Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 6 - Day 147

 

 

This is a continuation to:

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 1 - Day 142

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 2 - Day 143

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 3 - Day 144

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 4 - Day 145

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 5 - Day 146

 

I commit myself to SHOW that the decisions children and adults are making are always based on FEAR and to assist and support oneself in seeing, understanding and realizing the source of their fears in relation to each and every single decision one is about to make, so that the decision would be in fact based on What is best for oneself through the principle that what is best for self in self honesty is what's best for all.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that Despite of parents' intent to raise their kids to reach their utmost potential as a human being, unless the parent first clear one's starting point and standing in absolute self honesty, the parent would impose their fears onto their children which would result in ineffective decision making done by the child.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that when the parent speak to their children in fear, the sound in their words of fear would imprint into the child without any actual education process regarding of how to develop and establish an effective trust within oneself, in every moment of every breath and so, making decisions based on principle of what's best for all instead of making decisions that would result in one's self harm, abuse, sabotage and compromise.

 

I commit myself to SHOW to when the parents' control and limit their child's expression without walking with them the common sense educational process, the child would develop suppressed spite towards the parent and would make decisions that would be based on revenge of the parent with no consideration of the consequential outflows of their doing that may result in self abuse/compromise/harm/sabotage.

 

I commit myself to SUPPORT the youth with the understanding, seeing and realizing of who they are as a physical human being through sharing my own self investigation regarding my youth years and the decisions I've made that result in ineffective outflows and consequences that if I had the tools to assist and support myself back than, I would have had the chance to make decisions that would support me, my human physical body and this world as a whole and so, as I'm walking my correction in my journey to life writing, I'll stand as an example, as an educator, as a support for the youth and their parents in presenting the tools, the considerations and the support that we all required to be and become to manifest a world that is best for all, as who we are, as Life that is best for all.

Competition jealousy and spitefulness – Day 12

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to Ignore the thoughts that are running in my mind towards another human being and allowing it to go rampant in my mind instead of taking a moment and investigate what is the nature of the thought, What is it that I’m showing to myself when turning the point back to myself, what Am I missing while accepting thoughts towards another human being in my mind?

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed the nature competitive personality that I have become because when I was looking and observing the world, I’ve seen that everyone are competing with other human being and thus, I’ve accepted that as a social norm, imprinted that into me and lived out the competitive personality within my mind as well as in my actions.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to confuse standing up for myself with standing up as what is best for all wherein – when and as I’m standing up for myself, I access competition personality design where I’ll do my best to win a secret competition that I’ve created in my life due to jealousy that I’m experiencing towards that being; while standing up for what is best for all means – to not accept and allow any shit that is coming from me as well as other people and rather walk in every moment as within directive principle of what is best for all life in fact.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my relationship with females throughout my life as I’m taking a step back from them due to accepted and allowed jealousy towards them and instead of sorting out myself and aligning myself, I’ve taken the quick fix “solution” as disappearing from their lives. And within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to always create myself as righteous in my mind, justifying why I was right and they were wrong in addition to why the reason I disappeared from their lives was valid. What I’ve missed within it all is the opportunity to face myself, to face that which they were showing me, face the secret jealousy and competition and physically change myself to a respectful and humble human being.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to – exists in this world as a competitive human being that always seek for one’s own self interest.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to connect the nasty thoughts that I have towards another human being with Jealousy and competition.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between competition, spitefulness and jealousy.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that Fear of lose and fear of Failure are the origin/source/core of competition, jealousy and spitefulness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn from those who came before me through an example, how to design and program myself within a competitive personality design because I believe they know better than me, despite the fact that if they would have known better, this world wouldn’t have become a world of horror, abuse and suffering for the majority of this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire bad things to manifest for other human beings so that I could feel better with myself and my life, without realizing the consequences of my creation, without realizing that I’m sabotaging not only them but me as well, without realizing that I’m responsible for this world to manifest as an evil and abusive place because I allow those type of thoughts to occur in my mind and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to occupy my mind with secret back chat about other human beings to make myself feel superior, worthy and more than and I haven’t taken the responsibility to realize that which I allow myself to participate with and the consequences thereof – What I allow to exists within me, I allow to exists within this world and thus, I’m responsible for how and what this world has become as the equal acceptance of human beings that walk and direct themselves and this world according to a principle of “the strangers will win”.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed competition between human beings in this world because I learnt through history that only the strongest survive and if I want to survive in this world, I have to compete for my status/spot with everything that I’ve got, regardless the effect that it has on other human lives and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to connect and see the relationship between competition and fear of lose and through accepting competition, I’ve suppressed and deny myself the gift of facing my fears to be able to change myself and therefor my world to a world that is best for all, in all ways possible.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the polarity design in competition of losing and winning and thus, I’ve not accepted and allow myself to consider the losing side that exists in this world as those who were born to die so that only a select few could win and through me denying and blinding myself to see that which is HERE, I’m part of the winning side that disregard those who are unfortunate in this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that we require a new education system so that we can stop for once and for all walking the sin of our fathers and support the next generation to be and become beings that are in fact applying and living the principle of oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I’ve Not accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences of the current education system within the world system as a whole and within the family system as a part of the whole and thus, I’ve blindly walked according to those who came before me, never questioning reality and in that I’ve proved that I am a walking organic brainwashed robot that has no free will because if I had free will/choice, I would have utilize my will to make something substantial in this world and push myself to change myself as well as this world to never again create and manifest a world that is based on fears, survival, abuse and suffering.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to take the competition nature of human being for granted without question the starting point of such creation as well as not considering a world that is best for all because if I have, I would assist and support myself to stop and change me as equal to and one with this world.

I commit myself to stop the existence of me as a competitive ego personality design and change myself according to principles of do onto another that which you’d like to be done onto you.

I commit myself to work and establish a constructive educational system for the children to come where they will learn, apply and walk from the get go the principles of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to – When and as I see myself accessing competition with people in my world, to stop, breathe and investigate the core/source/origin point of what I’m actually dealing with.

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Fixing the problem by avoiding the real issue – Day 6

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allow myself to avoid sorting out the point that I’m facing through doing an act to cover up the fact that I have an issue with a certain point which I haven’t accepted as myself and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to suppress and separate myself from myself by not immediately face myself but instead run away from myself and making excuses for myself that I’m alright with the ‘solution’ that I’ve found for myself.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to – instead of sorting out a point within me that I’ve not yet aligned myself to, I allowed myself to hide and suppressed myself into finding an alternate ‘solution’ and despite the fact that I’ve time looped the same point time after time I continued suppressing and hiding from myself because I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to actually stand up in self responsibility and take my power away through become the directive principle of myself and my world within a commitment to myself that I will not stop supporting myself to see that which I’ve become, that which I’ve suppressed and that which I’ve tried to hide, until I face all that is me, correct and change.

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize that until I face that which I’ve created in separation of myself, I will time loop and miss a chance to change and become the directive principle of myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think that if I found a temporary solution to a point that I’m facing then everything will be OK instead of realizing that within that decision, I’ve made a statement that I’m not worthy enough to become a living being that walk in every moment according to principle that is best for all because I didn’t respect myself in that moment and actually assisted and supporting me to sort out myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world where we all see that there is a problem and instead of sorting it out, we try/attempt to hide and suppress through establishing charities and aid program despite of the physical evidence that those foundation didn’t stand the test of time.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to see that avoiding the problem doesn’t make the problem go away and a practical solution must be walked into correction.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that if I accept and allow a quick fix to cover up the real point that I’m facing, I’m actually suppressing and compromised myself and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT seen that a quick fix isn’t the solution for this world and that we require a substantial solution that will last the test of time but instead, I gave a positive value to charities and aid programs  without seeing that the core/source problem still remain.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that while I’m accepting quick fix instead of facing the core/source problem with a practical and physical solution, I’m accepting the lengthiness of the suffering of the majority of this world

I commit myself to stop postponing the inevitable of facing myself and sort out myself point by point, step by step until it is done.

I commit myself to do whatever is necessary to be done in order to bring about a substantial solution that is best for all lives and I will not accept and allow any short cuts, quick fix, and I will walk that which I’ve allowed as individual and as existence, into correction until a world that is best for all will be practically established.