Don't have time for headache? - Day 472

Chronic stress has became an epidemic in today's world, as we fight for our lives and barely make it due to how the economic world system is set up.

We find ourselves spending more and more time at work and less and less time with our loved ones. The demand at work is increasing and the threat of losing our source of income is a cloud over our heads. We want to perform better, we strive for results and in doing so, we find ourselves with the feeling of "there isn't enough time".

 

We push ourselves to be creative, to be better, to give something new, to prove that we are worthy - we constantly THINK of our next step, our next client, our next big deal and as a result, we accepted that from time to time, we experience major headache that forces us to slow down but Hey - who have time to slow down when our survival is dependent on us continue to fight for our job?

 

So - the pharmaceutical industry saw an opportunity to ride on our backs and make money of our stress and so, a magic solution is provided for us, the working class, the sheep  of the world system - a magic pill that is advertised as following:

"Don't have time for headache? - it's time to consider a fast headache tablet"

 

But let's look at what they are actually saying - "you are such a stupid creature, a sheep, and you have no clue that you are the source of your own headaches; that your headache is a warning sign that your body produced to support you in slowing yourself down; your headache is a symptom of a dysfunctional economic system world wide that you are equally responsible in accepting and allowing the maintenance of the very same system that is causing stress and harm to your physical body but  hey,  I don't really care about you, I want to make money from your headache - I don't want you to see the truth because then my company's doors will be closed so really, just  take this tablets and forget about it all."

 

So people - understand - the source of the headache is the structure of our economic world system whereas we over stress the physical body, over thinking, over worrying, over fighting for our survival. The source of the headache is the system that we have created where we must push our physical body's limits in the fight for money; for some reason we all accepted the current world system to be  normal but is it? Is it normal that about 1:7 people in the first world countries is suffering from chronic stress with major physical consequences? (and please - this is just one small side effect - the world is suffering far more than headaches on the individual level)

 

You see, the Elite of this world have no interest in supporting your well beings - actually, it is to the contrary - the more you suffer, the more money they can make out of you. If they would to offer real solutions, their profit share is cut. You see, no one really cares about you. We don't even care about ourselves. I mean, we accepted and allowed ourselves to join the survival race without stopping for just one moment to look at solutions that would prevent the problem that you and I are facing on a daily basis - the problem that our children will face -- unless… unless we stand up and source the problem to from there, apply solutions.

 

Taking pain killers, cover our eyes, avoid, ignore - well - that is what we have done thus far and where did it led us? to taking stronger pain killers so that we can block the pain that we put our body through.

So, take a moment before you take your next tablet and look at the bigger picture…

 

Please also watch - Thinking Causes Sickness? How to rid yourself from Stress

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 3) - Day 241

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 13)

 

This is a direct continuation to:

 

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 4) - Day 201

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 5) - Day 202

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 6) - Day 203

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 7) - Day 204

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 8) - Day 205

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 9) - Day 206

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 10) - Day 207

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 1) - Day 239

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 2) - Day 240

Thus, I suggest, if you haven't already, to first read the above 2 blogs before continuing to read this blog.

 

Reactions as Distraction

 

 

As we have seen in the previous 2 blogs, our automation as Human Beings is to first React, and then find a solution for the problem through either taking (Re)action based on our Self Interest design, or we will deny, ignore, hide, the actuality of who we have accepted ourselves to be and become. Here, what also must be realized is that one's decision to ignore/hide/deny/suppress stand in alignment to one's self interest design. Reacting to a Problem, both internally and externally is thus, not the solution, the Solution is Prevention in any way, within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

What I have recently realized for myself is how through Reactions, I've been distracting myself from looking at and investigating the Origin/Core/Source of the Experience that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate with and instead of facing myself, I was focused on the feelings and emotions that had emerged within a certain event and within that, looking at all directions but at the actual Core/Source/Origin that had accumulated over time till is manifested on a physical and or Mind/Energy level.

 

Our reactions and how we would (Re)act upon our reactions is how one would distract oneself from seeing, and investigating the Real Source/Core/Origin of Poverty and Starvation in this world for instance and no matter how one would 'Deal' with one's initial reaction, one would not in fact look at the source/origin/core of the problem as starvation and poverty and walk the Prevention Process that would ensure a world where Poverty and Starvation will no longer exists. I mean - clearly, none of us actually educated ourselves to understand how Money moves in this world, how and why it is possible that still, in  2012, people die from the consequences of Poverty? What is the reason, what can be done to change it? we have never asked ourselves such questions and walked the Answer in a practical and physical application.

 

On the Individual level, when facing a point which we initially reacted to, we tend to find faults in others, blame our peers and family for our Negative Experiences and would not turn the point back to ourselves to see how and why we have accepted and allowed ourselves to react from the get go. We would distract ourselves through and by reactions, which we would justify for ourselves, and wouldn't dare and will ourselves to take responsibility for what we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves and practically change from the Core of our beingness into and as human beings that are trust worthy, effective and equate.

 

Thus I suggest - let's take each accepted and allowed reaction that exist within ourselves and this world and commit ourselves to transform and change our reactions to prevention. Let's Prepare the way before us, by walking and applying the preventative solution so that we can be free from the fears/self interest that is the foundation of each and every reaction so that we can once and for all, stop dealing with the problem but prevent problems and accordingly, manifest a world that is best for all.

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 2) - Day 240

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 12)

 

This is a direct continuation to the previous blog: From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 1) - Day 239 where I've discussed the Principle of Prevention as the Correction Process within and as the world system. Within this Blog, we will be looking at the Individual Process of Correction and what does it imply to Move from Reactions to Prevention.

 

Firstly, let's Specify what Reactions are.

A reaction is an Energetic Movement within and as ourselves that is activated through how we perceive our internal and/or external experiences in relationship with how we defined our reality through our minds. What is interesting about the word 'React' is the sounding of the word: 'Re-Act' which indicates that our reactions always repeat themselves as we Re-act according to our Pre-program design as how we prepared the way before us to react in a specific Energetic Charge to a Specific event/experience/thought. (If you haven't already, I suggest reading the blog The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200 where I had explained what does it mean 'Pre-Programming).

 

When slowing ourselves down, we would notice that the trigger of any reaction exists within and as our self Interest, wherein we respond to our environment and react to the stimulus's that are contradicting our Pre-Program Design. For greater understanding, I suggest studying the Quantum Mind Interview series on EQAFE.

 

As Children, we were taught to React to Problems and only later, to maybe go one step further and Solve the Problem. Like for instance - when I was a child, for a long period of time, I experienced extensive headaches on a daily basis. I've seen many doctors and nothing that they did and/or suggested had any results and I kept on taking pain killers daily. Only a few months after, when one of the doctors suggested that I'll write everyday, when and as I see the pain start to emerge and just before I was about to take another pain killer. Slowly but surely, the pain was gone.

 

The reaction to the constant pain, on the parenting level was probably very extensive. I mean, who would want to see their child suffers? The Reaction then, was fear both of my parents and myself because no-one knew what I had and no-one considered that it wasn't anything physically but rather mentally as how I would escape my reality and suppress my experiences because I didn't have any practical tools to face myself and my world and thus, I preferred to excuse myself through creating Pain that would allow me to stay at home for instance. Thus, the Principle was Reacting to the Problem and trying to find a solution only after the problem had occur and manifested consequences on a physical level as constant pain. What was not applied within that context was Prevention, in teaching me by Example, how to take responsibility for myself and my world and within that, one could expand and grow oneself already from Childhood instead of suppressing my reality and cover up the problems by taking pain killers that would give me a momentary outlet till the pain came up again.

 

Meaning, we were never taught to Directly see all the Relationships that each and every point we participate with, consists of and exists; we were never taught to look at the consequential outflows of every decision we make but rather, when and as something happen, we taught to first react and then, take actions to either Solve the problem or Cover it up.

 

We were never taught that Prevention is: 'Pre-Even' - to Even out (Principle of Equality) all the Problems BERFORE it occur in how we would direct and move ourselves to Transform our Reactions that we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves into a practical application of Prevention. Which means that the Parent's responsibility should and must be, showing the Child Examples of how one would Prevent a problem and accordingly, the parent would present a practical Solution that can be applied by the child.

 

Ok, so in the next blog, we will have a look at why Reactions acts as a distraction from seeing the Origin/Core/Source of problems and within this, how Reactions play a destructive role within and as our lives, both internally and externally.

Am I willing to have Children with this Person? - Day 182

For the purpose of understanding the content of this blog and to assist and support yourself with not creating another dimension in your mind through reading only this blog, I suggest reading:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

The relationship between Fear and Pain - Day 179

Pregnancy Pills to Suppressing Fears - Day 180

Having Sex with A partner you don't want having Kids with - Day 181

 

 

 

I commit myself to SHOW that for practical common sense living application one do not require FEAR as the directive principle and in this, I commit myself to show that the fears one had define as Positive fears to protect oneself from one's world/reality can be altered and change to practical common sense living application that one can walk within and as, without the existence of fear within and as oneself.

 

I Commit myself to SHOW that when one is making a decision based on FEAR and making an act that would result in suppressing the FEAR within and as oneself so that self won't have to face the fear, physical consequences may emerge that will effect one's life. In this, I commit myself to SHOW the relationship between the Mind and the Physical wherein suppressed fear that were not dealt/sorted out within and as oneself, would manifest consequences that will harm the human physical body.

 

I Commit myself to Always investigate the source/core of any pain I experience within and as myself as I see, realize and understand that I was the one who had created the pain through accepting and allowing all forms of beliefs, ideas, perceptions, opinions about myself that would stand in alignment to my own self interest, without any fundamental ground in cross referencing these components with a physical equal and one result.

 

I Commit myself to Show that having a desire for sex, without understanding what sex IS and how to utilize Sex as a support for oneself, one's body and partner, indicate that one is an automated machine that has no respect for oneself, one's partner and LIFE as all one care about is fulfilling one's desire for nothing but an energy fix to sustain the machine that one had accepted and allowed self to be an become.

 

I Commit myself to get to know my partner within who my partner is and the potential my partner has to stand in alignment with me so that we can together, grow and expand ourselves, utilising our forces in changing ourselves and this world as a whole and until I'm sure and satisfied the agreement can stand in alignment to what's best for all, and that we can spend our life in a commitment to ourselves and each others, Sex wouldn't be part of the picture as I now see, realize and understand the responsibility that comes with sex and the consequences sex might have and in this, I stand here in a commitment to myself to utilize sex as a support structure for both me and my partner and not as a need, desire or want that is based on Energies, manipulations and self interest that may harm me or others.

 

I Commit myself to respect myself and ask myself a question when considering agreement with a prospect partner: "Am I willing to have children with this person?". The reason for this question is to see what movement and reactions comes up from within and in that, making sure I'm not deluding myself in ignoring the signs that I could see when desires/wants/needs are removed from the equation but rather, walking the equation that would lead to the utmost best outcome that would result in and as the principle of that which is best for all.

Having Sex with A partner you don't want having Kids with - Day 181

For the purpose of understanding the content of this blog and to assist and support yourself with not creating another dimension in your mind through reading only this blog, I suggest reading:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

The relationship between Fear and Pain - Day 179

Pregnancy Pills to Suppressing Fears - Day 180

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate within the fear of getting pregnant and having a child as my starting point in taking pills and I haven't realized that I do not require fear to be my directive principle but rather, practical common sense in consideration to where I am in my process, whether or not a child would be practical in terms of the support I'm able to gift my child with and so - when seeing in self honesty that having a child is not what is best for all at a specific moment, Pregnancy pills is a practical solution that would stand in alignment to the decision of not having children.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to let the fear go as my directive principle as I believed that having fears is practical instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that being practical and walking my life based on common sense principle doesn't require any fears but simply being here, directly seeing what's here and what would be the best for all application in any given moment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to still exists in fear when taking pregnancy pills because I know that it's not 100% safe and so, instead of taking the necessary steps to make sure that no pregnancy would emerge, I've allowed hope that everything will be alright while still allowing fears within and as me as well as abdicating my responsibility within the decision of having sex and the consequences that may emerge.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not consider that by the fact that I have fears of getting pregnant indicate that somewhere, deep inside myself, I'm well aware that the partner I'm with, is inadequate and yet, I've accepted and allowed the desire for sex to take over and act in ways I see that is not best for me and thus, not best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be willing to have sex with patterns I was not willing to have children with because I was deliberately used them and abused them as well as myself for the sake of fulfilling my desire for sex without willing to accept the consequences of sex as an act of birthing Life into and as the physical and the responsibilities that comes with having sex.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately not respect myself by willing to have sex with partner that I wasn't willing to have children with as my directive principle back then was Sex and the desire for sex without any consideration as to what is sex, what is sex to me, who I am as sex, why I am as sex, what is the physical purpose of sex and who am I having sex with.

 

For more context:

Part 1 - My First Love.

Part 2 - What is Love to me?

What is Spiritual Love to me? - Part 3 - Day 158

No Sex - No Relationship - Day 167

Men only think about Sex? - Day 168

Values System Within my Mind – Day 169

The Love Experience - Day 170

Wanting to be Saved by Prince Charming - Day 171

Why Females attracted to Males that are unavailable for a relationship - Day 172

Melancholia after a Break Up - Day 173

Melancholia after Break Up Continued - Day 174

Pregnancy Pills to Suppressing Fears - Day 180

For the purpose of understanding the content of this blog and to assist and support yourself with not creating another dimension in your mind through reading only this blog, I suggest reading:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

The relationship between Fear and Pain - Day 179

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to suppress the fear of getting pregnant and becoming a parent through taking Pregnancy Pills within the Belief that I won't get pregnant when I'm being carful however, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the Pregnancy Pills as a mean to not face my fears instead of Looking at the point, clear myself from my own self created fears and walk my life in Practical consideration for and as this physical reality rather than walking my life from the starting point of fears.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate my starting point in what I do and within that, not realizing who I am within what I do. In this - as I've seen through my writings, who I am in taking pregnancy Pills was Fear instead of Practical and Physical Living Human being that see, realize and understand one's responsibility towards oneself and the world as a whole and through this self realization, one would walk breath by breath according to that which is best for all, in absolute self responsibility as one's directive principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I'm being responsible by taking pregnancy pills, not seeing realizing and understanding that being self responsible towards oneself and one's world isn't measured by what one does but rather who one is within what one does and so - Self Responsibility imply - Investigating one's starting point of doing something and clearing all opinions, beliefs, fears, reactions, ideas, emotions and feelings and in that, transform the starting point to self support living consideration for oneself and one's world within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the Consequences of accepting and allowing walking within the starting point of fear and doing actions to suppress and ignore the fears and in that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to study and understand the relationship between the Mind and the Physical and in that, the physical consequences that are involved in suppressing one's fear instead of facing them, releasing them and standing within and as self trust, self responsibility, and directing self, breath by breath as self, as the directive principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abuse and sabotage myself as my human physical body through accepting headaches when having menstruation as the ultimate truth that I've come to accept and within that acceptance and allowance, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore and hide the fears that are the base of my movement in who I have become as what I do so that I won't have to face who I have become because within me, I know, that once I see myself, I would force myself to change and in remaining blind, I won't have to change.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between the headaches and my fears of getting pregnant and becoming a parent and through accepting the headaches as normal because other woman experience the same, I've abdicated my responsibility to investigating what Normal is and on what this definition of what Normal is Serves my own self interest desire to remain slave to my own mind to not face myself and practically change.

 

Continuing tomorrow with debunking the fear of getting pregnant and becoming a parent.

The relationship between Fear and Pain - Day 179

For the purpose of understanding the content of this blog and to assist and support yourself with not creating another dimension in your mind through reading only this blog, I suggest reading:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

 

Last week, as I've indicated in my previous blogs, I experienced headache 7 days before getting period and as I've explained and showed, this specific pain was in direct relationship I had created in my mind wherein headaches are part of the Pre-Menstruation cycle as if it was the ultimate truth.

 

However, what about headaches during Menstruation? What belief system have I formed within and as myself that manifested the Headaches during Menstruation time - Headaches that are more likely to turn into a sever migraine?

 

So, 2 days ago, I was looking at the nature of the headache I had experience and I utilized the same technics that I've previously utilized, shown me by my friend, where I push a specific point in my human physical body and in doing so, the memory/thought that comes up would be the thought/memory that I will be working with, to delete, disengage and remove within self honesty, self forgiveness process.

 

I have found a fascinating thought structure that I've assisted and supported myself with applying immediate Self Forgiveness to release myself from recreating the next painful cycle that is connected to the relationship between the belief that Menstruation comes with headaches. The thought was:  "OMG, this headaches might not be related to Menstruation, maybe I have brain tumour"

 

Us human beings, are really fucked up if allowing such thoughts to manifest within and as ourselves, not seeing, realizing and understanding the consequences of accepting and allowing such thought and how through fear that activates the thought we may create things like Brain tumour for us to face what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves for instance - fear of having Cancer.

 

But - the pain didn't stop and when I checked within and as myself whether or not I've in fact moved through this fear however, when this thought wasn't there anymore, I moved through the dimensions of my mind and investigated what I haven't seen yet - where and how I've accepted and allowed fear to manifest as headaches as I've recently realized that our starting point within everything that we do is always related to Fears.

 

And so, I went back in time to look at where the headache started whenever I got period and I found that it started soon after I stopped taking pregnancy pills 4-5 years ago which led me to check and assess my starting point in taking pregnancy pills previously and what was the fear within the starting point which was - Fear of Getting Pregnant and becoming a parent. Now, it is not that I'm saying here that one shouldn't take pills to prevent unwanted pregnancy. What I'm saying is that the starting point should be based on common sense, practical living consideration within self responsibility and self honesty rather being a starting point that is based on fears. What I've seen was that the fear of getting pregnant and becoming a parent was suppressed within and as myself through taking the pregnancy pills and slowly but surely, over time, manifested as a physical pain, once a month, when having menstruation.

 

This point is extensive from the perspective of me requiring a real introspection and within that, sufficient time to walk through this fear, in detail and specificity and therefor, I commit myself to walk through the structure within my next blog and release myself from the fear of getting pregnant and becoming a parent within the multiple dimensions that I'm seeing within and as myself.

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

This is a continuation to:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

 

So, I'm continuing investigating the dimensions within the relationship of Headache and Menstruation that I've created within and as myself throughout my life and through walking the dimensions/layers within it, I've realized a fascinating point that I would like to share about today.

 

Also, for more context, I suggest listening to:

Reptilians - Thought and Thinking - a Deliberate Creation of Control - Part 105

Reptilians - Thinking as Mind vs. Direct Seeing with the Physical - Part 106

 

When working with Pain that was created through an accumulation of memories, thoughts, ideas, opinions etc. that were accepted and allowed within one's life, one would see the various dimensions/layers of the mind that slowly but surely starts to reveal themselves once a layer was removed in self honesty.

 

Within that context, I was looking at the differences between Meditation and quieting the mind and Stopping the mind as an act of self movement/direction, in self honesty.

What I've realized yesterday for myself was why and how when silencing the mind through meditation, it's nothing but creating another dimension, a silent dimension within one's mind with no actual and practical change but rather, suppressing the thought/pattern/personality/character and creating a new one and that is in comparison to stopping the mind as an act of self directiveness/movement that one is practically and physically taking responsibility for.

 

When I was practicing Spirituality and within that, practicing Meditation to silent my mind, I never investigated the nature of the thoughts, the consequences of suppressing the thought but simply ignored them as if they never existed however, within that, never seen, realized and understood the physical manifestation of the thoughts in and as the human physical body and how through suppressing the thought by ignoring it, we do not in fact removing/deleting the thought from the flesh of the body and therefor, there is no physical and practical change within oneself and one's living application but rather, one would create and manifest another character that would be so powerful in terms of suppressing other characters that self had accepted and allowed self to create and participate within and as oneself and one's world.

 

Stopping the mind, as a practical, physical self directive principle, is a total different story.

For a moment I was confused within and as myself regarding - what is the difference between deleting a thought and suppressing a thought through Meditation. For me, the outcome seems to be the same - in both cases, the thought is gone. What I haven't considered within this question, as mentioning previously is the physical aspect as well as self responsibility within and as the act of removing/deleting a thought vs. suppressing a thought in meditation.

 

The point that I was specifically looking at was - how can I make sure that I have actually deleted the thought and I'm not fucking with myself again, as I've done as a spiritual. How can I make sure that I in fact stopped the thought and not just ignore/suppress it. the answer that I've found within and as myself was very simplistic - if the thought comes back again, I haven't in fact deleted it and what I've actually done was creating another dimension and manifested a time loop that would take me to the same place where I've initially wasn't honest with myself when stopping the thought. Also - a practical consideration is to - not accept and allow self to simply delete the thought, create a character of: I'm so good, I deleted the thought yopi hey hey hey and rather, take a moment and write the point out, see whether something was missed and whether one is in fact clear and stable within one self.

 

So, Deleting a thought or removing a memory through Self Forgiveness doesn't end there. All we have done was removing ONE layer, ONE dimension and ONE thought so that we could assist and support ourselves in seeing the next layer/dimension/thought so that we can walk through the next layer/dimension/thought and so on.

While in meditation, let's say that I've ignored the thought. Cool, for a moment the thought isn't there. What now? A time loop. Why?? Because I could have stand up and take responsibility for myself in investigating the nature of the thought and the core point of my acceptance and allowance of its existence and within that, walking through the layers of the mind and clear the entire network that is interconnected with this one thought. 

 

And so, in terms of practicality - once removing one thought, we can either take a moment and investigate the next layer/dimension or if in our day to day living responsibility we don't have this moment of self investigating, we can simply wait until the next layer would reveal itself within the realization that we cannot avoid it, it will appear/reveal itself in some way or another and in that realization, we are honest with ourselves within the starting point of: ok, I've seen one layer, there are much more that I've not yet seen, I'm making the commitment that when and as the moment is here and the next layer/dimension would reveal itself, I will stand up, take responsibility and sort it out. And so, we do not create another dimension of: "I walked and am now done with the point" but instead, being humble with and as ourselves, walking one step at a time, one breath at a time, and how long it will take is irrelevant as we trust ourselves to clear ourselves in every single breath, trough consistent application that is trustworthy, exactly as Breath is consistent and trustworthy.

 

So, back to the Menstruation and Pain - another dimension/layer/though/memory had reveal itself through the emergence of headache which "forced" me to have a look again what memory I haven't yet looked at within the relationship of headache and Menstruation.

Want to know what it was?? Stay tuned till tomorrow.

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

 

 

This is a continuation to:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

 

I commit myself to Disconnect the Attachment/association/definitions that I've manifested within and as my mind regarding the relationship between headache and Menstruation as I see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing the associations/definition/association/connection between headache and Menstruation is to accept and allow the abuse and sabotage of myself through literally manifesting pain through the belief that pain and Menstruation comes together. Thus, When and as I see a thought in a nature of the relationship between pain and menstruation, I stop, I breathe, I DETLET the thoughts as I now see, realize and understand why and how I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought in separation of me which is no longer acceptable.

 

I commit myself to walk my Responsibilities within breath by breath living application as and within the principle of what is best for all and within that, to not accept and allow myself to excuse myself from my responsibilities through creating pain within and as me and to assess within self honesty when and how much rest my body is required to function in its utmost potential.

 

I commit myself to include in my  weekly schedule moments for self indulgent and to unconditionally be OK with taking these moments for myself without feeling guilty about it because, I see, realize and understand that I've previously took these moments but within guilt, I manifest pain so that I could justify the moment of indulgent through the excuse that my body is in pain and require a rest.

 

I commit myself to further investigate the Righteousness Character within and as me through a process of writing, self forgiveness and practical self change through standing in alignment with my commitments that I'm putting forth to myself.

I commit myself to Delete all Memories regarding Women with Menstruation pain as I'm now seeing, realizing and understanding that I've used these memory to manipulate and abuse my human physical body through utilizing these memories as an excuse to excuse myself from my day to day living responsibility for one day in a month. In this, Note - what I'm saying here is that some women are in fact having serious Menstruation pain once a month and that is their process to walk but it is not the case with me so it is not that all women are like me, utilize the pain as an excuse so please, do not make a judgement upon Menstruation pain through reading this blog.

 

I commit myself to STOP manipulating others through the experience of having to feel sorry for myself within the desire of them validating me as the pain and excusing me from my responsibilities. In this, I commit myself to investigate and explore where else in my life I've utilize the 'Feel sorry for me' character in alignment of my own self interest Desires for a specific experiences.

 

I commit myself to delete the values I've assigned to my day to day living responsibilities and to then thus, walk what ever is required to be done, breath by breath at my utmost potential, capability and ability, in self honesty.

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

This is a continuation to:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to connect/attach/define/associate Menstruation with Headache, not seeing, realize and understanding that within that connection/attachment/definition/association, I've accepted and allowed the belief that Headache must manifest once a month and within that not seeing, realizing and understanding that it was always me, the one who gave myself the permission to create and manifest the pain, in separation of me and therefor, experience the pain once a month.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire for an excuse to release myself from my day to day Living Responsibilities within having a monthly pain to shut me out and in that, having to accept and allow myself to create and manifest pain within and as my human physical body to have a legitimate excuse that would be accepted by society and therefor, I won't be judge for taking a time off from my responsibilities.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged for not standing within and as my day to day living responsibilities and within that, had defined 'time off' as indulgent, pleasure, entertainment as something that is invalid, that I cannot have as it is not part of my responsibilities and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself as my human physical body through having creating and manifesting a monthly pain to be utilize as an excuse to rest, indulge and entertain myself in bed while others will keep up with my responsibilities.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to include Indulgent and pleasure moments in my day to day living responsibility because I've defined it as a waste of precious time that can be utilized in moving forwards towards a world that is best for all, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within that definition, what I was really doing is trying to impose myself as the righteousness character, and in that, be more than others that are "not as devoted as me". Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define Indulgent as wrong/bad within the starting point of a desire for my own self interest requirement for external sources to validate, appreciate and approve me as MORE instead of changing my starting point to and as a principle of that which is best for all where - who I am is not defined by what I do but rather, walking breath by breath as who I am within everything that I do. And thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage and abuse my human physical body through creating a monthly pain, to maintain my righteousness character without imposing my own self judgement on me as I've utilized the pain as an excuse to excuse myself from my responsibilities without having to waste time on entertainment and indulgent through justifying that I cannot work anyway when having extensive pain.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed memories of seeing women being excused from their responsibilities when having menstruation pain and through accepting the memory to be imprinted into my flesh, I've accepted and allowed the memory to be the stepping stone in creating and manifesting a monthly pain that I would utilize when and as I see I require some rest from my responsibilities as an excuse instead of moving and directing myself in self honesty and when/as a rest is required, to simply rest as  physical support.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for myself when having menstruation pain so that other could relate and have sympathy towards me, to validate my need to take a rest instead of assessing in self honesty, when my human physical body require a rest and simply walk with my body and support my body, without having to abuse it by creating Energy as Pain and self pity to validate the Body requirement for a rest.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to assess what are my responsibilities for a specific day and be frustrated when there is an activity that I would prefer not participating with, and in doing so, simultaneously, look for any physical pain that I could utilize to excuse myself from the activity. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to consider abusing my human physical body through creating pain just so that I won't have to participate in certain activities and in that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to the principle of what is best for all and in that, do what ever is necessarily to be done to support myself and the people in my environment in sharing equal responsibilities.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to develop likes and dislikes towards my responsibilities and accordingly, assign to each one of them a specific value instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that what ever my responsibilities are, it is not about the responsibilities but who I am within my responsibilities and having a preference as likes and dislikes indicate that I have accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to an Energetic experience in self interest in oppose to move and direct myself, breath by breath and do what ever is required to be done in my utmost ability, in self honesty.

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

 

 

A few days ago, a point opened up when I experienced a slight headache. It was a familiar pain that I came to live with, once a month, just before I get a period. Usually, when I'm not taking care of it, it manifests to a Migraine that shuts me down for the rest of the day. Care of it meaning - taking a pill once it becomes unbearable.

 

When I'm looking at the pain that was here a few days ago and the pain that was here a month ago - there is one thing in common - on both days I was taking a time off from my day to day responsibilities. As I go along, you'd see why this point is relevant and in fact, the source point of the pain.

 

So back to a few days ago - when the pain was still bearable, and I had already made the connection between the pain and the menstruation as an actual, real and true fact within and as my mind, I asked a friend for a support through pushing a specific point in my hand as it is usually assist with reducing the pain and with breathing through the pain that is busy emerging in the hand, I see a dimension that is related to the pain and am able to work with it.

 

When we started to investigate the source of the point, I've seen that the pain started when she was asking me what date it was and my back chat was: "oh, I must get period soon". In that moment, without my awareness, I've accepted and allowed the thought and the pain that comes with getting a period that I've accepted and allowed within and as me. So I deleted the connection between getting a period and having pain and continued with my investigation regarding the source/core of creating the idea in the first place, between pain and getting period.

 

My friend move her hands and push on my upper right eye which open up a new point within and as myself. What I've seen was memories of women that are being excused from specific responsibilities when having period pain. When I looked within myself, I saw, that creating a pain, once a month, enough to shut me down for a few hours was deliberately created because I'm not a sick person, I usually don't get sick and thus, I always have to maintain my responsibilities. When I moved through this point, the pain was gone.

 

What I've NOT seen, realized and understood was how, through taking a time off by creating pain, I'm deliberately abusing myself and my human physical body, instead of giving myself a time off without a need to make an excuse for why it is ok for me to take a moment off.

 

In this, it is not surprising that the 2 times I had headache where times where I "took" a moment off from my responsibilities however, I wasn't stable nor clear within my decision to take the time off because I believed that taking a time off is wrong when there are so many other things that I could do to support myself and others.

 

Here, I would refer myself and you to a point that I've been writing about a while back and now, when another dimension opened up, I would get into more specificity in my Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment application: Inner dullness light up in Energy - Day 68.

 

What was not yet seen, understood and realized within and as myself is that who I am is not defined within what I do or don't do but rather, who I am within what I do will determine who I really am as a breath by breath living application.