Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 5) - Day 479

In this blog post, I will continue sharing the story of how and why I had realized that everyone has a potential including myself and how this realization assisted me in changing the course of my life where I am able to walk as a living principle to my utmost potential. Thus, for the context, please read through the previous blog posts:

The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle - Day 474

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 1) - Day 475

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 2) - Day 476

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 3) - Day 477

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 4) - Day 478

 

" So, if anything, the potential was and is already 'here' - I have the potential to change myself, I have the potential to forgive myself, I have the potential to fine tune my living application.

 

In my next blog post, I will share how I am assisting and supporting myself to change from seeing points as an absolute to realizing the potential and the process/direction that I have to walk to develop and perfect the potentials that I am able to see in myself."

 

Since I started my process, what was evident is the potential to change whereas, I am not bound to what I previously 'believed' or 'felt' or been 'emotional' about, I am not bound to continue my relationship with others as how I conditioned myself to live by over the years - I am able to take responsibility for what is going on inside myself and accordingly change my relationship to my outer world through firstly apply self forgiveness in self honesty and thereafter change my living application as how I have decided to live by.

 

Within this blog, I will share how I have changed (and still busy changing) my relationship to friendship-relationships and within that, how I am assisting and supporting myself to align my relationship with my friends to a relationship that is worthwhile.

 

When any relationship starts, mostly I find that there is a 'lovey dovey' time period whether it is relationship with a male or relationship with new friends. Initially, we would portray ourselves in specific ways, only sharing and revealing the 'good' parts of ourselves while the 'bad' parts remain hidden. Although, as time pass by, past patterns start playing a role  and the relationship is no longer 'lovey dovey' as frictions and conflicts are becoming more evident. In the past, when the friendship-relationship shifted from the 'positive' to the 'negative' I would start isolating myself from the relationship and slowly remove myself completely from the equation. I would then repeat the same cycle with either new friends or with old friends that I haven't spoken with for years.

 

Over the years, I became more conservative when it comes to starting a friendship-relationship with another human being - on some levels, I knew that I would end up in the same place I always had so it was like "why even bother" type of thing. From there, I isolated myself more and more to a point where I disengaged from any social circle as I didn't want the responsibility that comes with allowing someone in my life (the self-responsibility of turning any slight reaction that was triggered by another, to myself, and investigate who I am in relation to the reaction and accordingly change myself). Obviously, from having so many people in my life to having none, I didn't feel lacking - if anything, I felt 'good' because I had zero frictions in my life that I had to sort out - I could give myself 100% attention without having to justify anything to anyone. In other words, I could remain enslaved to my own mind without having external triggers that would support me to see who I am as the mind and how I can align my living application accordingly.

 

I used to defined these frictions/reactions triggered by another being as a hassle but today I see these reactions as gifts, as a potential to change because how the hell would I see the misalignment inside myself if the reactions would have remained suppressed/hidden? 

 

So, with my process of isolating myself from my external reality, every now and then I would bring someone into my life, for just a moment - I call this game 'energy fix' because that was exactly what it was - I would start a relationship with a person and very fast I moved myself through the 'drama' part of the relationship. Unconsciously I was preparing my way to end the relationship so that I could go back to my cave (comfort zone) and ignore the outer reality and within that justify to myself "but I tried - it is not me - it is them".

 

A year an a half ago, I was faced with a life changing decision where I could either go out there to the world and continue my isolated life or to remain where I was at that time. Initially, I decided to leave and explore the world of isolation again but fortunately there was a glimpse of a moment (I remember this moment very vividly) where I looked around and saw the people in my reality, I looked at them, at who they are and in that moment I saw the potential that exists with my decision to stay - I was ready to gift myself the opportunity to connect with other people again - for the first time in my life I saw the potential of who I am able to become within developing relationships with people that are actually worth while. Relationships that are based on support to one another where we assist each other to grow and expand ourselves. Relationships were I am able to develop self-intimacy with myself and with others on a communication level; relationships where it is clear to all participants that when a friction/conflict comes up, we do not ignore, we do not judge - we assist and support each other to see the misalignment and do the necessary correction within ourselves and our relationships.

 

Obviously the road ahead wasn't always easy and still isn't easy from time to time. There were many moments where I went into the old pattern of wanting to isolate myself to not having to deal with people. There was one person who introduced me to what a potential actually mean, not as an absolute point but as a point of self-development. They looked at me and told me something in those lines: "there is a gift waiting for you in the relationship. You wouldn't have dealt with your inner reactions without that person triggering these reactions from inside you. So for a moment, sit tight and walk your process - sort out yourself and soon enough the relationship will sort itself out as you change yourself and your relationship to the other being".

 

And this person was right and I am grateful for taking their advice - I worked and still working on my relationship with people and slowly developing a level of intimacy within each friendship-relationship that I am walking with another. What I also took from this moment was seeing the gift/potential in any single reaction that I have towards anything or anyone - the opportunity to really have a deep look inside myself until I find the misalignments that I am able to change which from there I continue walking until the next misalignment present itself.

I do not allow myself to go into the pattern of isolation and I am now busy integrating the correction within the relationship with other people in my life whereas, when a friction/conflict comes up - I do not run away from it, I will check myself, I will sort out myself and I will communicate the point with the other to find a resolution that is supporting for us. Thus, in practicality, seeing the potential in myself in relation to other people isn't something that can be clearly define before it manifest - it is something that I can indefinably see that if I allow myself to develop and perfect the relationship with myself and another, we will empower, expand and grow ourselves to become our utmost potential.

 

Art work: Found on media-cache-ec0.pinimg.com

 

 

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 4) - Day 478

In this blog post, I will continue sharing the story of how and why I had realized that everyone has a potential including myself and how this realization assisted me in changing the course of my life where I am able to walk as a living principle to my utmost potential. Thus, for the context, please read through the previous blog posts:

The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle - Day 474

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 1) - Day 475

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 2) - Day 476

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 3) - Day 477

 

As I am writing this blog series, I am seeing how much of my life I had missed just because I could not allow myself to realize that I have a potential and accordingly embrace myself and walk to my utmost potential. I hope that this blog series will reach as many people as possible  so that through my story,you are able to support yourself to see  and realize that you already have a potential which you are able to embrace as who you are and accordingly support yourself to live your utmost potential; the bottom line is - everyone already has a potential that they are able to live as/by.

 

In the last couple of days, I was questioning why it was so difficult for me to realize and embrace my potential; why, despite of the physical results/feedback or the physical play-outs, I refused to acknowledge this points that was always existing inside me, as me. I was questioning why throughout my entire life I didn't accept myself or allowed myself to worthy myself as who I am but instead consistently desired to be something that I am not instead of perfecting what I am naturally good at.

 

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I wrote the above about a week ago and as I was writing, points of resistances came up so I had to take a moment and investigate what's really going on. I was coming back to this blog every day, writing and deleting, writing and deleting - something wasn't aligned. I kept on looking at the points and questioning myself, my application, my living expression and I couldn't see what wasn't aligned. Shame, I really wanted to believed that I already realized my utmost potential and that I am living this potential already but in self honesty, I could see that I was not - there was something that I was still missing.

 

Tonight, I was determine to find the point that I was missing the entire time - it was a moment where I told myself - enough is enough - time to face this point. So I came back to this blog and I saw what I was writing and suddenly the point reveal itself - I found the misalignment:

 

I have defined 'potential' as an absolute point, as a future projection, as something that is not yet 'here'; as something that I will only reach if I 'know' who I am in every single moment in time where I no longer participate in the mind. This is a pattern of self diminishment - it is the source of the resistance that I experienced a few days ago while writing the blog - I was measuring who I am now to whom I can become as an absolute point in the future (this I will be expanding and clarify in another blog ).  So, if anything, the potential was and is already 'here' - I have the potential to change myself, I have the potential to forgive myself, I have the potential to fine tune my living application.

 

In my next blog post, I will share how I am assisting and supporting myself to change from seeing points as an absolute to realizing the potential and the process/direction that I have to walk to develop and perfect the potentials that I am able to see in myself.

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art work: Robert McGinnis, 1926 ~ American illustrator

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 2) - Day 476

In this blog post, I will continue sharing the story of how and why I had realized that everyone has a potential including myself and how this realization assisted me in changing the course of my life where I am able to walk as a living principle to my utmost potential. Thus, for the context, please read through the previous blog posts:

The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle - Day 474

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 1) - Day 475

So during my university education, I worked as a bar tender which gave me the financial freedom to do whatever I wanted - I could go on vacations, I could travel the world, I could go and party all night and in terms of studying, I just wanted to pass the exams - I knew that I will not practice law and I didn't see myself having a big career as a business woman due to the insecurity that I felt inside myself all the way from high school. During the final year, the pressure from my environment started to kick in as all my university friends started to move towards building a career for themselves while I was burning any brain sell with partying and alcohol. I decided to follow their steps and tried doing something in my life. But - I didn't see any value in myself or believed I had any other skill but bar tendering so I applied for job as a telemarketer for an insurance company as that was the only thing I knew how to do - I had a little bit of experience with telemarketing from a summer job that I did while back during high school. Soon enough I realized that I am in a big trouble because I could not sustain the life style I was accustom with - in a month work in telemarketing I earned what I did in 2-3 nights in the bar.

After 2 months, a friend from university told me about a job in the company he worked for, he set up the interview for me and the next day I started working there. Here, you must understand that this was a job that every moment counts and unless I was on the top of my game, fully aware and focused, the company will lose money because I was a stock exchange trader.

With my coping skills of not showing weaknesses when I did not understand something and the lack of my self motivated ambition to educate myself due to lack of self-trust in myself, I didn't ask anyone to explain to me everything that I didn't understand and as a result my performance was not so great to say the least. Honestly, till this day I am uncertain why I was not fired and why my boss waited for me to decide to quit. I felt so embarrassed from my results so when the boss offered me a job in the marketing department, I refused, even though years later I discovered that my natural skill is related to Marketing lol.

One thing led to another and I accessed the spiritual phase of my life - on many levels, I am grateful for the Spiritual phase because otherwise, I wouldn't have found Desteni years down the line, and would not have discovered and realized that everyone has a natural potential that we can live as and by. Though realize that the Spiritual phase came because of the failure experience I felt inside myself, where I gave up on all my dreams and didn't believe that I will make it in the world system and in that point, I submitted to the survival mode and accepted the day by day living where all you need is to make sure you have enough to end the month. For me, the spirituality was a tool through which I could suppress all of these emotions and feelings that I experienced without being aware about the truth of my experiences.

Will continue in my next blog post.

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art work by: Ernst Ludwig Kirchner

The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle - Day 474

I hereby commit myself to live the following Principles:

1. Realizing and living my utmost potential

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3. Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4. Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of realizing I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5. Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realizing only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6. Realizing that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others

8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own

9. Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honor and stand by what is best for all and so best for me

10. Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE

11. No one can save you, save yourself – the realization that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realize I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realization that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

13. Honoring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

14. Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15. Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honor, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

16. Realizing that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realize how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.

19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realizing it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

20. Realizing that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honor, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realize this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without

22. The realization that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23. The realization that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth.

Who is Responsible for our Children's Education - Day 332

 

 

We send our children to school with great trust in the Effectiveness of the Education System; we let them leave the Home Environment, their Caring nests, and start their independent Life path. We Hope they will become an effective human beings, that they will succeed in Life and become something to be proud of.

 

So we innocently shift our Responsibility as Parents towards the Education System, towards the Teachers, the Principles and the Government that supposed to Moderate, Review and Enhance the Children; We see it as Natural part of the Child Development and we have never questioned the validity of our decision to send our children to school because it's Normal, everyone does that right?

 

We believe that School will prepare our Children for their Future but Does it really? Were we prepared for our future? Was our Education met with the Physical reality we faced after our graduation? Were we Prepared for the Daily struggle of Survival within this world system?

 

Then, what makes us Believe and Trust the Current Education System with our children? And if we cannot trust the Current Education System, Who or What can we trust?

 

First thing first: I will show you that you cannot trust the current education system within the next blog series to come because what I've realized for myself was that unless I can see clearly the problems, I won't be able to compute, comprehend and see the solution.

 

So stay here as we walk our Processes of Establishing a solution for the Future of our children.

 

 

Give Life to Receive Life - Day 76

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where everything cost money and if one doesn't have money, one doesn't have the right to live a life that is worthwhile but is doomed to live a life of day to day struggle with no way out but death.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define my freedom through money and I've failed to see that I've created an idea that freedom is the ability to fulfil one's desire and Money is the mean to get to the fulfilment of my desires and thus through money, I can experience freedom. (For context with regards to Desires, please read: Day 30: The design of desire). Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to practically free myself from the limitations hat I've set forth to myself as my mind because I have failed to realize what real freedom is but only looked at one point/dimension based on my self interest desires instead of redefining 'Freedom' as a principle of oneness and equality that ALL can live as and accordingly, direct myself and this existence towards 'freedom' that is physical, practical and as an expression of who we are as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed Money to give me Life and I have failed to see that the very fact that we are living in this world, as human being, we should automatically receive Life unconditionally and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the equality equation of Give as you would like to Receive and if we would to actually live that principle, we would all work together to Give Life to Receive Life that is best for all. But, we have programmed ourselves, generation after generation, to consider ourselves and our immediate environment and allowed ourselves to disregard, ignored and abandoned those who are less fortunate in this world wherein their lack of Money means - NO LIFE as they born to die in poverty, starvation, famine and diseases.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a world where children are being taught from a very young age the value of Money as a mean to survive in this world and as they grow up, the family/world system pressure them to stand in a high position in this money system so that their future will be secured and safe. I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see how this mind control brainwash pattern of thinking about money from a very young age, has veiled us from seeing the greater picture which than thus, we never considered that the race of our survival and the daily fight for money, isn't a NORMAL thing as we believed it is and Normality is a LIFE that is best for all, where no one is left behind, no one has to fight for one's survival, no one has to compromise one's expression to fit into specific groups within the money system to sustain their income, no one will have to compromise their family and could actually walk with their children and be the key in their upbringing - all of which and more, can be done when and as we see and realize our ability to response to the current Life condition and accordingly, take the responsibility to establish and implement a new system, a system of Equality, a system that will ensure LIFE for all Equally - The Equal Money/Life System

I commit myself to show and shout with everything that I've got that the Right to LIFE should and must be UNCONDITIONAL and I will repeat the speak up, shouting out and standing up for as long as it takes until People could hear the Message, see the common sense for themselves so that we can together, 1 by 1 by 1, stand up and create a world that is best for all. A world that should have been from the beginning a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to show that unless everyone are free, no one is free - mentally and physically.

I commit myself to show that freedom as the current definition of the word is dependent on Money, according to one's self interest desire. However, if we change our self interest desire and transform the desire to collective interest of LIFE that is best for all, we can in fact start walking towards our freedom within the establishment of Equal Money System as the initial step wherein all will then have the platform to free themselves from themselves as the mind through a process of writing, self forgiveness application, self corrective actions, Self Honesty, Breathing etc.

I commit myself to the following goal: Freedom:

The Equal Money System will allow Religious Freedom of Association as long as it does not impede on the Right to Life and Protection and Equal Distribution of Resources, or impede on the Fulfillment, Education and Lifestyle of Each Living Being on Earth.

I commit myself to explain in details to my children how the current world system works and functions and how we can practically change the world system to a system that support all lives.

Riding on the back of inferiority – Day 20

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to ride on the backs of those who experience themselves as inferior and I haven’t realized that I’m doing so to hide and suppress the existence of me of inferior by attempting to gain a momentary experience of myself as superior.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to live according to the principle of do to others what you’d like other to do to you and within that, I’ve ride on the back of those whom I perceived to be inferior to me even though when I’m the inferior in the relationship and I’m allowing someone to ride on my back, I do not enjoy the experience, within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed others to abuse me to sustain their inferiority through projecting their superiority onto me, exactly as I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse those whom I perceive to be inferior to me while I’m projecting superiority towards them AND, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to experience discomfort and irritation within a relationship where I experience myself as inferior, when someone is abusing that moment to project superiority and I haven’t accepted and allowed myself within that moment to stand up in self trust and direct the relationship effectively because instead, I inverted myself into becoming a complete zombie, accepting the shit of others, in total separation of myself and others.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become nasty and bitchy to those whom I perceive to be inferior to me as well as those whom I perceived to experience themselves as inferior to me because within that, I was balancing the existence of me as inferior by being able to, for a moment, to be and become superior.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to attempt and control those whom I perceived as inferior to me because through them, I could balance my inferior personality and for a moment, experience myself as superior.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exists within and as polar personality design of inferior and superior wherein the dominant existence of me throughout my life was the existence of inferior and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicate the responsibility to stand equal to and one as life because when a moment arrived and I felt inferior, I didn’t stand up and directed the moment effectively but rather, remain quiet and within that made the statement that I’m less than life, that I have no power and that I’m limited.  

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to deny the nature of me as an abuser that I’ve become towards myself and towards others within the relationships in my world where I accept and allow the polarity design of inferior/superior to exist within me.

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to see the abusive nature that I’ve become within my relationships with myself and others wherein, I accept and allow myself to ride on the backs of those whom I perceive to be inferior to me without realizing what I’m actually doing which is to sustain the polarity design so that, within a moment, I’m able to experience myself as superior while 99% of the time, I experience myself as inferior.

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to redefine the word ‘Inferior’ and yet, accepted and allowed myself to walk the living expression of the word as myself wherein, Inferior = In Fear and Horror is the living expression of the word within this current world system however, Inferior within the principle of oneness and equality is and can be utilized as a support point wherein when and as One see oneself accessing inferiority, One Stop, Breathe, Correct the pattern and LIVE.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity design of and as inferiority/superiority without realizing that those two polar existence of me can and must be utilized as a red flag where I stop, breathe, re-bring myself to my human physical body and correct myself in that moment to stand within and as a principle of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my relationship with myself and with other beings in my life wherein I’m bouncing between the personality polar design of inferiority/superiority and I’m either inferior within the relationship or the superior within the relationship and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to equalize and align myself to myself and other beings in my life because I’ve accepted and taken for granted my existence of my mind without questioning and or support myself within establishing a relationship with myself that is based on self trust, self directiveness, self respect and  self worth.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the abuse that I’m accepting and allowing within myself wherein I taken for granted my existence of inferior where I’m trying/attempting to balance myself through projecting superiority towards others.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the polarity design of inferiority and superiority is based on competition and comparison where I’m comparing myself to other human beings personality design within the nature of superiority/inferiority and thus assessing whether I can compete with them to gain a moment of superiority or whether I should simply become totally inferior when I’m around them.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world system that is based on the polarity design of inferiority/superiority because I haven’t yet stand up as an example of Oneness and Equality as WHO I AM and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility within the creation of a world system that is based on a polarity design of inferiority/superiority through the basic common sense that, that which I’m allowing within, I’m allowing without.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world system that is based on a polarity design of inferiority/superiority wherein those who have the power and money are superior towards those who doesn’t have power and money and within that acceptance and allowance, we have agreed to a world where the majority are being enslaved and control for the behalf of a select few and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world system that do not consider and regard everyone as equals and thus, allowed a world of abuse and suffering instead of common sensically a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the polarity design of inferiority/superiority was taught initially within the family construct where the parents are being superior over their children who are inferior to them and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between the family construct and the world system and thus, remain blinded to our creation of this world within the nature of competition and comparison through and as a polarity design of inferiority/superiority.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between the world system as MONEY and the Inferiority/superiority polarity design wherein those who have money, has power and thus are superior to those who don’t have money and are being enslaved and control by the elite in this world and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility within it and thus, stand up and become a living example of Oneness and Equality where no abuse is allowed and LIFE isn’t subjected to Money as the living force of this existence.

I commit myself to correct myself and my relationship that I have with myself as well as with others and utilize the experience of superiority/inferiority to a self support transformation tool.

I commit myself to direct and push myself to stop the existence of me of inferior and to stop riding on the backs of other only to sustain the polarity design so that I could feel powerful and worthy by abusing other beings in my world.

I commit myself to stop the existence of me as inferior and align myself as LIFE, equal to and one as the physical and I commit myself to stand as an example and not accept and allow anything that is less or more than WHO I AM as LIFE as the PHYSICAL and thus, direct myself and this world according to what is best for all within the establishing of a world that is best for all lives equally.

I commit myself to – when and as I see myself accessing inferiority/superiority, to STOP, Breathe and bring myself back to my human physical body. I realize that I can and must utilize a flag points such as inferiority/superiority to support myself within my process of facing what I have become and changing myself to WHO I AM as Life as a living principle of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to ESTABLISH a relationship/agreement with MYSELF and support myself in all ways possible within my process of stepping out of my mind and stepping into this oneness and equality physical reality.

I commit myself to expose the polarity design of superiority/inferiority within this world system and make sure that all human beings has the potential to be and become Superior human beings within the context of Super-Peer -> Super person of equal rank or standing

I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself and my world through abusing and using others to stabilize the energy body that I’ve become and instead, changing and correcting myself to stand in every moment as a living example, as a living expression of LIFE that is best for all.

Religion of Self – Dependency – Day 9

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to leave a back door for mistakes through always having someone to blame for my responsibilities, instead of walking a time line, walking in clarity and effectively planning that which I’m participating with and get to the utmost potential in everything that I do.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to – Instead of walking my responsibilities during my day, in self trust and directing myself effectively, I seek for someone to direct and approve my doing so that if I fuck up, I could blame this person for it.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to take full responsibility for my responsibilities within the need for someone to approve that which I do.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the nature of my dependency towards others within looking/seeking for someone to stand as a pillar to approve and validate my doing and within that, haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world, within self-trust in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my entire existence was dependent upon others to validate, direct and approve me and in that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for my life because I gave my power away to those whom I blindly follow and trust them to direct me.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be directed, controlled and enslaved to the world system wherein, I give my power away to other beings to make decisions for me without realizing and seeing that by giving my power away, I’m compromising myself and my world as the silent acceptance of this world to continue functions as it is because apparently, I’m not worthy to speak and stand up because I require someone else to insert words into me so that I know that what I’ve said or done was pre-approved and validated.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exists as a shadow in this world through not taking the responsibility and actually directing myself but instead, blindly followed by the example of those who came before me despite of the physical evidence that their example wasn’t and isn’t an example that is worthwhile due to the consequences of this current world system that is based on abuse, suffering, crime, wars and survival and in no way best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to train and program myself to always seek for approval for my doings and in that, abdicated the responsibility to be and become a human beings that is standing in stability, directing oneself and one’s world without being influenced, controlled and enslaved to a system that is founded on self interest and the survival of the fittest.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I’m trusting other beings to direct me and in that, making the statement that I’m not worthy for my own self trust.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my entire existence is depending on others to direct and validate me and within that, I’ve not seen how the world system functions exactly the same where only a select few direct and validate those who blindly accepted themselves as inferior and unworthy.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give value to those who have come before me because apparently, they know better and I must follow them, despite the physical daily prove that they have no clue within how to direct themselves and our world because if they would have known, this world was already a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to validate and worthy myself through the approval of others and when I didn’t get the approval, I doubted and question myself from the starting point of inferiority.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that for a substantial change in this world, I cannot trust anyone but myself and thus, I will myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world so that in every moment of every breath, I will act and do only that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize the meaning of ‘cross referencing’ and thus, I used it to indirectly seeking for approval, trying and attempting to present that I’m clear and directive but the fact of the matter was that I’ve manipulated others so that I could be validated and approved and thus, if anything went wrong, I could justify it through saying that it was cross reference and blame others for the fuck up instead of taking responsibility from the get go and utilizing cross referencing form equality and oneness starting point instead of fear and inferiority.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I require someone to tell me what I should say or do, I cannot  trust myself to direct this world to a world that is best for all and thus, I’ve abdicated my responsibility as a human being, to face myself, correct the relationship that I’ve formed with my mind and change myself so that I would be able to stand up within myself and this world and do whatever it takes to make sure that this world is a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to get myself sorted out in all aspects as I see and realize the extent of that which I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live and exists as, with the direct consequences of allowing a world that is best for only a few while others are seeking for the approval of their very existence through money.

I commit myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world within self trust and so, Will not accept and allow myself to be influenced, controlled and enslaved by anything and anyone and thus, I commit myself to understand how and why I have blindly diminished myself to such an extent that my entire existence is dependent on others.

I commit myself to – when and as I see a movement within me of wanting to say/ask something so that I could validate myself through the answer, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back here, I stand within and as me in self trust within the realization that if I would to fuck up, I will learn from it, face, correct and change.

I commit myself to direct myself in every moment according to a basic principle of what is best for all lives and in that, I do not require anyone to tell me what is best for all lives because with common sense and self honesty, the answer is very clear.

 

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