Who I am is a Free Choice? Day 23

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to move and motivate myself according to what and how other people will see me and I failed to see that I’m defining myself according to What I do instead of Who I am as the decision within what I do and thus, separated myself from myself by NOT walking my life as WHO I am but only as What I do to define Who I am and within that, I’ve missed LIFE, I’ve missed myself as I gave my entire power away to the enslavement system of and as the mind and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to walk the decision of Who I Am as Life and direct myself and this world according to Principle of Oneness and Equality as What is best for all because What I do was always in the nature of Self Interest and thus, Who I have become is/was in the nature of Self Interest, always looking for rewards within what I do as the incentive to Live.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that Who I am as a self interest Principle is in fact Evil because while I allowed myself to direct and move myself within self interest, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to see that that which I’m allowing myself within, I allow in the world system and thus, the manifestation of the world as we know it today, is a direct reflection of my participation from the starting point of self interest and yet, despite of the physical reflection as the world as myself, I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to change and take responsibility for myself and this world as ONE.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that this world is a direct reflection of my acceptance and allowed self interest participation with and as the mind and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE and realize WHO I AM as Life and thus, limited my expression to my own self interest desires and allowed a world to be control and directed through and as self interest desires that manifested an abusive and cruel world as we exists within and as today.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give my power away within the belief that I have no power to change this world but what I’ve failed to realized is that changing the world start with changing self as what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become is in direct relationship to what I’ve accepted and allowed this world to become and thus, through the accepted belief that I’ve no power to change this world, I’ve gave up on myself and this world and allowed the compromise of billions of beings in this world in blinded faith of my self interests and fearful beliefs.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I have control over my life and that I have a free choice within it and yet, I’ve failed to see that my “free choice” is defined by my self interest desires and if I would really have a free choice, I would have chosen Life that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and belief that I have a free choice and yet, I’ve failed to see that my free choice is defined according to how much money I have to fulfil my self interest desires as well as, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where only a select few can fulfil their self interest desires instead of living in a world where the self interest desires is a LIFE that is best for all which is NOT defined according to Money but according to practical living expression that is of a support of LIFE as the sum up relationships between humans, natures and animals within an agreement to live, direct and express that which is best for all in every given moment.

                                         

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that Beings has a free choice and if they live in poverty and/or abusive Life situations it is due to their Karma and they have the capability to assist and support themselves to change their experience and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the nature of this belief is based on my own self interest desires through justifying and making excuses of why I do not have to stand up and  assist those beings through and as the principle of what is best for all because if I would, I would have to give up my own self interest desires and in essence, I would have to give up my Life and, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up my self interest desires as well as giving up my LIFE because I couldn’t grasp that LIFE is an accumulate relationship that works together within an agreement of what is best for all and that my life, is just a limited version of what LIFE is and thus, giving up the limited version of LIFE is to be in fact able to Live LIFE for the very first time in Equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only Free Choice that exists is to become LIFE that is best for all. And I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make decisions based on my free choice despite the fact that the consequences are in no way best for all because If I have walked my life in the ultimate free choice, I would have NOT accepted and allowed the abusive and Evil nature that I’ve become which has been proven by my backchat and I would have pushed myself to STOP, correct and change and become LIFE that is best for all in every breath, in every step, in every moment.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that If I would have a free choice, I would have chosen Life that is best for all and I would not accept anything less than that, from myself and from others in this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to continue participating with my backchats, internal conversations and secret mind, despite of the fact that I’ve proven to myself time after time after time that the backchat, internal conversation and the secret mind are always based on self interest desires and has nothing to do with WHO I am as Life as a physical expression and yet, through my acceptances and allowances of such participation in the mind, I’ve proven that I’m less than Life, I’m less than WHO I Am as Life and that I’m limited, control and enslaved to a system that abuse Life and all that is Here. And Thus, I’m making the commitment today, Now, in this very moment, to STOP my blinded acceptance and allowance of the backchat, internal conversation and secret mind because I realized that as long as I accept and allow my own participation in the mind, I’m abusing, sabotaging and compromising myself and this world and thus, when and as I see myself accessing a backchat, internal conversation and secret mind participation, I stop, I breathe, and I bring myself back here to and as my human physical body. I immediately correct and direct myself to change through self forgiveness and deletion of the pattern until it is done.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk my talk wherein even though I’ve realized the consequences of my acceptance and allowance participation in my mind, I’ve still haven’t taken the responsibility to STOP in every moment and direct myself according to principle of Oneness and Equality because every time that I’ve accepted a back chat as valid, as me, I’ve further separated myself and access another time loop. Within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that as long as I accept and allow the shit to continue within me, I accept and allow the shit to exists in this world and thus, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to stand as an example and direct myself and this world to a world that is best for all in all ways possible.

I commit myself to take the responsibility of assisting and supporting myself in every moment of every breath to get back to myself as a living expression of a physical LIFE.

I commit myself to immediately direct each and every point that I’ve missed that is proven through my participation in my mind and correct my living application in the moment of breath.

I commit myself to do so till I’m Life in fact and thus stand as a pillar of support for ALL as Equal as One as Me, as Life.

I commit myself to expose the nature of free choice that is accepted in this world and prove that   what we perceive to be free choice at the moment is a free choice to continue abusing ourselves and each other in this world and I commit myself to do whatever it takes to show and support the world that the only free choice that we truly exists is the free choice to become LIFE and that will be determine by the relationship that we have with each other as a whole within the establishing of a new world that is best for all.