The End of Times - Day 187

 

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

 

And:

 

This is a continuation to:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

 

In the last 2 days, while walking the Copy Paste character, I came to realize that my application within the tasks that I do is not Absolute from the perspective of investing the time each task require to be done to its utmost potential, breath by breath. That is because I've accepted and allowed way to much task than what a person can handle in a time frame of 24 hours a day. The starting point when taking these tasks upon myself, as I've mentioned in my previous blogs, was to be defined as MORE because I couldn't see myself as worthy as Me, here, as who I am but rather, I've defined myself according to other's eyes views and unless they saw me as more, I couldn’t worthy or respect myself.

 

So now, when slowing down, I see that I must face the consequences and keep on doing what I usually do however, the starting point must be changed and within that, I must be patient and humble with myself, letting go of all the loose hands of the desires I've accepted and allowed within and as myself and walk, as who I am, within what I do, one breath at a time, one step at a time and be OK with the fact that not everything will be done in time within the realization that there is so much one can do in every breath.

 

The reason why I'm writing about this point today is because I experienced a massive frustration in the past few days because I wasn't satisfied with my application in general and specifically, with my participation in the Desteni Forum where my Support wasn't as effective as I can support because I've only scanned through the posts without actually reading the posts and paying attention to the details along with missing a day where I wasn't on the forum at all which created the consequences of spending extra time on the day after, to be able to catch up with everyone's processes. I wasn't satisfied from the support I was sharing as I've seen the cracks slowly but surely coming into the surface and how within that, I'm compromising other people’s processes which is to me, not acceptable living application.

 

So, how to go about and change my application to be and to stand as effective as possible within each and every breath, with the time frame I have in every day, with my current projects and task that I'm participating with and within it all, how to make sure I'm not compromising and sabotaging myself, my human physical body and the people that I'm working and interacting with.

 

What was fascinating in the last 2 days was seeing myself trying, in my mind, to find a new short cut, how to round a few corners so that I could change my application meaning - how can I have more time to do what I do and physically invest the time/space required to do it all. And as I realized there is no way to make it work, I became frustrated, angry, irritated and - missed many many breaths which within that obviously, couldn't be effective lol - how can one be effective when one is spending time in one's mind, trying to figure out how to be effective.

 

When I talked with a friend that has walked the same point I've been walking and now, re-walking, she referred me to my own blogs from day 45, 46 and 67.

 

So - let me walk this again, in greater specificity and to stop the time loop for once and for all as I see, realize and understand that accepting this within and as myself, in unacceptable as it is compromising all of our processes as a whole.

 

Thus, let's look at the Character dimension of "I don't have Time".

I've written down for myself, the character dimensions as Fear, Thoughts, Imagination, Back chat, reactions and physical behaviour which I will slowly but surely publish, once I walk the correction through Self Forgiveness and self Commitments. After I'm done, I will walk the Consequences Dimension as the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment that encompass the entire Character as I gain more perspective and realization of my own accepted and allowed 'I don’t have Time' Character.

Copy Paste Character–The Education System - Day 184

This is a continuation to:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question the education system that encouraged me to develop and create the 'Copy-Paste' Character within and as myself and as I've explained in my Previous blog for example, in my University, we had open books exams where we were allowed to bring past years exams which were the exact copy of the exam I was writing and within that, all I had to do in order to get a high Mark was to copy paste the information and vomit it into my exam sheets.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to develop, empower and grow myself within my higher studies because I didn't see why I should do so when it was so easy to get high marks in the exams without any effort on my side to actually understand and apply the information for and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define education through Marks as I was brought up to believe that to be successful, one must have high marks to open the doors of success and as long as this side of the equation is safe and sound, there is no real reason to make any effort in educating myself for real as this world, is not based on real, valid and practical education, it is about status, money, connections and my smile that would pave the way before me, to be and become a successful human being in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a world where the education system that is based on a rewards as consumerism, utilizing one's self interest desire for a specific experience and in doing so attract people into the education system without telling them that the education system is in no way a real, substantial and practical education for human beings to be and become a better humans in this world but rather, has become the tool to make the humans be less then who they are, with one gaol in front of their eyes - The path to Money and success.

 

Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to research and investigate the starting point in the world wide education system factories that utilize human behaviour research to further brainwash people into a complete consumerism robot that is functions on a reward system to satisfied one's self interest desire and in that, the current education systems in this world further enslaving people into their own minds and keeping humans as ignorant and powerless as possible, in never developing a critical thinking that would force them to look at their acceptance and allowances which led to a world of absolute control, abuse and suffering without anyone standing up and call for a world wide change that would be best for all. Further expand your understanding through watching the documentary - The College Conspiracy.

 

And as I'm writing now, a news article was just publish about Massive Copy Paste and drops in Marks in the Israeli Education System. And who is to blame if not the education system? The kids that cheated within a system that encourage it?? http://www.ynet.co.il/articles/0,7340,L-4292336,00.html.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the blame is not on the students that are becoming a copy-paste character robotic machines that are seeking for the quick way for success in having things done but the blame is on our acceptance and allowances of creating a world system that do not motivate children to perfect themselves and their LIFE skills in becoming a better and effective human beings in this world. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility in accepting and allowing a world system that utilize the education system to further diminish the human beings as who they are as I've not stood up and called for a change in a global scale within and as the world system as a whole and the education system in particular.

 

To be Continued..

 

 

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

I like short cuts, I like having things done quick, I like the magic wand, I like getting to the finish line without having to make much of an effort to get there. And - that's was what I was doing throughout my Life through utilizing the Copy-Paste Character; only what I haven't considered is the consequences and that within the Copy-Paste Character, I'm not really assisting and supporting myself to grow and Expand myself - all I was doing was creating a time loop that would take me much longer to correct, diminishing myself to the level of becoming a robotic human being with none critical thinking and self investigation.

 

How I have justified the Validity of existing as the Copy-Paste character is through - "I don't have time", "I need to have this done ASAP", "I don't know how to do it so well, and I don't want to spend time on something others would do better then me", "I don't know how to do this", "I will have to research and investigate the point thoroughly and I don't have the time to do so, better to simply copy-paste", "I must have it done so that I have time for more things to be done", "oh, I'm not good enough, they presented it better, I trust their application, I will simply copy paste from them".

 

When looking at the Fear dimension - if I won't do as much as I could possible do, I'll be useless and be defined as such. If I won't have it done, I will fail, I will be nothing. If I won't have it done, I won't have pleasure time so in essence, the Fear Dimension is - Fear of being Judged and disrespectful, Fear of Failure.

It's Funny because I have the tendency to take as many responsibilities as possible but within the copy paste character, what I'm now seeing, realizing and understanding that I've abdicated my responsibility from the perspective of - I don't trust myself to apply the point "correctly" and thus, I will use the application that was done by others because I trust their application and within that- I'm abdicating my own responsibility to apply myself within Self Trust, for MYSELF when and as I see a task that must be done because that is what's best for all.

 

When did I start applying the Copy-Paste character - High School. I remember having to study for a literature exams where we had to read 5 or more stories or poetry and then, analyse it and write about our understanding of it. I didn't want to do it because it wasn't a cool thing to do meaning - the cool people in my school didn't read the material, they simply read the short version that was passing around with prepared questions and answered. They also watched the movie instead of reading the book or what ever the assignment was. And I, wanted to be cool as well so I did the same, only read the short version of the story, studied the past years exams and got my A. I mean, it was easy - all I had to do is copy the information into my brain and paste it on the exams sheet. after the exam was done, I deleted the information cause I didn't have any reason to keep it there or any use of it later on in my life. Or so I believed.

 

So, my training for life in high school already was - Copy-Paste have good results and I don't need to really study and understand what I study, all I need to do is to temporarily insert the information to my mind and vomit it onto the exam sheets.

In the University - it was much EASIER process because the exams were with open books. So all I had to do is make sure I have good books and notes from people that actually studied, study their notes, make sure I know how to allocate the material quickly and again, vomit all the information to the exam sheets and get a good mark. Lol, it became much easier in my final year when I discovered that the exams each year are exactly the same and one could take the past year exams, with the answers already prepared and literally, copy paste the information into one's exam.

 

Side note - initially I thought it was a stupid thing from the university side to give us the very same exams from the years before but now, I understand the starting point in doing such a thing - having students with high grades, elevate the university reputation and with a good reputation, more money comes in. Which means, that the education system doesn't really want you to grow and expand yourself, but to rather be automated machine, with no real critical thinking and integration of the material in one's day to Day living application but they rather wants your money and use you to generate more money. On that note, I suggest watching the documentary - The College Conspiracy.

 

And now, this copy-paste character is still a character I see myself using within my day to day living application where I would look for the short cut, the quick fix, not seeing absolutely the consequences and the harm I'm creating not only for myself but for our group as a whole as within walking as the copy paste character - my support is not absolute, my standing is not absolute and the example I'm showing is not absolutely aligned within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

So - time to say 'Bye Bye' to the character through a process of Self Forgiveness and to instead, investigate each and every starting point in each and every task that I'm doing and within that, make sure that the starting point is Self Realization as to who I am within what I do and how who I am within what I do must result in the best for all out come.

Within that, to realize that having more and more responsibilities while they are not being walked as effective as possible is useless. Better to focus and make the best out of everything that I do instead of having things half way done and in that, compromise myself and the group as a whole.

Memory makes me Robot - Day 59

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge a being's expression as rigid and superior and accordingly locked myself within an inferiority experience as per my accepted preprogramed design and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to through judging and defining one's expression as rigid and superior, to react and direct myself within the reaction despite of me seeing the energy movement building up inside my solar plexus  and yet, I give in and allowed myself to suck into the possession more and more instead of STOP, breathe, let go of my experience of me as inferior in absolute self honesty and stand up, align myself back to myself and walk equal to and one with the being I am communicating with.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've defined and judged other's expression according to my past experiences as memories that has integrated into my flesh and has become a physical automated unconscious reactions that I've allowed to a specific types of symbolism such as - an expression of another that I've judged as rigid and superior and thus when and as I'm facing a person that stand as that symbolism, I immediately access an inferiority experience.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exists within the experience of inferiority as my accepted pre-program design and thus, have allowed this experience to control and direct me to such an extent that whenever I'm in the face of a conflict, instead of directing myself breath by breath, I immediately accessing inferiority where I would go and isolate myself within my mind, further separating myself from myself and the other through conducting inner conversation with myself to justify my victimization, change my body posture to a stiff and rigid position and lower my eyes to the ground to avoid eye contact.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed my Ego to be my directive principle wherein when and as I'm doing a physical task and someone is correcting me, I immediately experience a pinch in my solar plexus, my body become constricted from the inside of my flesh and I than rush into my mind, in the attempt to justify why I'm right and the other is wrong and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that in the physical reality, there is no right/wrong; there is ONE principle that is valid: that which is best for all and thus, if I allow myself to think my self out of the losing experience into the winner experience through utilizing the polarity of right/wrong, there is no way I will establish an effective communication with another human being that will lead to an agreement of how to walk a specific physical task at its upmost potential.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to accumulate energy in a form of back chat towards another human being over a period of time and I have abdicated my responsibility to investigate the point, STOP and GROUND the energy back to earth and align myself back to myself within and as my human physical body through applying my commitment to walk breath by breath; and I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider that when I'm not supporting myself in investigating within self honesty each and every back chat towards anything or anyone in this world, inevitably, the energy accumulation will hit my face where a single statement by another would trigger one of my accepted personalities and within that, I will not only sabotage myself but I also sabotage my relationships with other human being when I lose myself to my mind and become possessed.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize, see and understand that any friction/conflict, from the smallest to the biggest between me and another human being is due to accepted and allowed continuation of back chat towards the being  and so long as I accept and allow myself to walk around with backchat/internal conversations/thoughts about anything or anyone, I will create and manifest frictions/conflicts in my world; frictions/conflicts that I could have prevented if only I would to stop, investigate, correct and change myself and thus become an effective human being in this this world instead of automated zombified creature that is enslaved and control by my own mind with zero awareness of what is REALLY here, within and as this physical reality.

I commit myself to investigate all the past memories integrations that I've allowed to to manifest and become physical automated unconscious reactions due to specific types of symbolism (expressions, body movements, voice tonalities) and accordingly delete the symbolisms through Self Forgiveness in absolute Self honesty.

I commit myself to embrace myself after I realized that I've accessed a momentarily mind possession which revealed and exposed me to a specific type of symbolism that I've associated with a past memory experience and within that, I commit myself to never take myself personally after the event and instead, BREATHE, look within myself to see how the point played out, what was the trigger point, how I've separated myself from myself and my environment, what was the back chat in the last few weeks that inevitably manifested as a mind possession and accordingly, I assist and support myself with writing Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty to delete the symbolism, align myself back to myself and correct my physical living application  breath by breath.

I commit myself to be attentive to my human physical body changes to assess 'where and who I am' in any given moment because I realized that my body posture/movement/voice tonality indicate, reveal and expose unconscious reactions to words/images/sounds/smell as a past memory experience which I'm able to take responsibility for, delete the experience through Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty and support myself to once and for all LIVE as a living expression of me, Here.

I forgive myself to STOP backchating about people in my world from the starting point of competition, jealousy, comparison and judgement because I see the consequences that such allowance can leads to. I realized that the above mind components are my own creation and thus, I support myself through bringing each and every back chat towards another back to myself and seeing where I've not aligned myself, what I haven't forgiven myself for, what is it that I'm trying to protect and accordingly assist and support myself within absolute Self honesty to

delete those components once and for all and to then thus actually and practically LIVE as an expression of me in every breath.

I commit myself to stop the SHIT that is called EGO because I realized that EGO can ONLY exists when a self interest desire for an experience exists and as the creator of the desire, as the creator of my EGO, I can recreate myself as LIFE and STOP my preprogramed designs as desires for a specific experience and accordingly change myself through a process of deletion and stopping desire for an experience by a desire for an experience in breath by breath living application.

I commit myself to investigate all types of polarities that I've accepted and allowed to exists within and as me because as long as I allow my own participation within a preprogram polarity designs, I create consequences if I'd like to or not; consequences that I directly responsible for; consequences that I could have prevented if I took the responsibility to become LIFE in fact by stopping the preprogramed automation designs that I've become. 

I commit myself to ground the energy movement back to earth when and as I experience the movement within and as me.

I commit myself to stop myself from communicating a point when the energy is still equal and one expression of me and instead, I take a moment, STOP myself, STAND UP from within and as myself, clearing myself and only when it's done, I communicate.

I commit myself to - when and as I access any type of reaction towards another human being to STOP, let my EGO go, breathe, clearing my preprogramed pattern designs, make a physical actions such as touching the other person if the person is in my direct environment, equalizing myself with the other being and direct myself within an effective and supportive communication to see where and how I've separated myself from myself and gave permission to my mind to direct, enslave and control me.