Taking responsibility for my creation - Day 96

This is a continuation to the Blog post:

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

They are Better than me, I'm so fucked up - Day 95

I commit myself to show how the starting point of each single character that we have created within and as ourselves serve one purpose only - Self Interest Desire for an experience that only through becoming the character, equal and one, Self is able to gain the experience and within that, disregarding the Life that is here as who Self Is as self is busy bouncing from one character to another according to what suit self the Best in order to survive in any given moment.

I commit myself to show that the cycle of the Self Diminishment Character will work and function in absolute perfection within and as ourselves where we will bounce from a Negative Energy charge to a Positive Energetic charge and back to the Beginning (to the Negative and the Positive to the Negative) where all of which can only exists within and as our permission to Compare ourselves to the Idea/Picture that we have created in our mind of who and what we should have been within the picture, and we will compare ourselves to other people in our lives to make sure that our Self Diminishment and Sabotage cycle will always remain intact and in place. 

I commit myself to kill the Self Diminishment Character within and as myself as I realized that I was the one who decided to create myself as the Self Diminishment character. I realized that to expand and grow myself through the example of others that have walked the time line to develop their skills to be and become an effective human being within themselves and this world, I must stop all participation within and as comparison and competition as those are just more characters that I've created as myself to protect myself as the character that I've become, in self interest, in separation and till here no further.

I commit myself to show that the decision to be and become the self Diminishment character was made by me through my acceptance and allowance of thoughts and back chat to be and  become my directive principle as that was what I was taught by those who have come before me to always protect and defend my own self interest of survival. I see and realize that I was the one who have accepted the teaching and the example of others and have thus accepted the Comparison and competition characters to exists within and as me and thus, I stand here, in full awareness of why and how I've created myself in the nature of self interest to protect my survival of and as characters and from this moment onwards, I commit myself to assist and support myself, by dissecting each and every memory that had led me to the decisions that I've made in absolute separation and ignorance and to thus, assist and support myself to delete the memories by standing equal to and one as the memories, delete them, breath by breath until I'm purified from my own enslavement that I've trapped myself from the beginning and stand up as LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to Show that our fight for our self interest Survival within which we will always compare and compete with one another, will never be the solution for the creation that we all as one created and thus, it is the time to stop competing, stop comparing and stand together within the realization that it was always US who have created ourselves and this existence in separation from ourselves and LIFE as ourselves and it will be US who will re-create our Creation as LIFE as Ourselves when we accept and allow ourselves to kill our Characters that we have created in order to trap ourselves within and as our creation because the consequences of the game/movie that we have created is devastating and must be stopped and thus, from here on - the rule of the game must change - Equality and Oneness as what is best for all will and must be our guideline, our principle that we will stand as for eternity, to ensure a LIFE that is in fact best for all.

They are Better than me, I'm so fucked up - Day 95

This is a continuation to the Blog post:

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

 

Within this Blog, I will Walk the Process of Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how and why I've created myself within and as the Self Diminishment Character as a data base for multiple Characters that I can choose from that will suit me the best in every given moment to serve One purpose only - My own Self Interest within and as a desire for an experience, either Positive or Negative.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've created the Diminishment character within and as myself through an idea that I've created in my mind of who and what I should be in any given moment and as long as the picture/idea in my mind doesn't match the physical reality, I will not be satisfied with myself and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my own dissatisfaction from myself is through comparing myself to the idea/picture in my mind through projecting the idea/picture onto other people in my environment wherein through those people, I will activate the Cycle where I access self diminishment through first becoming Jealousy, then spiteful in finding fault in them, move to elevate myself for a moment until I go back to comparison, self diminishment, jealousy, spitefulness and the cycle continue. Thus, I commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing the comparison towards another human being, to sustain the idea/picture I hold within myself in my mind, to STOP, Breathe, and to not accept and allow myself to follow the back chat, move through the character, delete the idea/picture that I have about myself in my mind and Stand Here, as who I am, as Life that is here.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself see and realize how I've manifested the Diminishment character wherein I will first create and idea as picture in my mind of who and what I should become and who and what I see myself within my world and my environment; when a being in my environment challenge my perception of myself as the idea/picture in my mind, I immediately access comparison and competition with that person, not seeing, realizing and understanding that this being is standing as a mirror of my own comparison toward myself to the idea/picture I have about myself in my mind. and thus, because I haven't realized that I'm comparing myself to myself and I believe that it is all about the other person, I access jealousy; when and as I'm in this LOW and NEGATIVE energy charge, I will seek for ways to balance that emotions and elevate myself through finding faults within and as the other human being based on past memories that I hold onto them for that exact moment where I could use the memory against them, to create a positive feeling. But than, as I push myself to find the fault, there is a voice within and as me that remind me that I have failed an thus a failure, how wrong and unworthy I am and so - I go back to the Negative emotional charge but of course, I will not allow myself to stay there and I'll keep on looking for faults in the other being so that I can access the positive energetic charge again until… the experience of "I'm so bad, I'm unworthy, they are better than me" is in complete possession and I've absolute integrated with and as the diminishment character.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that for the Self Diminishment Character to Exists, the Comparison and Competition Character must Exist and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've been missing a critical point all along - Instead of comparing and competing with other beings in my world and my reality, I'm able to expand and grow myself through Learning from other people within the understanding that in order to develop the skills that those whom I compare myself with has, I require to walk a time Line in space/time physical reality. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create my self existence within and as the Diminishment Character and within that, enslaved and trapped myself within and as a infinite cycle where I will never see, realize and understand Who I am and my utmost potential as a Physical Living Human Being as I was busy comparing myself to others, not giving myself the possibility to in fact expand and grow myself through others that are standing as an example of who I am able to be and become within and as the principle of Oneness and Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that so long as I give myself the permission to diminish myself within and as my mind and within that, not accepting and allowing myself to grow and expand myself as a Physical Living Human being, I will remain trapped within and as my own mind not ever be able to step out of my mind as I'll be busy judging myself and be hard on myself and never in fact change.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize the cycle of Self Sabotage that I've created within and as the Self Diminishment Character wherein, instead of standing within and as a principle of Oneness and Equality and learn from the people in my environment, that have proven that change is possible through a decision that that they have made to assist and support themselves to step out of their character and become LIFE that is best for all, I had allowed myself to compare myself to them within the attempt to WIN my validation, gratification and glorification without ever realizing that I can Never be more than who I am, I can never be More than who others are and that within and as this game/movie that we have created within and as a decision that we have made very long time ago to trap ourselves for eternity to and as our mind, the only solution is to wake us all up, stand together in Equality and Oneness and change who and what we have become according to ONE principle - that which is best for all within which, we'll stand up together and change our creation to and as LIFE that is Equally best for all.

What is Important? - Day 86

I've noticed an interesting point within and as myself wherein one Character is the desire for being defined as important by another, waiting for others to validate and give me a purpose. The other character, cannot accept self importance because there is another character of self worthlessness which is in friction with the self importance character.

Here we can clearly see the polarity design within and as self, consisting of and existing as characters which are in friction which is also just another character. 

So what is Importance as the living expression of the word?

Let's walk the redefining word procedure as was explained in much details in Earth's Journey to Life:

Day 4: Redefining words - Part 1

Day 5: Redefining Words (Part 2) - Playing polarity games

Day 6: Redefining words (Part 3) – Experience of the Polarity game

Day 7: Redefining Words (Part 4)- Redefining words as living words

Day8 - Redefining words (Part 5) - How to redefine words – Gathering Information

Day9: Redefining Words (Part 6) How to redefine words – Investigate the word

Day10: Redefining Words (Part 7) How to redefine words –Creative phase

Day11: Redefining Words (Part 8) How to redefine words - writing a definition and checking the content

Day 12: Redefining Words (Part 9) - Self Forgiveness statements on redefining words

Day 13: Redefining Words (Part 10) - Self Forgiveness statements on redefining words 2

Phase 1: Self allocation:

As I've written above, Importance within and as myself, thus far, was always defined by external validation by others and when it was coming down to self importance, I couldn't accepted myself as importance as I've made sure worthlessness character will always remind me that I'm not important.

What is fascinating about the design is that I would go into a jealousy character towards those who I define as importance, when and as a picture or a memory in a form of picture would pop up in my mind and then, I will go an diminish myself as justification and excuses of why I cannot stand in equal and one position as they are, and become important, not seeing, realizing and understanding how I've separated myself from those beings as I've realized that they are in fact me.

The jealousy going into the extreme when and as the people that I perceive as important are in my close environment, are part of my immediate environment. What I will do then is - instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I equal and one as everything that is here, I go into spitefulness, trying to diminish them within and as my mind, not realizing that the character that I'm dealing with is in fact - a desire for importance character, a desire for gratification, glorification, validation that only others can give me, in separation of me as all that is here.

Phase 2: Dictionary Definition: (http://dictionary.com)

1. the quality or state of being important;  consequence; significance.

2. important  position or standing; personal or social consequence.

3. consequential air or manner: an air of bustling importance.

4. Obsolete . an important  matter.

5. Obsolete . importunity.

6. Obsolete . import  or meaning.

We can clearly see that society has define the word 'Importance' within and as a positive energetic charge wherein a Value is being attached/connected/defined within and the word. Obviously, the definitions above cannot stand within and as an expression of and as LIFE as it is only lived as energetic experience that one hold on to, do defined oneself within and as oneself as the importance character.

Phase 3: Sounding

I'm-Port-Dance

Import-hence -> import from this moment onward.

What I found fascinating within the sounding 'Import-Hence' was the Living expression of the word that Stand within and as principle of Oneness and Equality as follows:

Phase 4: Creative Writing:

I understand that the word importance is the value that I had given the moment in order to make it important to myself. And when I look at self honesty within and as myself I am able to give things value from a self interest starting point or I can give something a value of life / of what is here in the breath.

If I then give the word ‘important’ a value that is embedded within life I have made a decision to see only that which brings forth life as important within and as myself. Thus to redefine the word ‘importance’ I will look at: Downloading the program of LIFE to the current/existence program so that from this moment onwards, all will have the possibility to realize ourselves as LIFE, stand up as LIFE, and together, create LIFE.

Phase 5: Redefining the word Importance:

From hence forth I import within and as myself as well as myself as another the value of life of what is here.

Inversion of purpose – Day 24

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see our inversion of purpose wherein instead of us all coming and standing together in Oneness and Equality, we have separated ourselves to individualized purposes to fulfil our desires, wants and needs without considering where the resources are coming from and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that through our fight for our individual purpose of survival, we’ve used and abused the resources that are available on Earth without taking into consideration that if we would have walked in Oneness and Equality, we would have make sure that the resources will be available to everyone on Earth and we wouldn’t have allowed a world where more than half of the beings do not have access to the resources and thus are dying from starvation, dehydration, and diseases.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realized that we have become locked and limited to our individual purposes of survival and within doing so, compete for the resources that are available on earth without any consideration of the abuse not only of the resources but also towards those who do not have access to the resources because a select few has taken control over the physical resources and have put a tag price on is as if it is belong to them as well as being defined and valued by Money, despite of the fact that the physical resources are of Earth and as such, should have been unconditionally shared with all that is here, in harmony and equality.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that we are all walking and directing ourselves according to our purposes of survival and within that, accept and allow competition, greed, war, crime, and corruption to manifest and exists in this world and we have Failed to realized Oneness and Equality and thus, separated ourselves from LIFE as ourselves and become individualized beings that see to fulfil their purposes of survival despite of the fact that there isn’t enough for all the fulfil their purpose of survival due to Life being defined according to Money and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider Equality and Oneness and therefore, utilizing what is available on Earth within the starting point of What is best for all by making sure that we stop the abuse of the resources and distribute it equally to all.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that LIFE isn’t define by fulfilling one’s purpose to survive as it is a very very limited and separated version of LIFE and yet, I’ve taken my purpose for granted because it was what I’ve been taught at home/religion/culture/environment  without questioning and challenge the belief of fulfilling my purpose of survival while the majority of this world is far from reaching any form of LIFE as their birth is followed by death from starvation, malnutrition, dehydration and diseases even though the physical resources in this world is enough for everyone to have a dignified LIFE but due to Money, power and control, only a select few can fulfil their purpose of survival in ease while the rest of us are in constant fight and chase for Money to sustain are Lives that should have been, from the Get-Go, a life that is best for all if we’ve realized and understood Equality and Oneness as ourselves, as Life, as WHO we are.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have blind myself from the obvious – our human physical body that is standing as an example of Oneness and Equality wherein all the cells in the body are working together in Equality and Oneness, without any separation and hierarchy as all the cells in the body are functioning together and assisting and supporting each other to sustain the human physical body in its upmost potential.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world that is accumulation of individualized separated beings who only seek for one’s purpose of survival and because we’ve failed to see and realized Equality and Oneness We have allowed from this very separation, to create a world that survival is defined by Money and the resources has been taken over by a select few who has Money and thus, what was supposed to be a world that is best for all with equalized resources distribution, has become a world of corruption, abuse, crime, war and conflicts where the majority of the beings in this world has no chance to survive due to not having access to the physical resources that are HERE.

 I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that if we would all worked together as Equals, we would have made sure that all the resources will be utilized equally but because we are extensively separated from ourselves and each other, we have accepted, allowed and thus created a world that is abusive in nature, as a direct reflection of ourselves and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to face, realize, correct and change my very abusive nature that is directly responsible for how this world exists today because I’ve taken for granted the world system and did nothing to practically chance myself as the creator of myself and this world and therefore, walk within a self trust decision of WHO I am as LIFE in every moment of every breath and to lead by example a world that is Best for ALL.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that when we take and take and take to fulfil our individual purpose of survival we are within that, making a statement that we do not care or consider everyone equally in this world as the physical evidence clearly shows that the majority of this world has no access to the available resources on EARTH because of our abusive nature of taking and not giving, instead of walking according to the Jesus message of Give as you’d Like to Receive and within that, making an agreement with ourselves and each other to do what ever it takes to bring about a world that is best for all in all way possible so that EVERY ONE will have free access to the resources available on EARTH.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the competitive nature of human beings of TAKING without GIVING to fulfil one’s purpose of Survival and within that competitive nature, we disregard and inconsiderate all as Equals by accepting and allowing a world where only a select few have access to the resources that are available on EARTH instead of walking the principle of Give as You’d Like to Receive and within that, making sure that ALL have equal access to the resources that are available on Earth.

I commit myself to expose the inequality in this world and stand up and implement a solution that will make LIFE enjoyable to all human beings and within that, to invert the purpose of survival to purpose of LIFE as all as ONE as Equals where we walk together in agreement to support everything and everyone that is here within the principle of what is best for all.

I commit myself to make sure that all the resources that are available on EARTH will be equally distributed and physical equality and Oneness will stand in fact.

I commit myself to a process of re-education from an individualized divided beings that seek for our own survival, to humanity that the directive principle IS LIFE as WHO we are and thus, we will ALL work together within agreement to support everyone Equally and establish a world that is best for all in all ways possible and will never again accept anything that is less than LIFE as Who we are.

I commit myself to change my abusive nature of taking without giving to walk in every moment according to the principle ‘Give as you’d like to Receive’ as a direct reflection as what I would like this world to be and become and within that, I commit myself to assist and support all beings to change their abusive nature so that we can all correct our abusive living application to human beings that lives in harmony and equality as What is Best for all lives because we see and realize that what is best for all IS also best for me.

I commit myself to invert myself back to LIFE and realize that my purpose is LIFE that is best for all and thus, I commit myself to do whatever it takes and as long as it takes to face, correct and change myself – to bring myself back to myself as LIFE as Who I am.

Who I am is a Free Choice? Day 23

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to move and motivate myself according to what and how other people will see me and I failed to see that I’m defining myself according to What I do instead of Who I am as the decision within what I do and thus, separated myself from myself by NOT walking my life as WHO I am but only as What I do to define Who I am and within that, I’ve missed LIFE, I’ve missed myself as I gave my entire power away to the enslavement system of and as the mind and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to walk the decision of Who I Am as Life and direct myself and this world according to Principle of Oneness and Equality as What is best for all because What I do was always in the nature of Self Interest and thus, Who I have become is/was in the nature of Self Interest, always looking for rewards within what I do as the incentive to Live.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that Who I am as a self interest Principle is in fact Evil because while I allowed myself to direct and move myself within self interest, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to see that that which I’m allowing myself within, I allow in the world system and thus, the manifestation of the world as we know it today, is a direct reflection of my participation from the starting point of self interest and yet, despite of the physical reflection as the world as myself, I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to change and take responsibility for myself and this world as ONE.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that this world is a direct reflection of my acceptance and allowed self interest participation with and as the mind and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE and realize WHO I AM as Life and thus, limited my expression to my own self interest desires and allowed a world to be control and directed through and as self interest desires that manifested an abusive and cruel world as we exists within and as today.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give my power away within the belief that I have no power to change this world but what I’ve failed to realized is that changing the world start with changing self as what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become is in direct relationship to what I’ve accepted and allowed this world to become and thus, through the accepted belief that I’ve no power to change this world, I’ve gave up on myself and this world and allowed the compromise of billions of beings in this world in blinded faith of my self interests and fearful beliefs.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I have control over my life and that I have a free choice within it and yet, I’ve failed to see that my “free choice” is defined by my self interest desires and if I would really have a free choice, I would have chosen Life that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and belief that I have a free choice and yet, I’ve failed to see that my free choice is defined according to how much money I have to fulfil my self interest desires as well as, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where only a select few can fulfil their self interest desires instead of living in a world where the self interest desires is a LIFE that is best for all which is NOT defined according to Money but according to practical living expression that is of a support of LIFE as the sum up relationships between humans, natures and animals within an agreement to live, direct and express that which is best for all in every given moment.

                                         

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that Beings has a free choice and if they live in poverty and/or abusive Life situations it is due to their Karma and they have the capability to assist and support themselves to change their experience and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the nature of this belief is based on my own self interest desires through justifying and making excuses of why I do not have to stand up and  assist those beings through and as the principle of what is best for all because if I would, I would have to give up my own self interest desires and in essence, I would have to give up my Life and, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up my self interest desires as well as giving up my LIFE because I couldn’t grasp that LIFE is an accumulate relationship that works together within an agreement of what is best for all and that my life, is just a limited version of what LIFE is and thus, giving up the limited version of LIFE is to be in fact able to Live LIFE for the very first time in Equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only Free Choice that exists is to become LIFE that is best for all. And I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make decisions based on my free choice despite the fact that the consequences are in no way best for all because If I have walked my life in the ultimate free choice, I would have NOT accepted and allowed the abusive and Evil nature that I’ve become which has been proven by my backchat and I would have pushed myself to STOP, correct and change and become LIFE that is best for all in every breath, in every step, in every moment.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that If I would have a free choice, I would have chosen Life that is best for all and I would not accept anything less than that, from myself and from others in this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to continue participating with my backchats, internal conversations and secret mind, despite of the fact that I’ve proven to myself time after time after time that the backchat, internal conversation and the secret mind are always based on self interest desires and has nothing to do with WHO I am as Life as a physical expression and yet, through my acceptances and allowances of such participation in the mind, I’ve proven that I’m less than Life, I’m less than WHO I Am as Life and that I’m limited, control and enslaved to a system that abuse Life and all that is Here. And Thus, I’m making the commitment today, Now, in this very moment, to STOP my blinded acceptance and allowance of the backchat, internal conversation and secret mind because I realized that as long as I accept and allow my own participation in the mind, I’m abusing, sabotaging and compromising myself and this world and thus, when and as I see myself accessing a backchat, internal conversation and secret mind participation, I stop, I breathe, and I bring myself back here to and as my human physical body. I immediately correct and direct myself to change through self forgiveness and deletion of the pattern until it is done.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk my talk wherein even though I’ve realized the consequences of my acceptance and allowance participation in my mind, I’ve still haven’t taken the responsibility to STOP in every moment and direct myself according to principle of Oneness and Equality because every time that I’ve accepted a back chat as valid, as me, I’ve further separated myself and access another time loop. Within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that as long as I accept and allow the shit to continue within me, I accept and allow the shit to exists in this world and thus, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to stand as an example and direct myself and this world to a world that is best for all in all ways possible.

I commit myself to take the responsibility of assisting and supporting myself in every moment of every breath to get back to myself as a living expression of a physical LIFE.

I commit myself to immediately direct each and every point that I’ve missed that is proven through my participation in my mind and correct my living application in the moment of breath.

I commit myself to do so till I’m Life in fact and thus stand as a pillar of support for ALL as Equal as One as Me, as Life.

I commit myself to expose the nature of free choice that is accepted in this world and prove that   what we perceive to be free choice at the moment is a free choice to continue abusing ourselves and each other in this world and I commit myself to do whatever it takes to show and support the world that the only free choice that we truly exists is the free choice to become LIFE and that will be determine by the relationship that we have with each other as a whole within the establishing of a new world that is best for all.