Reality knocks on the door. Again! - Day 468

The blog series - Emotional Attachment and Physical connection (Part 5) - Day 464 started from one single reaction that I had when I heard that Gracie, our dog, may have cancer. I didn't imagine that it would open up a can of worms and that I will be learning about myself since that day.

 

So fortunately, Gracie doesn't have Cancer. Unfortunately, we finally found out what the problem is with her - We ran a lot of tests and she was treated intensively for a few months - the decisions that we have to make are not easy

 

She has ossification in both of her ear canals and it has reached a point where it cannot be  reversed. It all started with chronic allergy reaction that over time caused inflammation in her ears which then developed to calcification which led to ossification and at the moment, we haven't find a way to treat the inflammation as her ear canals are locked. The even bigger problem is the concurrent bacterial infection that again, cannot be treated due to the ear canal being blocked by the local ossification.

 

At this point our next move is to consult a specialist to give a second opinion and at the same time, checking alternative medicine to see if there is anything else we can do that we were not aware of as of yet.  Although we hope that we will get some good news in terms of alternative treatment options, all information currently points to only one course of action: Surgically removing both of her ears, which means that Gracie will be deaf for the rest of her life. This scenario leads to the question of what is then the best choice for her?

 

Obviously, within this point, I'm facing lots of personal points that opened up with the decision that we have to make however, within this blog post, I would like to address a different issue:

 

It was said to us that only if we knew before that there is a chronic allergy in her ear, we could have prevented the ossification but the thing is, we were taking Gracie to the Vet every time she developed ear infection and each time, we were told that it's just because of Gracie's swimming habits and accordingly, she was locally treated.   I don't remember even once that they asked us for permission to perform X-rays to figure out what is really going on. From my perspective, I had full trust that the Vet will have Gracie's best interest way before Money whereas, if required, they would ask us for permission to perform X-rays - that was the level of trust that I had towards my dog's Vet in Israel.

Obviously, I didn't consider that I am not in Israel any more where Money isn't the issue for most people when it comes to their pets. Here, in South Africa, the majority of the population do not have the means to afford X-ray which causes the mentality of not being bothered with even asking the pet's owner if they would prefer to go on the Prevention route.

 

I got really angry! Reality knocks on the door again to remind me how fucked up the world/money system is, whereas Prevention as the Best Cure is not a principle that we live by. Why?  Because if we do the math, we can see that Prevention won't generate income for the Elite of this world - the Elite of this world are living off the consequences you, me and the animals experience on a daily basis. It is ridiculous -

Consequences = Money for the Elite and lesser Quality of life for the majority; 

Prevention = More money for everyone and Extraordinary Quality of life for everyone

 

The problem is, that we, the majority, have abdicated our responsibility in critically thinking about what we have allowed this world to become and therefore, the Elite had and still have the power to direct the living experiences of us all because we were the ones who gave this power away and we are the ones who cannot yet see that we are still able to change the game by taking our human right / power. So what would make us see?

 

Unfortunately, the answer is 'Consequences'. My question is - how much more consequences do we have to manifest for us to finally see and take action?

 

Please follow:

Activists journey to life

Economist's Journey to Life

Living Income Guaranteed

Some perspectives please - Day 352

As I opened the news today, there was a huge heading about a young boy, 7 years old who is desperately need a donation of £250,000 for a cancer treatment to save his life. The article, that was on the front page included a picture of this cute young boy; this picture unconsciously trigger our emotions enough for us to take the initiative and support with money. then, when I open the article to read it through, I saw more picture of this cute boy suffering from the physical conditioning he is facing. Yet again, another emotional trigger that would entice us to be the good samaritan and donate money to save this boy life.  (http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2311674/Parents-desperate-race-raise-225-000-just-12-days-son-7-life-saving-cancer-treatment.html )

 

And so, I continued to scroll down the main news page and I saw a very small heading about a disturbing life consequences of a 5 years old girl who was kidnapped and raped for 4 days. Obviously here, a picture of the young child wasn't not shared and in essence, as all of us used to say: 1 picture = 1000 words, in this case, the emotional trigger for us to do something about it was not there and most importantly, the chances for us actually noticing the article is quite low and I would even dare and state that it is deliberate. (http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2311800/Five-year-old-girl-raped-days-kidnapped-neighbour-Delhi-paedophile-crime-month.html)

 

It is deliberate because if we were consistently prompt with headline flash about what is really going on in this world on a daily basis wherein children are being raped, starve to death, forced to marry for economical reasons, etc. - we might have find it within us to stand up for what should have been a common sense point - to make sure that all children in this world are safe no matter who you are, what disease they have, where they were born and to what culture/religion were they forced to believe in because they didn't know they have a free will in either believing what their parents told them or either check their beliefs for themselves and decide who they are within these beliefs. But instead, we give our money away for charity, believing we have done enough and we are good people without realizing that we are a direct problem in the equation that formulate the world to be and become the world of disharmony, abuse and suffering.

 

So, it is time for some perspectives in terms of the value we give to the emotional triggers that are being flashed into our mind which we act upon for our own self interest of being able to define ourselves as caring people while all along, we give no respect to the Billon of children who are not protected around the world.

We should be ashamed of ourselves for allowing flashing pictures to determine our value system; flashing pictures that have become the directive force within what we will accept and allow and what we will not and unfortunately, we are allowing the rape of children all over the world because we are not aware of them and even if we do, the next thought that would come is that we are powerless to actually influence anything. But let me tell you something: it is really a simple equation: 1+1+1+1+1+1+1=force that can actually implement a change that is substantial and worthwhile so really - any excuse to not stand up because it's worthless is unacceptable.

 

Investigate the Equal Money System and be the influential force that you can be.

My Experience with being Bald - Day 331

When I read the blog Day 331: The Cancer Experiment I was looking at my Experiences with being bald within my natural environment and specifically the process I've walked in developing Stability when facing people who asked me the following questions: "How could you do that to yourself? You hair was so beautiful, have you gone crazy?" but now when I'm writing it out, what was even more fascinating was meeting people for the first time, whom did not have past reference of my hair  or how I looked like before I got Bald and their reactions to the my answer when they asked me: "Why did you shave your hair?" or "Why are you Bald?"

 

The Cancer Experiment was based on a Very Simple Point - we have an Organization around the World that Shaves for Cancer, and in so doing would Promote and Preserve the Pharmaceutical Companies that Profit immensely from the chemicals that they sell for ‘Life threatening diseases’ - making Money, Profiting from Death and getting the populous to Ensure that they can push up the prices by increasing donations through Shaving heads. A similar thing has happened around the Oil Spill with BP – again a Corporation, and where the ‘Goodwill of the People’ was Abused for the purposes of Profit. Interestingly enough: the people don’t Notice that this was the motivation behind their actions, as we have Demonstrated.

We have taken, for instance, Shaving your Head for a World that is Best for All Life - that means the Ultimate Solution for Everyone, which means that Every Cancer patient will get the Best Treatment and it will Cost them Nothing: Life is being Preserved.

Source: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/03/day-331-cancer-experiment.html

 

The Fascinating thing was: while the Destonians who stood up and called for a world that is best for all through our Physical statement of shaving our Hair as an act to Perpetuate Equality, we were defined as a Cult, as a dangerous brainwashed Cult,  but when Celebrities shaves their hair for PR within the justification of 'I'm doing it to support Cancer' it is being embraced by the mass and is seen as a positive and good thing while if one would do proper research, one would see for oneself why Shaving one's hair to Support Cancer is in essence, supporting the Companies that profit from the existent of Cancer and thus sabotaging any real effort to cure cancer. For that, I suggest watching the documentary: Burzynski - Cancer Is Serious Business.

 

You know what was interesting within this experiment? I've seen how the uneducated people could relate and see the common sense within the Principle that I'm standing for and as and would even go and investigate the Equal Money System and Desteni while the 'Educated' people completely ignored my words and justified to themselves that it was a waste of time, that I must grow my hair back because Equality will never exists and they have done so WITHOUT testing and checking out the information for themselves.

Being Bald was a Bold Decision that I made and I'm happy that I've walked this point because it was that which allowed me to start creating and manifesting a certain level of stability and self trust within myself. It assisted me to see the extent of the problem in terms of the Brainwash we have all gone through, generation after generation to make us obey and submit to the system of Control. It made me realized that the process we are busy walking will not be as easy as I initially imagined it to be because I didn't take into consideration the extent of the Human Consciousness and the inherited Evil we have become.

 

If you haven't already, I suggest reading through my Previous blogs where I showed how in fact our Education system isn't about the development and the enhancement of the human kind but rather, is part of the Devolution process we are busy walking as humanity, to a point of no return, unless we start our process of enhancement within the commitment to investigate all things and keep that which is best for all.

The Devolution Process of the Education System - Day 328

The Wakening of the Beast - Day 329

Does Integrity Exist in our Education System? - Day 330

 

So - if you dare facing yourself and stand as a key for a world that is best for all, investigate the Free Online Course to develop the basic tools one is required for to start one's process of SELF realization and investigate the Equal Money System as the Encompassing solution for each and every Problem existing in this world due to our own ignorant nature that we have directly and indirectly created within ourselves and within this world.

 

Health Crisis due to Human Environmental intervention will END in an Equal Money Capitalism - Day 281

 

 

Continuing to Investigate, Explore, Research and Discover the Problem, Solutions and Rewards.

A reminder is that despite of me walking specific examples that had occur and still lived in Uzbekistan, we are dealing with Patterns that manifests in some way or another in other parts of the world.

 

I suggest reading the Previous blogs to enrich your understanding:

Human Sweatshops will END in Equal Money Capitalism - Day 275

Child labour in a System of Totalitarian control Will END in Equal Money Capitalism - Day 277

Water Crisis Will End in an Equal Money Capitalism - Day 278

Unemployment will END in an Equal Money Capitalism - Day 279

 

Within this blog, we will have a look at the Problems, Solutions and Rewards in relation to the Health Crisis that developed in Uzbekistan, once what used to be prosperity land, came to be one of the most concerning issue we must address immediately when the Value of World Consumerism override the Value of Life.

 

The Problem:

 

For further Context and thus Understanding, I suggest Reading:

the EJF 'White Gold' Report' (PDF)

The Aral Sea environmental health crisis (PDF)

Health and Ecological Consequences of the Aral Sea Crisis (PDF)

Uzbekistan - World Health Organization (PDF)

The Aral Sea Crisis - Environmental Impacts

 

The Poverty that manifested due to total diminishment of the Fisherman business that used to be 50% of Uzbekistan source of income and the Citizens exposure to toxic chemicals, has had a severe effect on the

well-being of the population. That, along with the increased level of Salinity, made sure that the Uzbek Citizens are in one of the most disturbing consequences of 'Wrongly' human intervention for the sake of Greed and Power.

 

Here are some Facts I took out from the ELJ Report but you can be certain that I did my research and cross referenced the Data that I'm about to show here:

 

1. The Karakalpaks (the People from the area of the Uzbekistan Aral Sea) are exposed to the 43 million tonnes of salt and pesticide laden dust created by the drying of the Aral. In some parts of the region up to 50%

of all reported deaths are respiratory in nature. (P.3) Data from 2001 show an increased incidence of obstructive lung disease and bronchial asthma in the Aral Sea area (P.31) (United Nations Economic Commission for Europe. Environmental Performance Review of Uzbekistan. Geneva: UN Economic Commission for Europe (2001)

12 years later, and still no solution and the problems are increasing.

 

2. According to study funded by the NATO Science Program, One in every 20 children is born with an abnormality, and the rate of genetic (DNA) mutation amongst Karakalpaks is 3.5 times more than the normal rate. (P.5)

Increased accumulation genetic error due to exposure to pesticide residue could well explain the region’s abnormally high cancer rates. In particular, residents of Karakalpakstan suffer from the world’s highest rate of cancer of the oesophagus. (P.31)

 

3. Unable to grow vegetables in the salinated soil, and too poor to buy food from the bazaars, the population suffer from malnutrition. Almost all Karakalpaks suffer from anaemia: 87% of teenagers, 91% of non-pregnant

women, and 99% of pregnant women. Most of these women suffer complications during pregnancy and delivery including haemorrhages. Untreated anaemia in pregnancy and young children poses a high risk for weak immune systems and a risk of brain damage (P.30)

 

4. Karakalpakstan is also gripped by tuberculosis. The disease, common amongst the world’s poor, is present in epidemic proportions. Data for2002 show that the notified incidence for new infections of pulmonary tuberculosis in Karakalpakstan was 89 per 100,000. In areas closer to the sea infection rates were higher. These statistics place the region amongst the most tuberculosis infected regions of the former Soviet Union(P.30)

 

5. Pesticides, herbicides and defoliants applied on the cotton farms throughout Uzbekistan are carried by the Amu Darya to the Aral Sea basin where they enter the food chain. A 2001 study conducted by Médecins Sans Frontières and the 'WHO' found significant levels of persistent organochlorines (including PCBs, dioxins and DDT) in samples of beef, fish, eggs, milk, potato and rice.

Further studies have detected pesticide residues in samples of treated water and breast milk. These findings correlate with a marked rise in the incidence of immunological disorders, kidney disease, and allergy, liver pathologies and reproductive pathologies amongst Karakalpak populations (P.31)

 

The Solution:

 

Obviously, Reconstitution of the Area must be the First step we must focus on and within that, to find a solutions that would restore the Equilibrium, Balance and Harmony in the Aral Sea Area.

Poverty and the Consequences that come with Poverty should not be allowed in a world of plenty. What needs to be done beside the Reconstitution of Nature, is to develop and maintain an effective Distribution system that would allow ALL equal access to the world's Resources.

Here, I suggest reading through the blog: Day 175: The Economic Problem and Equal Money Capitalism

 

One of the main Equal Money System Goals is Logistics

"In the Equal Money System, the Banking System Infrastructure will become the Logistical System that manages and Allocates resources and goods to Each Individual in the World on an Equal Basis. And your bank card will become your Life Card, which you will swipe every time you Draw Goods and Services from the Global Life Support System. The Logistical System will make sure that each person receives their just dues and at the same time will prevent abuse and exploitation. Each person will have access to the Global System to review the current Status of Available Resources and to vote on effective distribution and allocation – and to place preference selections and make suggestions."

 

 

The Rewards:

 

At the individual Level - Dignified and Worthy Life for ALL and specifically for those who suffers from our lack of responsibility as we have blindly accepted and allowed the current condition to not only manifest but to also continue as it does.

One must understand that with effective management/Logistical system Every Human in this world will taken cared for. In that, Health Crisis will End and we will no longer have to carry the Sins of the Fathers that is currently passing on Generation after Generation on the DNA level.

 

On a Global Level - The End of ineffective Body Structure on a DNA level will cease to exists eventually which would result with the enhancement of Humanity as a whole.

How to Deal with a Death of our Pets - Part 2 - Day 249

 

 

This series was started with the Death of Babitjie, a cat that I had created a relationship connection to, which I suggest reading through the blog I wrote yesterday for full context and understanding of this blog.

As I've opened up the point, I've seen multiple points to look at and investigate wherein the main/core point to be aware of is our Self Interest design within the Context of Pets in particular and Animals in general.

 

Unfortunately, we had another death on the farm - Titan, Gian's horse had to be put down immediately due to extensive cancer that suddenly emerged which caused with inability to drink and eat. There was also no treatment that could have cured him.

And yes, we had another death yesterday, this time it was a Duck but interestingly enough, I didn't give it much value. I didn't know about it but even if I knew, it wouldn't move me, I was to focused on the Death of Babitjie. which again, the questions I must ask myself are - why it is that I give value to a horse, a cat, a dog but nothing moves inside myself when a duck or a chicken dies? Why is it that nothing moves inside myself in every single moment of the day/night where lots of beings dies.

 

This has obviously to do with the extent of separation we have accepted and allowed within ourselves. This has to do with the extent of limitation we as human beings are consisting of and existing has. This has to do with our value systems that we have created, Morality, social norms. This has to do with are true Evil Nature of Self Interest.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attach Positive Value to specific beings and Neutral Value to other beings and accordingly, activate or deactivate specific emotions and feelings, not seeing, realizing and understanding that either Positive/Negative or Neutral is still based on Separation and in the lack of understanding within absolute self realization of Equality and Oneness as a living Principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to care for the Animals that I attach a positive Value to and disregard the animals that I attach a negative or Neutral value to and within that I forgive myself that I haven't thus far investigated the nature of the Value I assign to Animals or Humans in separation of me as I see, realize and understand that feeling ashamed or guilty about it won't make a difference, won't assist and support me to stabilize and equalize myself but it is rather a coping mechanism, as a reaction, to avoid the real problem, the core of the problem, to not face the problem and change my approach from a Mind separation to Physical living application.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that feeling sad over one being that had died in comparison to the millions beings that dies in every moment, implies separation which I've accepted and allowed and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the fact that I cannot feel anything for the beings that dies in every single moment, is how I would abdicate my responsibility as a human being with the means, sources and capability to actually stand up, investigate all points, investigate the outflows and consequences, investigate the starting point and the core of the problem, understand the problem in its totality and accordingly, make the decision to move, direct and walk myself into and as a solution that is best for all Lives, Equally.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what I accept and allow in my direct environment is what I would accept and allow in the world system as a whole. Here, I've just realized that I had accepted and allowed myself to not give a moment of consideration to the Duck that had died but was all possessed by a cat that died at the very same day. Which is the same in the world system, I would not accept and allow the harm of my family and closest friends and would be possessed if anything will happen to them and yet, children and adults are dying every single second from Starvation, Malnutrition, dehydration and diseases and I do nothing to Prevent and stop this from ever manifesting again.

 

I commit myself to get myself to a point of Equality and Oneness with and as everything that is here, from the smallest to the greatest as I see, realize and understand the irrationality in accepting and allowing Separation to exists within and as me and the consequences of such acceptance and allowance both in my direct environment and in this world as a whole.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that what exists within, exists without and in that, what we accept and allow in our direct environment, is what we will accept and allow in our external environment which then thus, perpetuate the extent of the Problem as why and how we would ignore the cruelty that exists within this world through deliberately attach a Neutral/Negative value to the Majority of this world that are in great suffering so that we won't have to take responsibility for them in making sure to create a foundation/platform of a world that is best for all equally, exactly as we attach a neutral/negative value to the 'irrelevant' beings as we have defined them as irrelevant within our own minds, in separation, such as the Duck example that I've shared above but it can also be the ants that we walk over, the bugs, the flies, etc.

 

 

 

 

 

Am I willing to have Children with this Person? - Day 182

For the purpose of understanding the content of this blog and to assist and support yourself with not creating another dimension in your mind through reading only this blog, I suggest reading:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

The relationship between Fear and Pain - Day 179

Pregnancy Pills to Suppressing Fears - Day 180

Having Sex with A partner you don't want having Kids with - Day 181

 

 

 

I commit myself to SHOW that for practical common sense living application one do not require FEAR as the directive principle and in this, I commit myself to show that the fears one had define as Positive fears to protect oneself from one's world/reality can be altered and change to practical common sense living application that one can walk within and as, without the existence of fear within and as oneself.

 

I Commit myself to SHOW that when one is making a decision based on FEAR and making an act that would result in suppressing the FEAR within and as oneself so that self won't have to face the fear, physical consequences may emerge that will effect one's life. In this, I commit myself to SHOW the relationship between the Mind and the Physical wherein suppressed fear that were not dealt/sorted out within and as oneself, would manifest consequences that will harm the human physical body.

 

I Commit myself to Always investigate the source/core of any pain I experience within and as myself as I see, realize and understand that I was the one who had created the pain through accepting and allowing all forms of beliefs, ideas, perceptions, opinions about myself that would stand in alignment to my own self interest, without any fundamental ground in cross referencing these components with a physical equal and one result.

 

I Commit myself to Show that having a desire for sex, without understanding what sex IS and how to utilize Sex as a support for oneself, one's body and partner, indicate that one is an automated machine that has no respect for oneself, one's partner and LIFE as all one care about is fulfilling one's desire for nothing but an energy fix to sustain the machine that one had accepted and allowed self to be an become.

 

I Commit myself to get to know my partner within who my partner is and the potential my partner has to stand in alignment with me so that we can together, grow and expand ourselves, utilising our forces in changing ourselves and this world as a whole and until I'm sure and satisfied the agreement can stand in alignment to what's best for all, and that we can spend our life in a commitment to ourselves and each others, Sex wouldn't be part of the picture as I now see, realize and understand the responsibility that comes with sex and the consequences sex might have and in this, I stand here in a commitment to myself to utilize sex as a support structure for both me and my partner and not as a need, desire or want that is based on Energies, manipulations and self interest that may harm me or others.

 

I Commit myself to respect myself and ask myself a question when considering agreement with a prospect partner: "Am I willing to have children with this person?". The reason for this question is to see what movement and reactions comes up from within and in that, making sure I'm not deluding myself in ignoring the signs that I could see when desires/wants/needs are removed from the equation but rather, walking the equation that would lead to the utmost best outcome that would result in and as the principle of that which is best for all.

Having Sex with A partner you don't want having Kids with - Day 181

For the purpose of understanding the content of this blog and to assist and support yourself with not creating another dimension in your mind through reading only this blog, I suggest reading:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

The relationship between Fear and Pain - Day 179

Pregnancy Pills to Suppressing Fears - Day 180

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate within the fear of getting pregnant and having a child as my starting point in taking pills and I haven't realized that I do not require fear to be my directive principle but rather, practical common sense in consideration to where I am in my process, whether or not a child would be practical in terms of the support I'm able to gift my child with and so - when seeing in self honesty that having a child is not what is best for all at a specific moment, Pregnancy pills is a practical solution that would stand in alignment to the decision of not having children.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to let the fear go as my directive principle as I believed that having fears is practical instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that being practical and walking my life based on common sense principle doesn't require any fears but simply being here, directly seeing what's here and what would be the best for all application in any given moment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to still exists in fear when taking pregnancy pills because I know that it's not 100% safe and so, instead of taking the necessary steps to make sure that no pregnancy would emerge, I've allowed hope that everything will be alright while still allowing fears within and as me as well as abdicating my responsibility within the decision of having sex and the consequences that may emerge.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not consider that by the fact that I have fears of getting pregnant indicate that somewhere, deep inside myself, I'm well aware that the partner I'm with, is inadequate and yet, I've accepted and allowed the desire for sex to take over and act in ways I see that is not best for me and thus, not best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be willing to have sex with patterns I was not willing to have children with because I was deliberately used them and abused them as well as myself for the sake of fulfilling my desire for sex without willing to accept the consequences of sex as an act of birthing Life into and as the physical and the responsibilities that comes with having sex.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately not respect myself by willing to have sex with partner that I wasn't willing to have children with as my directive principle back then was Sex and the desire for sex without any consideration as to what is sex, what is sex to me, who I am as sex, why I am as sex, what is the physical purpose of sex and who am I having sex with.

 

For more context:

Part 1 - My First Love.

Part 2 - What is Love to me?

What is Spiritual Love to me? - Part 3 - Day 158

No Sex - No Relationship - Day 167

Men only think about Sex? - Day 168

Values System Within my Mind – Day 169

The Love Experience - Day 170

Wanting to be Saved by Prince Charming - Day 171

Why Females attracted to Males that are unavailable for a relationship - Day 172

Melancholia after a Break Up - Day 173

Melancholia after Break Up Continued - Day 174

Pregnancy Pills to Suppressing Fears - Day 180

For the purpose of understanding the content of this blog and to assist and support yourself with not creating another dimension in your mind through reading only this blog, I suggest reading:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

The relationship between Fear and Pain - Day 179

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to suppress the fear of getting pregnant and becoming a parent through taking Pregnancy Pills within the Belief that I won't get pregnant when I'm being carful however, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the Pregnancy Pills as a mean to not face my fears instead of Looking at the point, clear myself from my own self created fears and walk my life in Practical consideration for and as this physical reality rather than walking my life from the starting point of fears.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate my starting point in what I do and within that, not realizing who I am within what I do. In this - as I've seen through my writings, who I am in taking pregnancy Pills was Fear instead of Practical and Physical Living Human being that see, realize and understand one's responsibility towards oneself and the world as a whole and through this self realization, one would walk breath by breath according to that which is best for all, in absolute self responsibility as one's directive principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I'm being responsible by taking pregnancy pills, not seeing realizing and understanding that being self responsible towards oneself and one's world isn't measured by what one does but rather who one is within what one does and so - Self Responsibility imply - Investigating one's starting point of doing something and clearing all opinions, beliefs, fears, reactions, ideas, emotions and feelings and in that, transform the starting point to self support living consideration for oneself and one's world within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the Consequences of accepting and allowing walking within the starting point of fear and doing actions to suppress and ignore the fears and in that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to study and understand the relationship between the Mind and the Physical and in that, the physical consequences that are involved in suppressing one's fear instead of facing them, releasing them and standing within and as self trust, self responsibility, and directing self, breath by breath as self, as the directive principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abuse and sabotage myself as my human physical body through accepting headaches when having menstruation as the ultimate truth that I've come to accept and within that acceptance and allowance, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore and hide the fears that are the base of my movement in who I have become as what I do so that I won't have to face who I have become because within me, I know, that once I see myself, I would force myself to change and in remaining blind, I won't have to change.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between the headaches and my fears of getting pregnant and becoming a parent and through accepting the headaches as normal because other woman experience the same, I've abdicated my responsibility to investigating what Normal is and on what this definition of what Normal is Serves my own self interest desire to remain slave to my own mind to not face myself and practically change.

 

Continuing tomorrow with debunking the fear of getting pregnant and becoming a parent.

The relationship between Fear and Pain - Day 179

For the purpose of understanding the content of this blog and to assist and support yourself with not creating another dimension in your mind through reading only this blog, I suggest reading:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

 

Last week, as I've indicated in my previous blogs, I experienced headache 7 days before getting period and as I've explained and showed, this specific pain was in direct relationship I had created in my mind wherein headaches are part of the Pre-Menstruation cycle as if it was the ultimate truth.

 

However, what about headaches during Menstruation? What belief system have I formed within and as myself that manifested the Headaches during Menstruation time - Headaches that are more likely to turn into a sever migraine?

 

So, 2 days ago, I was looking at the nature of the headache I had experience and I utilized the same technics that I've previously utilized, shown me by my friend, where I push a specific point in my human physical body and in doing so, the memory/thought that comes up would be the thought/memory that I will be working with, to delete, disengage and remove within self honesty, self forgiveness process.

 

I have found a fascinating thought structure that I've assisted and supported myself with applying immediate Self Forgiveness to release myself from recreating the next painful cycle that is connected to the relationship between the belief that Menstruation comes with headaches. The thought was:  "OMG, this headaches might not be related to Menstruation, maybe I have brain tumour"

 

Us human beings, are really fucked up if allowing such thoughts to manifest within and as ourselves, not seeing, realizing and understanding the consequences of accepting and allowing such thought and how through fear that activates the thought we may create things like Brain tumour for us to face what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves for instance - fear of having Cancer.

 

But - the pain didn't stop and when I checked within and as myself whether or not I've in fact moved through this fear however, when this thought wasn't there anymore, I moved through the dimensions of my mind and investigated what I haven't seen yet - where and how I've accepted and allowed fear to manifest as headaches as I've recently realized that our starting point within everything that we do is always related to Fears.

 

And so, I went back in time to look at where the headache started whenever I got period and I found that it started soon after I stopped taking pregnancy pills 4-5 years ago which led me to check and assess my starting point in taking pregnancy pills previously and what was the fear within the starting point which was - Fear of Getting Pregnant and becoming a parent. Now, it is not that I'm saying here that one shouldn't take pills to prevent unwanted pregnancy. What I'm saying is that the starting point should be based on common sense, practical living consideration within self responsibility and self honesty rather being a starting point that is based on fears. What I've seen was that the fear of getting pregnant and becoming a parent was suppressed within and as myself through taking the pregnancy pills and slowly but surely, over time, manifested as a physical pain, once a month, when having menstruation.

 

This point is extensive from the perspective of me requiring a real introspection and within that, sufficient time to walk through this fear, in detail and specificity and therefor, I commit myself to walk through the structure within my next blog and release myself from the fear of getting pregnant and becoming a parent within the multiple dimensions that I'm seeing within and as myself.