The Compartment of Now - Day 359

If we look at our day to day living,  we can map the day according to events, time, chores, responsibilities, obligations, leisure etc. and we can in essence, categorize our day into small compartments wherein each compartment, represents a moment that would always start with us taking a breath in and would always ends with us taking a breath out.

 

What differs one compartment from another is the physical space time direction that must be walked in each compartment while the principle remain the same - what needs to be done in that moment in time in order for us to walk the point to the best of our abilities, keeping in mind all the relationships and consequences that may occur and accordingly, making sure that the outcome would be an outcome that is best for all.

 

In other words, walking each and every moments that starts with taking a breath in and ending with a breath out, can be mathematically measured and perfected to achieve the result that is best for all.

 

However, what us human being had fucked up along the way? What is the ONE thing that separates us from walking each and every moment within our optimum potential? What is the ONE point that always keeps us trapped in thought cycles, reactions, emotions and feeling? What is the reason for us unable to be effective human beings in this world that walk one breath at a time, one point/task/responsibility at a time?

 

It is FEARS - the source from which we would make our decisions; decisions that would enable us to in any given moment, protects ourselves from other fears that we have created within ourselves without even realizing that we have actually manifested these fears on a physical level so that we could justify why it make sense to live with fears. How stupid that is? being trapped in our own fears..

 

So - the Secret is NOT the power of NOW, it is the awareness of ourselves and everything that is involved within each and every compartment we breathed ourselves in until the point is done and we can breathe ourselves out. Isn't it the same as birthing into this world with our first in breath until the last breath out at death?

 

More of this will be discussed in my next blog.

A Solution for effective Relationships - Day 150

This is a continuation to:

The Importance of Physical Communication - Day 148

Not everything revolved around me -  Day 149

 

I commit myself to push myself to become effective in my communication with other human beings because I see, realize and understand that for effective relationship with other beings in my world, the communication must be specific and direct so that no misinterpretation may occur and  we stand in alignment within each and every Living word we speak.

 

I commit myself to SHOW the relationship between our ineffective world where we allow the abuse of each other, the suffering of many and extensive harm of our plant, with our ineffective communication within ourselves and each other.

 

I commit myself to STOP having inner conversation with other beings in my mind and instead, I transform all mind communication to Physical communication wherein, when and as I see that I'm reacting towards another human being in my world and therefor, having communication with them in my mind, I stop and investigate the point within and as myself by turning the point back to myself and align myself to that which is here and accordingly, when and as I see that this point require physical correction, I direct the point within and as myself as well as, if I see that the point must be communicated within and as the principle of what is best for all as unconditional support, I take a breath, I make sure I'm here, stable, no energy movement, clear within me and I directly communicate the point with the being, not accepting and allowing myself to remain in my mind, having conversation with the being in my mind wherein I know where it would lead and what would be the consequences of this ineffective communication.

 

I commit myself to STOP expecting others to know what I'm speaking about inside my mind, with myself, and accordingly, expect them to make their best to make me feel good within and as myself. I see, realize and understand how I've sabotaged, compromised and abuse the relationships in my world through developing and establishing a dependency on others to fulfil me, to complete me and to comply to my wants/needs/desires and essentially, stand in alignment to my own self interest in my quest to fulfil my desires. Thus, when and as I see that I'm the inner movement of expecting others to do something for me, to support with my own self interest for a specific experience, I stop, I breathe, I turn the point back to myself, to see where I'm not standing in alignment with and as myself. I correct myself through a process of physical self forgiveness in self honesty and if I still see that I require support, I directly communicate the point with the being.

 

I commit myself to stand in absolute stability within and as myself when communicating with another human being and regardless of their actions, I will not accept and allow any energy movement to emerge within and myself. I see, realize and understand that I'm Here, able and capable to assist and support myself in every moment of breath and thus, when and as I'm receiving feedback from the other human being, in direct communication, that the being cannot at the moment stand within the point I ask them to support with, I accept and respect their feedback and not allowing any form of manipulation to get them to do what I desire/want/need them to do as that would indicate that I'm not clear within and as myself, that I'm not trusting my own self application and that essentially, I've separated myself from myself and the other and accordingly, I stand, assess, investigate and correct myself through and as principle of equality and oneness.

 

I commit myself to stand within and as the principle of give as you'd like to receive regardless of other beings actions within and as themselves as I see, realize and understand that unless I stand, myself, within and as the principle of give as you'd like to receive, I'm not in fact standing as an example for others to assist and support themselves as well, in transforming and changing themselves according to that which is best for all. In this, when and as I see myself expecting others to give me as I would have given them, I stop, I breath and I correct myself in that moment of breath as I see, realize and understand that my starting point within giving wasn't absolutely unconditional as I hiddenly expected them to give me something in return. 

Not everything revolved around me - Day 149

This is a continuation to:

The Importance of Physical Communication - Day 148

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that unless I communicate with the beings in my world and come to an agreement with them on each and every single point, there is no way they would stand in alignment with me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that for effective relationship with another human being, communication must be open and expressed as this world is clearly showing us the consequences of ineffective relationship where beings are NOT communicating physically with each other but rather having constant communication with themselves in their mind, with no alignment to each other whatsoever.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to expect someone to do something for me when and as I've not directly communicate and discussed the point with the being and I haven't realized that unless the communication would be steadfast, direct and open, there is no way to establish a supportive relationship with a being that would be based on principle of oneness and equality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that another may know what I require/need/desire/want without me directly communicate the point with the being and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that even myself is not aware of my requirement/needs/desires/wants due to the extent separation that I've allowed within and as myself and therefor, there is no way another can know what I do not myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be frustrated and angry about another human being that didn't stand according to my desires while I was busy manipulating the communication without being direct within the communication, expecting the other being to comply to my needs, to know what I want from the being; in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to turn the point back to myself to see that I am able to assist and support myself in any given moment, in every breath and essentially, do not require another to do something for me to make me feel good about myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that other human beings are not directly communicating with me when I'm having conversation with them in my mind and have no idea regarding my thoughts, inner conversations, backchat, reactions and unless I first sort myself out and stand stable within and as myself in self honesty and communicate physically with the other human being, our relationship wouldn't cease to exists the moment my inner thoughts/reactions/backchat would accumulate to the extent of me developing resentment towards the being and break of the relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that having conversation with other human beings in my mind indicate that there is something I'm not aligned yet to, within and as myself and thus, I must first stop, take a breath and investigate that which I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with, in separation of myself, direct and change myself and only than, if still required, I direct the communication physically, with the other human being from the starting point of assistance and support of both of us, equal and one.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how and why I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage and compromise my relationships with other human being in my world through accumulating backchat/reactions towards them without turning the point back to myself to see where I have not being honest with myself and blamed/judged the beings without seeing myself within it and because I didn't want to take the responsibility to change myself, I preferred breaking off the relationship, hoping my backchat/reaction would disappear only what I've not realized was that the backchat/reaction would always be there, cycling from one relationship to another, sabotaging one relationship after the following one, unless I stop, sort out myself and align myself to myself, my world and existence as a whole.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel anger and resentment towards a being in my world whom I perceived that one could have done something for me, according to my eye's views, and yet they didn't and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that they couldn't have done this thing for me unless I directly communicate the point with them, looking together if the point is practical, supportive for both and in alignment to where we are in our current process and within that, coming together to an agreement on that specific point, making a decision together, decision that is based on support of the physical rather than support the mind as to fulfil one's inner desires/wants/needs.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that beings in my environment must comply to my wants/needs/desires even when I'm not directly communicate about it and ask them for support. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that this world is revolved around me and everyone must live their lives according to my best interest. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that I must stand within and as the principle: give as you'd like to receive regardless of whether or not others are walking the principle themselves as I see, realize and understand that when I stand according to principles of give as you'd like to receive, I also stand as an example for others to transform and change themselves according to that which is best for all however, I cannot expect anyone to stand within and as a principle of equality and oneness unless I stand first, in every moment of every breath, stable, sound and clear within myself.

Stopping Regret, Becoming Physical - Day 139

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Day 136

Life Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Self Forgiveness - Part 1 - Overview - Day 137

Life Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Part 2 - Day 138

 

As well as:

This is a continuation to the Blog post:

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

They are Better than me, I'm so fucked up - Day 95

Taking responsibility for my creation - Day 96

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create an idea within and as my mind as how my process should be like already in terms of the amount of thoughts/reactions that I'm participating with and accordingly, when a thoughts comes up, I immediately react in judgement towards myself not seeing the opportunity that I have to stop, investigate and change.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for the regret that I've experienced through the stipulation of the environment that I'm currently in and within that, instead of facing the reaction as regret and walking through self correction, I've diminished myself through self judgement based on the idea that I shouldn't have experience regret within and as myself by now.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that in every moment of every breath, I have an opportunity to change myself through changing my starting point of how would I assist and support myself to step out of my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to unconditionally assist and support myself to step and walk out of my mind because if I had, I wouldn't allow myself to diminish myself through self judgement when and as a thought/reactions comes up and I immediately compare myself to an idea I've created about myself and whom should I be right now in my process, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that in that moment when the thought/reaction comes up, I have an window of opportunity to correct myself within and as breath through applying Physical Self Forgiveness and bring myself back here, to my physical reality, in breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that there is nothing WRONG with me when a thought/reactions comes up and so, instead of supporting myself through self introspection of what I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with, I've judge myself for having thoughts/reactions and in essence further separating myself from myself as I now see, realize and understand that every moment is a opportunity for change which means that instead of judging myself, I would Breathe, see the time line that led to the thought/reaction and accordingly support myself to stand in alignment with the thought/reaction and Change, in self honesty practical application as how I would see to be the best in that moment to assist and support myself.

 

I commit myself to Embrace, be humble and supportive for myself and in that, when and as I see myself accessing self judgement upon a reoccuring thoughts that came up within and as myself, I stop, I breath, and I investigate within and as myself the time line that had led to the thought to be manifested within and as myself because I see, realize and understand that the existence of this thought is to assist and support myself with seeing my acceptance and allowences and accordingly, take the responsibility to change.

 

I commit myself to stop hating and disrespecting who and what I have become as I was always the one who decide and within that, instead of fighting with myself, I embrace myself, support myself and caressing myself within this process of self change.

 

I Commit myself to Remind myself that in every moment of every breath a window of opportunity for self change is emerged and within that, I have the power to decide whether I would walk through this window, support myself and change or whether I would allow myself to time loop, close the window and wait till the next window would open up.

 

I commit myself to Remind myself and others as myself that when and as we accept and allow self judgement within and as ourselves, we in fact, accept and allow our own diminishment as we can in that moment, transform self judgement to self change and support ourselves to step out of the mind and delete the pattern/character that we have created, through investigating and seeing the time line which we have created the character into full participation and it's up to us to decide to stop, change and LIVE.

Life Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Part 2

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Day 136

Life Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Self Forgiveness - Part 1 - Overview - Day 137

 

As I was walking the Self Forgiveness yesterday and went back today to review my statements, I've noticed that the main point that I were accepting and allowing within and as myself was self judgement to control, enslave and take myself down into absolute self distrust, disrespect and in essence - Went into the Diminishment route.

 

When I looked at the Self Diminishment character, I've seen that this character is bases on Comparison which lead to Jealousy, competition and the polarity that would balance me between Jealousy as the 'down' and being spiteful to others as my 'high'. However, what I haven't covered in specificity is when the Comparison is bases on the Idea that I have about myself and what happen when my idea about myself isn't in alignment to my physical reality or where I am within my own process.

 

And so, yes, moments of regret had emerged which I've covered yesterday but what I haven't seen was how through regret, I judged myself to such an extent that I "lost" my own self respect to myself by judging myself for accepting and allowing thoughts of regret and accordingly, through the idea that I had in my mind of who and what I should already be in my process, I judged myself as I couldn't accept those thoughts and I haven't even seen my own struggling that indicated that the point wasn't a self realization point but rather energy fight that I've participated with myself so that I could justify the diminishment character within and as myself.

 

The point is that - There isn't right/wrong; the idea that I have in my mind about who and what I should be is an enslavement by itself because who I am isn't an idea that I must stand as; who I am is who I am in every moment of every breath and in absolute self trust, I would stand when I fall when participating with thoughts/backchat/feelings/emotions. I mean, I should be grateful for myself for seeing the backchat/reactions/thoughts in comparison to suppress and ignore and believe life is perfect and I'm perfect. If I wouldn't see the thoughts/backchat/reaction, that would be a problem. lol

 

So what I have I done? I totally diminished myself through self judgement for having thought of regret because I felt ashamed of myself. But instead, I'm here to assist and support myself to stand equal and one with what I've accepted and allowed as my mind and in that, not taking myself personally as I see, realize and understand how and why I've created those backchats/reactions/thoughts. So seriously, Enough - no more self judgement but rather seeing those moments of opportunity to change, Here, as and within breath.

 

Life Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Self Forgiveness - Part 1 - Overview - Day 137

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Day 136

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself thoughts and backchats in the nature of Regret as Fear of Loss which indicate that my decision to walk in every moment of every breath according to that which is best for all wasn't in absolute self honesty and there are still layers/dimension that I must look at and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for having those thoughts/backchat within and as myself instead of embracing that which I'm showing myself through the thought/backchat and accordingly, assist and support myself with going deeper in my self investigating, to be able to change myself as my starting point in making sure that I'm walking in clarity and stability, in self honesty.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for experiencing Regret as Fear of Loss without seeing, realizing and understanding the years of programming, influences and brainwash that I was busy enforcing myself into and as and in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to embrace myself as the process that I'm busy walking, acknowledging the space and time that I walk as the time line of each and every single program/system that I've created within and as myself and in essence - when and as a thought/back chat comes from within me, I have an opportunity to see that thought/backchat for what it is, see the trigger point, the activation point and the time line that led me to experience the thought/backchat and accordingly, support myself through Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment to Step out of the programming/systems that I've placed inside myself and to Breathe through it, bring myself HERE and simply LIVE as a physical expression, breath by breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to experience Regret as Fear of Loss when and as I hear/see that my past partners are already settled-in in the world system with a jobs, wife, kids and I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to automatically compare them to where I am within my life at this moment and projecting myself to the past and future, imagining how my life would have looked like if only I wouldn't make the decision that I made. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - in that moment of comparison as future/past projection, to only look at one side of the polarity, as the external life that I might have had, without seeing within and as myself, my internal world and what I would have gone through if I would have allowed myself to continue suppressing and sabotaging myself, as I am now starting to see, realize and understand who and what I have become through years upon years of suppression and character creations and what my future would be like if I wouldn't make the decision to assist and support myself in getting to know myself as the mind and accordingly, rebirth myself as a physical living human being.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to experience Regret as Fear of Loss when and as I see my life in comparison to the Life that I might have had with my ex partners and within that, assuming that my life would have been much easier if I would stay in those relationships however, I now see, realize and understand that when and as I project the words: "Easier Life" it is only from the perspective of having Money and thus, I see, realize and understand that I must stand for that which is best for all and make sure that all would have an "easy life" in terms of stopping all experiences of survival so that everyone would have the opportunity to in fact Live a Life that is worth while instead of only a few in this world that were Lucky enough to have some money in their hands to support them in fulfilling their desires on the expenses of the Majority of this world.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attempt to elevate myself through justifying why I have decided to walk the path that I'm currently walking and why I shouldn't have the Life that was prepared for me by my parents and I forgive myself that I haven't seen, realized and understood that my need to justify my decision, reveal that I'm not absolutely walking unconditionally the path that I'm walking and that in essence, my directive principle is still Regret as the Fear of Loss, because I fear that if I won't walk the path I'm currently walking, I would live a life of real regret, and I would lose myself and the support that I'm receiving from my fellow Destonians. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to walk my process and the path that I have chosen to walk, based on fear  that I may regret not walking my process once I died when I would realize that I had the chance to walk in the physical and yet, I haven't and within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that my process isn't absolutely unconditionally walked in every moment of every breath by me as the living principle of myself and my world and now that I'm seeing this point very clearly, I Commit myself to change the starting point and bring the decision back to myself, walking this process for and as myself because I see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing myself to walk my automated characters/personalities/reactions etc. is not a life that I would want for myself and I commit myself to STAND as the Directive Principle in every moment of every breath through continuing assisting and supporting myself in writing, self forgiveness, self corrective application, sharing myself with others from the starting point of having cross reference to minimize the time loops that I may walk as well as supporting others through my writings to minimize their time loops so that eventually, together, we could stand and recreate a world that is best for all, internally and externally.

Journey to Life - Day 100

Today, when  I realized that it's my 100 of Writing myself to Become LIFE, initially my reaction was - Shit, Day 100! Man! Cool! but then, in self honesty, when looking back at those last 100 days, I've realized the importance of continue writing every day. I mean, what I've accomplished in 100 days were just a small changes, nothing substantial that I can say - I changed. No..

 

Obviously, I'm not saying that from a point of judgement or diminishment, I'm saying it as this is what it is. in Self Honesty, there is a long way to walk, lots of suppressions  that I must allow myself to reveal to myself, face, let go and change, practically and physically.

 

When I asked myself the question: Why is it, that despite of me seeing the points that must be changed, I still allow myself to be preoccupied by myself in my mind? Why is it, that despite of me KNOWing what must be done, I am still not doing it? The answer is simplistic, I've approached the points from Knowing instead of self realization that is fully integrated as me - Within and as me and thus, what must be let go of is KNOWLEDGE and simply Living the practical Living expression of my realizations as Self change.

 

So, how to assist and support myself to integrate my realization as ME, as the Physical flesh that is me? The answer is also a simplistic one - it's to give myself the Permission to Decide! Give myself the permission to let go of all my desires as I can see very clearly that the desires are the stumbling blocks that I've not accepted and allowed myself to remove and are in essence the points that leads me to temptations, to remain in characters.

 

So.. What now, I remove the desires, the stumbling blocks are removed and.. How to live? When there are no longer systems that dictate each and every steps? How to live when there are no memories that comes up and tells me where to go, how to speak, how to express myself? That will be an interesting journey in itself as I see, realize and understand that from that moment onwards, it will be Me, as the physical flesh that will direct and move myself in every moment of every breath. Nothing is automated, it's self movement, here. So, I work with what is here, what is practically physically in my hands, I test the information for myself and see if it's aligned with the principle of that which is best for all, and I make the decisions accordingly. Because - what must be understood and realized is that I decide, in every single moment. I DECIDE.

 

And thus, I commit myself to identify my desires in its totality, to not leave anything behind that will keep an open door for any temptations; I commit myself to assist and support myself to dissect myself from all and every dimensions of my mind through a process of daily writing to be able to see the Desires that I've set forth for my fall and thus, to not change in fact.

I have to Say Something - Day 44

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire speaking when I'm in the presence of another human being and thus, I would look at my information and memory data base in my mind, for something relevant to say or talk about and instead of stopping and simply be HERE, breathing and being comfortable within myself in the presence of another and check Who I am at the moment and how I can assist and support myself with clearing myself and remaining here, I force myself to speak, to avoid the uncomfortably that I experience with silence when I'm in the presence of another.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself force myself to speak when I'm in the presence of another human being because I feel uncomfortable with silence and I haven't realized that the uncomfortably that I'm experiencing with regards to silence is because I have never been silent within myself and my human physical body, Here, within and as the breath and I have no idea how to move and direct myself within silence because as long as I live, there was always a movement, back chatting, inner conversation in my mind where silence and hereness was never part of the equation.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to be and become comfortable within myself and my human physical body because I have defined comfortableness through my mind, as experience that I can only have through having conversation either with myself in my mind or with other human beings and I haven't ever consider that the experience of being comfortable is based on energy participation instead of an physical expression.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged as a boring person to hang out with when I'm remaining silent and not speaking much and thus, I forced myself to speak and be communicative and I haven't realized that in that moment, I'm being directed by my mind and that self judgment is my directive principle which raise the question: Who is than the being that speaks/communicate because obviously, it wasn't a decision that I have made to move and direct myself when I followed blindly after my mind and forced myself to speak.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that I have never really been comfortable with myself within and as the breath because I've defined/judged/associated/connected/attached comfortableness and energy and thus, to be able to feel comfortable, I had either speak with myself or with another human being to generate energy.

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to consider Physical Comfortableness with myself and my body when I'm with other beings because I've defined myself according to how others perceive me and thus, if I get positive feedback, I feel comfortable and when the negative feedback arrives, I would feel uncomfortable and yet, I have failed to realize that Who I Am as comfortableness isn't define by anyone but it is a physical expression that is equal to and one as Who I am.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question/consider why is it that I require to go to my information/memory data in my mind to be able to communicate instead of simply breathe and speak what ever is Here with no previous preparations and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to limited my expression to that which is in my information/memory data base in separation of me and haven't allowed myself to align to all that is here.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to relay and be dependent on my information/memory data base to be able to communicate and within that to limit and restrain myself to my mind instead of becoming a physical expression within my living application.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire speaking and communicate with people in my environment just for the sake of speaking because I've defined myself according to the feedback that I'm getting within the communication process and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to search for a point to communicate about with the beings in my environment because I require the energy boost from them which I can get through their feedback and I have refused to see that who I am within the desire to speak is an energy addict that require a dose the energy drug to sustain myself and my personalities.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as an energy vampire to suck energy from the attention that I'm getting from other beings and thus, I experience myself as "I have to say something" because otherwise I won't be noticeable which is an important element for my personality survival.

I commit myself to stop looking and searching for conversation topics when I'm in the presence of other human beings and simply be Here, breath by breath.

I commit myself to stand in comfortability when and as I'm in the presence of other human beings because I realize that Who I am is not dependent of where and with whom I am

I commit myself to establish comfortablity within myself that is not defined according to thoughts, emotions, feelings
I commit myself to stop my inner conversation, back chat, thoughts that gave me the wrong impression of comfortableness and to stand as a physical expression of comfortableness that can be measured in every breath.

I commit myself to stop the energy consumption of my human physical body through the desire of feeling comfortable because I realize that comfortableness as a physical expression doesn't require any movement of energy but actually vice versa - physical expression of and as comfortableness is when there is no movement of energy and self is 'Here', breathing, equal to and one as the human physical body and all that exists.

I commit myself to stop following my mind in the attempt to find a point to speak about in my information/memory data base because I realize that when I'm following my mind, the directive principle is fear and self judgement which indicate that I'm not present, aware and attentive and essentially, not breathing.

I commit myself to stop existing as energy and become a living physical expression.
I commit myself to stop the habit of getting energy through the attention that I'm getting when I'm speaking and thus I stop the experienced of "I must say something" to draw attention and getting energy.

I commit myself to stop the dependency on the information/memory data base in my mind and simply be Here, present, attentive, aware and breath.

I commit myself to stop the vampire energy sucking to sustain the personalities that I've created and become a physical living being by walking breath by breath.

It is NOT fair - Day 37

Art by Andrew Gable

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in frustration within the thought: "It is not fair; why I have to work more than others because the others aren't standing in absolute self responsibility" and within that, I forgive myself that I've refused to see that making that statement indicate that I'm NOT walking my responsibilities as Who I am within and as breath, but rather still defining myself according to What I do as that very thought shows that I'm comparing my doing to others to elevate myself as self righteous as well as clearly reveal that what I do is not been done breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that containing negative energetic charge within the thought: "it is not fair" is the type of thoughts that many will have within the Equal Money System but because I've accepted the thought to elevate myself as righteous, I've failed to take the responsibility to clear myself and then stand as an example for others within sharing how I've supported myself to see and realize that the very acceptance of thought like: "it is not fair", is of no form of support to myself nor others as well as how I've realized that it is not about me nor them - it is about what is required to be done and simply walk it breath by breath within the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be frustrated when I have more responsibilities than others but what I have failed to realize is that comparison is USELESS and that WHO I am isn't define by what I do or what others are doing and if there is any slight of reactions towards others not walking their responsibly in absolute within me, it actually means that I have not yet walked my responsibilities in absolute stability breath by breath by breath without allowing the mind to influence who I am within the attempt to make myself righteous and more than others to feed the Ego.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as I have reactions towards others whom I perceive to be doing less than me, I'm not effectively supporting them within standing as an example because I've given value to what me and others are doing instead of Who I AM and Who the other are in fact as a living physical expression.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed reactions within the thought: "it is not fair" to elevate my ego as I'm being Good while others are not and within that, I have failed to see that instead of focusing on changing Who I am as a living expression of Life, I gave permission to my mind telling me that I must compare myself to others to feel alive and through the comparison judging me either as good or bad.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to expect that everyone will walk in absolute self responsibility while I haven't yet made the decision to walk in absolute self responsibility and I forgive myself that I've refused to turn the point back to myself and sort myself out and make the absolute decision of walking breath by breath in self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exists within a negative/bad energetic charge towards those whom I perceive to be irresponsible and I have failed to see that I've only reacted to them because I've placed value in my own self interest because obviously, there are many irresponsible beings in this world whom I have not experienced  negative energetic charge towards but because it doesn't effect me, I don't care; which perpetuate the extent of separation from all that is here within not caring for anything or anyone if it doesn't have a direct relationship to my self interest and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand in absolute Equality and Oneness breath by breath because I've allowed myself to become separated from all that is Here where WHO I am is directed according to self interest personality.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question Who I am within my responsibilities to make sure that my starting point within what I do is a direct reflection of Who I AM as the principle of what is best for all and thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my reactions within the thought: "it is not fair" indicate that who I am is still defined by what I do and thus, unless I clear the starting point and making the absolute decision of who I am breath by breath, what I do is useless as it was not a self move, self direction but rather separated entity that moved and directed me to fulfil my self interest desires through the acknowledge of what I do by others.

I commit myself to a breath by breath decision of Who I Am as a living expression of what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand in absolute self responsibility as breath by breath within the decision of who I am as the principle of what is best for all and I commit myself to stop all reaction towards other beings because I realize that reaction is a direct reflection of what I'm allowing myself to participate with, within myself and within my world and with allowing that, I miss a breath and a moment of a living self expression HERE.

I commit myself to stop all back chat with regards to other people's responsibilities as I realize that focusing on others responsibilities within my secret mind/back chat indicate that there is a part of me that I've separated myself from through comparison to elevate myself within the self interest design to make myself righteous/more than, to perpetuate the acknowledgement of me as what I do by others.

I commit myself to share my process of stopping the comparison of myself and my responsibilities to others and How I've transformed/changed myself to become WHO I AM within a breath by breath decision to walk according to principle of what is best for all because I realize that many will experience the same thought pattern when Equal Money System will be established and thus, I direct and move myself to stand as an example and support when the times arrives.

Fixing the problem by avoiding the real issue – Day 6

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allow myself to avoid sorting out the point that I’m facing through doing an act to cover up the fact that I have an issue with a certain point which I haven’t accepted as myself and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to suppress and separate myself from myself by not immediately face myself but instead run away from myself and making excuses for myself that I’m alright with the ‘solution’ that I’ve found for myself.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to – instead of sorting out a point within me that I’ve not yet aligned myself to, I allowed myself to hide and suppressed myself into finding an alternate ‘solution’ and despite the fact that I’ve time looped the same point time after time I continued suppressing and hiding from myself because I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to actually stand up in self responsibility and take my power away through become the directive principle of myself and my world within a commitment to myself that I will not stop supporting myself to see that which I’ve become, that which I’ve suppressed and that which I’ve tried to hide, until I face all that is me, correct and change.

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize that until I face that which I’ve created in separation of myself, I will time loop and miss a chance to change and become the directive principle of myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think that if I found a temporary solution to a point that I’m facing then everything will be OK instead of realizing that within that decision, I’ve made a statement that I’m not worthy enough to become a living being that walk in every moment according to principle that is best for all because I didn’t respect myself in that moment and actually assisted and supporting me to sort out myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world where we all see that there is a problem and instead of sorting it out, we try/attempt to hide and suppress through establishing charities and aid program despite of the physical evidence that those foundation didn’t stand the test of time.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to see that avoiding the problem doesn’t make the problem go away and a practical solution must be walked into correction.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that if I accept and allow a quick fix to cover up the real point that I’m facing, I’m actually suppressing and compromised myself and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT seen that a quick fix isn’t the solution for this world and that we require a substantial solution that will last the test of time but instead, I gave a positive value to charities and aid programs  without seeing that the core/source problem still remain.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that while I’m accepting quick fix instead of facing the core/source problem with a practical and physical solution, I’m accepting the lengthiness of the suffering of the majority of this world

I commit myself to stop postponing the inevitable of facing myself and sort out myself point by point, step by step until it is done.

I commit myself to do whatever is necessary to be done in order to bring about a substantial solution that is best for all lives and I will not accept and allow any short cuts, quick fix, and I will walk that which I’ve allowed as individual and as existence, into correction until a world that is best for all will be practically established.