Self-Empowerment - Practical Living - The Decision (Part 3) - Day 511

Continuing with:

Self-Empowerment - Practical Living (Part 1) - Day 509

Self-Empowerment - Practical Living (Part 2) - Day 510

Let’s first define what Self Empowerment is – It is the application of the realization that only I can empower myself within the decisions that I make and the directions that I give to myself in any given moment. it is one’s power to direct one’s reality, based on a decision that one is making in any given moment as a principle that one lives by.

If we look at the examples from the previous blog where an image activated a reaction in you - In that moment, you faced a decision - to either accept and allow yourself to disempower yourself and spiral in the realm of the mind or to decide to empower yourself and stand as a support structure for yourself in stopping and not accepting and allowing the reaction inside of you to direct you, which from there you can see clearly the direction that you can give to yourself.

So in the context of our personal and individual processes, we are making a decision in every given moment – whether it is conscious decision or unconscious decision BUT a decision is always made by us. Many times in my process I found myself in a momentary possession where it literally felt like a war zone inside of myself wherein one part of me can clearly see how and why I am compromising myself during each moment that I accept and allow the reaction to continue inside of myself and the other part of me wants to continue and justify the validity of the reaction and not let go its right to exists inside of me. In these moments, a decision must be made, to which part of me am I going to “listen” for a lack of better word – the one where I accept and allow myself to be disempowered by my own mind or the part that can and will take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed within the self-trust that no matter what consequences I’ve already created, I stand and I will invest the time and effort to correct and align myself based on the principles that I decided to live by. Meaning, whether I will accept and allow the reaction to continue (self-disempowerment), or whether I will stop participating with the reaction and take responsibility (self empowerment) – I am the one that is making the decision for/as myself.

Here comes the tricky part – I often look at my life and I see limitations in being able to direct myself and/or create a reality that is best for myself and others. I used to see that as disempowerment being forced onto me but that is the mistake that I’ve made – physical limitations does not mean disempowerment as with any circumstances, we have the power to direct ourselves with the consideration of what is available here. We can decide to feel disempowered and give up OR we can decide to work with that which is here and still direct ourselves as what is best in any given moment.

For example, I can sit and cry the whole day about how difficult life  is or I can decide to do something about it. When I decide to do something about it, it doesn’t mean that I will be successful in my application or will see satisfactory results – but what is certain is that I will keep and find ways and/or align the direction until I become successful within the goals that I set forth for myself. An example, when I moved to SA, I refused to learn Afrikaans because I thought that I will not be successful in learning another language based on my school experiences so from the get go, I disempowered myself by believing my own mind that I’m not capable of learning a new language. Until one day, I made a decision to stop accepting and allowing my own self-disempowerment and to instead invest the time and effort to learn Afrikaans. Once I made the decision, learning Afrikaans became easy because I know that the amount of time and effort I will put into learning a new language, the faster I will see the results that I placed for myself as goals. The first step was to make the decision to empower myself and learn a new language and the second step is to continue making the decision every time I am exposed to a new word in Afrikaans that I want to integrate. Me making the decision to learn Afrikaans doesn’t mean that I will learn Afrikaans if I will not make a decision in any moment that I am exposed to learning Afrikaans if that make sense. This is where giving up is coming from, from us not understanding that it is not one singular decision to change and change is manifesting, it is a consistent decision to change in real time moment of facing the point in our reality and make a conscious decision to change.

So, at one stage you find yourself in a point where you say:  Enough is Enough. We find ourselves looping around the same pattern, knowing where the point will lead us, what consequences we will create if we continue participating in a specific pattern because we’ve already investigated and yet, nothing changed. That is because we haven’t really made the choice to change in real time moment and we allowed ONE singular thought to spiral inside of ourselves instead of just saying to ourselves – enough, I had enough of this now.

The bottom line is - for us to empower ourselves as a living expression of ourselves and really change - the power of making a decision/choice must be understood and applied. Will continue in the next blog post.

My Life as a Character - Overview - Day 79

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to REALize that I'm the creator of instantaneously characters which all of them has ONE purpose, to keep me in character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create myself as a dimensional character that create more dimensional characters that creates more characters for one single purpose - to create more character and within that, I've enslaved myself for eternity, always creating characters separated from me, not Realizing the power of my creation that is bigger from me as the creator because I created character to create character while all along, I was the character that created character. So who am i? a character?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to understand creation because I forgot that I've created myself as a character that created the character that forgot that I'm a character. Isn't it a nice stupidity loop?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself, as the creator of all the character to remind myself  that I'm the creator of the characters that I've created in separation of me and because I haven't created a character to remind myself that I've created me as a character, I doomed myself for eternity.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility as the creator wherein I've created all the relationships to support me as a character to not see the power I have as the creator that can create LIFE because I created an agreement with all the characters to support me to remain in character and have thus, enslaved us all, looping between all the characters moment by moment, breath by breath until we remember creation and create ourselves as Life .

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I'm the characters/personalities because I forgot that I've created these characters/personalities and I haven't considered that as the powerful creator of an eternal enslavement, I can delete the characters and freely choose, in self honesty, to step out of character and clear up the mess that I've created in character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've accepted and gave permission to other characters to resists change and to thus, do what they can to sabotage and limit my own self change because that is how I made sure that I won't change. Within that, I see, realize and understand how I've created resistance, how I gave power to resistance because I created resistance to protect me from an actual change.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create a character that fear stepping out of character because I know that I created characters that will attack and hurt my character because I fuck up with their characters. Thus, I realize that the conflicts, attacks and harms are all characters that I've created and I commit myself to stand in the face of what may come, prepared, in self trust, Here. And I realize that within that statement, I've created a character and thus I stop.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to look at the thought, realize that the thought was a character, to then find out that it was a character that realized that the thought was a character because I have now created a memory of the "realization" which I now let go, return to my human physical body and in an instantaneously moment, I create another character as a thought comes up and the cycle looping itself. So I keep reminding myself that I've created myself as character and I stop, and I realized that I created the character that reminds me that I've created a character until I step out of all the characters and no longer require character to remind myself that I'm a character.

I commit myself to support myself in seeing, releasing, deleting and clearing the mess that I've created in characters

I commit myself to keep reminding myself to step out of character when and as I see myself accessing a character and within that, I let go self judgement when I see that I'm still a character because I realized that self judgement is another character that I've created.

I commit myself to remind myself that I've created a character the remind myself that I'm a character to assist and support myself with stepping out of all my characters until I'm no longer creating a character of stepping out of character.

I commit myself to clear up the mess that I've created as characters and stand in the face of each and every character, forgive myself as the character and let it go.

I commit myself to show that character is being created instantaneously when a thought comes up, a memory has now been created as an experience that the memory has created as it created me. And within that, we are eternally fucked until we step out of character by cleaning that mess that we have created in character. 

 

Equal Money System? No… It's not going to work - Day 60

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to make a statement like: "The Equal Money System" isn't going to work; it is communism; it's Nazism; it's Socialism" and within that, I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to take a moment, to truly investigate the Equal Money System Policies and additional material and only when I'm absolutely sure that I've encompasses the entire material that is being presented I will allow myself to share my perspective within the starting point that: "I understand and realize that the world must be change; I understand that a solution must be walked and thus, I will bring to the table an effective discussion so that we could all work together towards a word that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that within making a statement that : "The Equal Money System isn't going to work" without presenting an alternative solution that is practical, physical and encompasses all the aspects and issues that must be addressed and changed within this world system, I'm part of the problem, I'm part of the extensive accepted and allowed manifested abuse in this world because all I've done was diminishing, limiting and failing those who devoted their life to walk the solution and bring the change to this world and within that, disregarded and unconsidered the majority of this world that lives in atrocious conditions while I could have done something to change their lives and existence as a whole. 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto past attempts of making a change in this world within the definition of its being a failure and thus, when a solution is being presented, I disregard the solution within the statement that it is not going to work and I haven't realized that I'm compromising myself and this world by not giving me the permission to investigate the Equal Money System Policies and additional material so that I could see for myself the common sense that is proposed as the Equal Money System encompasses and address all aspects of LIFE within the principle of what is best for all, practically, physically and effectively.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the limitation within the statement: "it will never work" wherein, I already stating that I have no power to change myself, no power to change the world and I accept the system as it is even though I know how abusive the system is. and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that the only way I will make a statement of: "it's not going to work" without initially test the point, is because I have money that protect me in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the reason/starting point of why I won't stand up for LIFE that is best for all is because I have money to protect me and thus, I don't have to step out of my comfort zone so that others could have the same as I have.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - within stating: "Equal Money System will never work" to give up on Life, to give up on those who cannot stand up for themselves and to perpetuate the system of abuse, greed and crime  because I haven't taken the responsibility to stand for those who cannot, I haven't taken the responsibility to utilize my resources to bring about a change in this world that is best for all but instead, I've tried to digg a whole under their feet to make them fall and accordingly, I won't have to step out of my comfort zone so that others could have what I have.

I commit myself to investigate and research the presented material with regards to the Equal Money System because I see and realize that I see and realize that making a statement against the Equal Money System without bringing/showing/presenting/discussing alternate solutions is a spiteful act against humanity because I do not take the time and effort to consider everything and everyone but my own self interest and within that, accept and allow the world to continue as its current function - a world that is best only for a select few while the majority suffer from awful and atrocious conditions within their position in this world

I commit myself to stand up for those who cannot stand up for themselves and work towards a solution that ensure a dignified LIFE for all. I realize that if I won't stand up and become part of the movement that stand up for LIFE, I am part of the problem and am thus, an abuser through me accepting and allowing abuse and suffering of the majority of this world to continue day in and day out.

I commit myself to walk and apply within every moment of every breath the principle of give that which you would like to receive.

Who I am is a Free Choice? Day 23

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to move and motivate myself according to what and how other people will see me and I failed to see that I’m defining myself according to What I do instead of Who I am as the decision within what I do and thus, separated myself from myself by NOT walking my life as WHO I am but only as What I do to define Who I am and within that, I’ve missed LIFE, I’ve missed myself as I gave my entire power away to the enslavement system of and as the mind and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to walk the decision of Who I Am as Life and direct myself and this world according to Principle of Oneness and Equality as What is best for all because What I do was always in the nature of Self Interest and thus, Who I have become is/was in the nature of Self Interest, always looking for rewards within what I do as the incentive to Live.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that Who I am as a self interest Principle is in fact Evil because while I allowed myself to direct and move myself within self interest, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to see that that which I’m allowing myself within, I allow in the world system and thus, the manifestation of the world as we know it today, is a direct reflection of my participation from the starting point of self interest and yet, despite of the physical reflection as the world as myself, I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to change and take responsibility for myself and this world as ONE.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that this world is a direct reflection of my acceptance and allowed self interest participation with and as the mind and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE and realize WHO I AM as Life and thus, limited my expression to my own self interest desires and allowed a world to be control and directed through and as self interest desires that manifested an abusive and cruel world as we exists within and as today.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give my power away within the belief that I have no power to change this world but what I’ve failed to realized is that changing the world start with changing self as what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become is in direct relationship to what I’ve accepted and allowed this world to become and thus, through the accepted belief that I’ve no power to change this world, I’ve gave up on myself and this world and allowed the compromise of billions of beings in this world in blinded faith of my self interests and fearful beliefs.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I have control over my life and that I have a free choice within it and yet, I’ve failed to see that my “free choice” is defined by my self interest desires and if I would really have a free choice, I would have chosen Life that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and belief that I have a free choice and yet, I’ve failed to see that my free choice is defined according to how much money I have to fulfil my self interest desires as well as, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where only a select few can fulfil their self interest desires instead of living in a world where the self interest desires is a LIFE that is best for all which is NOT defined according to Money but according to practical living expression that is of a support of LIFE as the sum up relationships between humans, natures and animals within an agreement to live, direct and express that which is best for all in every given moment.

                                         

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that Beings has a free choice and if they live in poverty and/or abusive Life situations it is due to their Karma and they have the capability to assist and support themselves to change their experience and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the nature of this belief is based on my own self interest desires through justifying and making excuses of why I do not have to stand up and  assist those beings through and as the principle of what is best for all because if I would, I would have to give up my own self interest desires and in essence, I would have to give up my Life and, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up my self interest desires as well as giving up my LIFE because I couldn’t grasp that LIFE is an accumulate relationship that works together within an agreement of what is best for all and that my life, is just a limited version of what LIFE is and thus, giving up the limited version of LIFE is to be in fact able to Live LIFE for the very first time in Equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only Free Choice that exists is to become LIFE that is best for all. And I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make decisions based on my free choice despite the fact that the consequences are in no way best for all because If I have walked my life in the ultimate free choice, I would have NOT accepted and allowed the abusive and Evil nature that I’ve become which has been proven by my backchat and I would have pushed myself to STOP, correct and change and become LIFE that is best for all in every breath, in every step, in every moment.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that If I would have a free choice, I would have chosen Life that is best for all and I would not accept anything less than that, from myself and from others in this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to continue participating with my backchats, internal conversations and secret mind, despite of the fact that I’ve proven to myself time after time after time that the backchat, internal conversation and the secret mind are always based on self interest desires and has nothing to do with WHO I am as Life as a physical expression and yet, through my acceptances and allowances of such participation in the mind, I’ve proven that I’m less than Life, I’m less than WHO I Am as Life and that I’m limited, control and enslaved to a system that abuse Life and all that is Here. And Thus, I’m making the commitment today, Now, in this very moment, to STOP my blinded acceptance and allowance of the backchat, internal conversation and secret mind because I realized that as long as I accept and allow my own participation in the mind, I’m abusing, sabotaging and compromising myself and this world and thus, when and as I see myself accessing a backchat, internal conversation and secret mind participation, I stop, I breathe, and I bring myself back here to and as my human physical body. I immediately correct and direct myself to change through self forgiveness and deletion of the pattern until it is done.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk my talk wherein even though I’ve realized the consequences of my acceptance and allowance participation in my mind, I’ve still haven’t taken the responsibility to STOP in every moment and direct myself according to principle of Oneness and Equality because every time that I’ve accepted a back chat as valid, as me, I’ve further separated myself and access another time loop. Within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that as long as I accept and allow the shit to continue within me, I accept and allow the shit to exists in this world and thus, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to stand as an example and direct myself and this world to a world that is best for all in all ways possible.

I commit myself to take the responsibility of assisting and supporting myself in every moment of every breath to get back to myself as a living expression of a physical LIFE.

I commit myself to immediately direct each and every point that I’ve missed that is proven through my participation in my mind and correct my living application in the moment of breath.

I commit myself to do so till I’m Life in fact and thus stand as a pillar of support for ALL as Equal as One as Me, as Life.

I commit myself to expose the nature of free choice that is accepted in this world and prove that   what we perceive to be free choice at the moment is a free choice to continue abusing ourselves and each other in this world and I commit myself to do whatever it takes to show and support the world that the only free choice that we truly exists is the free choice to become LIFE and that will be determine by the relationship that we have with each other as a whole within the establishing of a new world that is best for all.