who I AM and thus, I commit myself to become LIFE and Do only that which Support LIFE.

I commit myself to get myself back to myself and to actually fully participate in the physical reality in every living moment as breath.

I commit myself to the decision of becoming LIFE and to do whatever it takes to get myself Here as LIFE and the outcome of my decision will be determine by What I Do as best for all Life . I commit myself to – when and as I see myself accessing my mind, to NOT accept and allow myself to participate and follow the pictures/thoughts/feelings/emotions, and to immediately delete the desire through the realization that WHO I am as LIFE isn’t defined by momentary desires but WHO I AM here is Breath as the living expression as me.

For more Support -Day 15: Who am I? Prisoner of the Mind?