Process of Economic Self-Education - Day 271

I have B.A in Business Finance. What does it means? NOTHING. Until recently, I had no Clue regarding the TRUE Economy, the Forces involved behind the Scenes of the World Economy System and the specificity of the Consequences that had manifested. I worked in the Capital Market, I was trading with Large of Money and later on, I was managing the Monies of the Israeli Elite. And yet, I had no Clue whatsoever about the REAL and NASTY Truth. Nothing that I learned in the University prepared me for what I have found recently in my initiative to truly educate myself. What I did learn was how to make the Rich richer and the Poor Poorer without me knowing that I'm actually doing it.

 

I've been asking myself for years why Poverty exists in this world and I couldn't find the answer. However, I asked the Question from the starting point of self interest as If I actually care about the people that live under great life restriction with no chance to ever 'win' in this game of survival that we call 'Earth'.

I never really wanted to find out the answer because if I would, I would have done what I'm doing now - Real Life Self-Education through the Material that is available on the Internet.  I made many excuses and justification such as: "I don't have time for this, I have other important stuff to do" or: "I won't understand anyway because I'm lacking with lots of background in formation so what's the point". I've tried many times to "Push" myself and educate myself and yet, each time I found another excuse and justification for why I can't do this right now.

 

It was really only recently that I took on this point for myself and started educating myself regarding the Forces that shape, mould and manipulate the world into it's current existence. It was only recently that I've realized that the fact that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to educate myself about the actuality of this world, places me in a position of an Abuser of Life because I have done nothing to in fact change what I saw that must be corrected and changed. I mean, how can I possibly change something if I do not understand the Mechanics of it, the relationships it involved and how it works and functions? this I why I've realized that I'm directly responsible for this current manifestation of this world because I could have start educating myself long time ago since I have the resources and means and yet, I haven't. I always made sure that I be safe in this world, which all my needs are taken care of.

 

Like with Everything, change start with self and so, I committed myself to watch at least 5 documentary per week and I walked through the resistance of actually educate myself regarding the Economic History of Human civilization that evolved to where we are now so that could understand the core/origin/source of the problem in specificity which from there, I could walk towards a solution that is best for all Lives.

 

What I have found within and as myself was an experience of depression, shame, guilt, frustration, powerlessness and limitation after watching documentaries. Like a giving up almost within the profound belief that it is already too late and there is no chance that a change would ever be possible on earth as the forces that control and govern this world are too strong to ever allow a change that would place them in an Equal position like anyone else. That belief in itself is the key of why no one in fact stood up thus far and called for encompassing solution for this world. We blindly accept the inequality system as it is, no matter which side of the coin we are at.

 

When I was looking at my own experience of Depression, Shame, Guilt, Frustration and Powerlessness, I found that I have the tools to assist and support myself to stand up from these mind experiences, forgive myself and move on towards a solution because there is a solution and it is up to me to stand up for it.

Yes, there is 1% of the 1% of the Elite of this world that would do what ever is possible to stop me and the movement I stand as and for however - what I had to remind myself is that there is 99% that can be much more powerful than any MONEY and POWER that would sabotage the change. The question is - will we stand up together? Again, I see that it is up to me and those who are walking with me, to gather the 99% together through sharing our realization and keep on educating ourselves and make a stand together - if I give up, I cannot expect any change in this world because literally, the Equality Equation is very simple Equation: 1+1=2.

 

Thus, I will walk in the next blogs to come a few realizations that I had while watching documentaries and expanding my awareness regarding this world.

 

If you haven't already, I suggest following Economist's Journey to Life and Activist's Journey to life.

Stress and Anxiety - Self Creation or Elite's Mind Control?–Day 222

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219 Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220 Depression - Self Interest or a Real Physical Condition? - Day 221

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

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Stress and Anxiety

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in Stress and Anxiety within the Embodiment of the 'I don't have Time' Character and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate the nature of the Stress and Anxiety within and as me, in seeing, realizing and understanding that I've accepted and allowed Stress and Anxiety because I've Defined myself according to what I do and specifically, how others would define/judge me according to what I do and the results that I bring and thus, when and as t 'I don't have time' to finish specific task/work in time, it is due to my expectations from myself to be more effective within and as myself as well as the Fear that others would be disappointed from me because they have expected better results from me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that unless expectations exists, either from myself or from others, Stress and Anxiety cannot exists. Please also, Read Day 61: Anxiety Character

 

I commit myself to STOP placing Value in how others would define me according to what I do and in this, to respect myself, to value and worthy myself within Physical Self Trust in assisting and supporting myself to walk breath by breath, seeing directly the Physical Reality as what would be the best for all outcome, in any given moment.

 

I commit myself to remind myself that Who I am is not defined according to what I do but within who I am as what I do and accordingly, to always cross reference myself, in questioning myself, and the starting point that I've based my decision of walking in any given moment and accordingly, if I see in self honesty that the starting point is not aligned and that I've projected the outcome to fit with my desire to be worthy, validated and accepted by others, I correct and change the starting point immediately, in breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create expectation from myself and within that, set myself in a goal of achieving these expectation, in my mind as a projection, and accordingly define myself as. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to access Stress and Anxiety when and as I'm not standing in alignment to my own goals/projections/expectations, instead of assessing whether the goals/projections/expectations that I've set forth for myself are realistic in a space/time consideration and within that, ask myself, what can I learn and correct within and as myself in how I could prioritize the time differently in aligning the space/time in a practical considerations so that the next time, I would have the sufficient time to walk through a point/task/work efficiently, specifically and effectively.

 

In this, I commit myself to transform moments of Stress and Anxiety to Gifts where I can learn, correct and perfect myself in how I look at things and make decisions, who I am within my decisions, what is my starting point and within that, align myself to self support practical consideration and application within the principle of what is best for all in any given moment, instead of Mind Self Destruction within and as for instance, accepting Stress and Anxiety to exists within and as me through a mind projections as expectations that I've set forth from the starting point of being validated, accepted and worthy in the eyes of others. .

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the common belief that Stress is valid as it is one's catalyst and motivator for one's movement, in how one would direct and push oneself to perfect oneself however, within that, I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that one do not require Stress as a motivator for one's movement because one can decide to move oneself, in all parts of oneself, in breath by breath living application as one realize one's Self Responsibility in Self honesty within and as the principle of what is best for all and in the very least, Stress as a motivator, was promoted by the world system, in how stress is connected with Money as how one would  motivate oneself in Comparison and Competition to others because one knows that unless one produce a specific outcome, one would not be rewarded and would face consequences that is not in alignment to one's self interest Desire to Survive.

 

I commit myself to further investigate the relationship between Stress, Anxiety and Money within the world system and within that, to educate myself in seeing how Stress was used throughout time to enslave and control human being for the benefit of the Elite of this world.