Inner Dullness light up in Energy - Day 68

Indulge - Dictionary definition.

1. to yield to an inclination or desire; allow oneself to follow one's will (often followed by in ): Dessert came, but I didn't indulge. They indulged in unbelievable shopping sprees.

verb (used with object)

2.to yield to, satisfy, or gratify (desires, feelings, etc.): to indulge one's appetite for sweets.

3.to yield to the wishes or whims of; be lenient or permissive with: to indulge a child.

4.to allow (oneself) to follow one's will (usually followed by in ): to indulge oneself in reckless spending.

5.Commerce . to grant an extension of time, for payment or performance, to (a person, company, etc.) or on (a bill, note, etc.).

My allocation point -

I attached the word within a negative energetic charge within and as myself wherein I feel guilt when indulging. Mostly because there are always other priority tasks and assignment that I must do as well as the thoughts of not everyone can indulge and thus I feel guilt that I can.

Sounding -

In-dull-g-e -> In Dull in the God Energy

Indo-legend

End-all-G-E -> End all Godly energy.

Indulgent is a polarized word - when one is indulging, one access a positive energy within one's definition of pleasure within doing something in the physical reality. After the positive experience has been experienced, one is accessing to the negative emotion of guilt as self judgment for allowing oneself to indulge. 

Redefinition - deriving pleasure from consuming different forms of energy.

To assist and support oneself is to delete the energy experience and allow oneself to be absolutely here within and as everything that one do, breath by breath.

(for the process of redefining words - read Earth Journey to Life by Esteni De Wet)

Self Forgiveness -

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define and associated physical 'Hereness' within and as energetic polarization of either positive and negative and I haven't considered that 'hereness' is a physical living expression of and as me, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/associated/connect the word indulgent within and as a polarity experience wherein I defined specific physical reality activities has Positive and accordingly, I experience myself to be indulging. And within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/associate/connect the experience of indulgent within a negative energetic charge of Guilt and self judgement.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for indulging within and as the experience of guilt and I haven't allowed myself to embrace and accept myself within and as a breath, of simply being Here, within and as my human physical body and thus, remove the energy attachment to the word 'indulge' and walk the living expression of the word 'Indulge' as deriving pleasure from consuming different form of energy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word 'indulge' by judging and defining the word within a polarity experience and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to LIVE here, within and as breath, allowing myself to relax within and as myself/human physical body, enjoy the moment as me with no energy attached.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when and as I indulge by accepting the thoughts: "I have to get this and that done", " I can't afford myself to indulge", " How can I stand for equality and yet indulge when 3.3 billion people are suffering"; and yet, what I've not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that changing the world is a process that takes time, regardless for example, if I take a moment for myself to relax my human physical body and do nothing but being here, breathing, or allowing myself to take a break and watch a movie.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to assess in self honesty whether it is doable, practical and supportive for me to take a moment and indulge by making sure that I do not compromise myself nor others in this world and thus, when the moment is here and I'm indulging, I allow and commit myself to remain here, within and as my human physical body and thus, not accepting any thought/energy movement in the nature of guilt and self judgement.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that I am able to indulge in every breath that I take with any particular application that I may be participating within and as, as indulgence is deriving pleasure from consuming different forms of energy, such as eating food to sustain my human physical body, or breathing air to sustain my body or swimming in a pool on a hot day to support my body. And through this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the pleasure that I derive from indulging in a moment as I have connected the pleasure that I experience in a moment to self-interested actions.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the simple pleasures as pleasures of indulgence within every breath that I take because I've associated, defined and connected pleasure as indulgent to self interest and have thus judged the living expression of the words as well as the experiences of the words instead of redefining the words as a living expression that is best for all and walk the living word in self honesty, breath by breath.

I commit myself to investigate the living expression of every word within and as the principle of equality and oneness and to redefine the words to a living expression that I can stand according and as for eternity.

I commit myself to remove the energy connotation/association/definition that I've assigned to words and walk the living expression of words be redefining them according to principles of equality and oneness.

I commit myself to allow myself to indulge when and as I see in self honesty that it is a point of support to and as my human physical body.

I commit myself to support myself as equal to and one as my human physical body within participating in indulgent when and as I see that participating in indulgent wouldn't compromise anything or anyone