Determine the Future through the Past - Day 280

I was looking today at an interesting design of how we structure our lives, based on the Past, within the knowledge and information that we have gathered thus far, as memories, experiences, beliefs, opinion and etc.  and accordingly, project it all on the Future within the belief that X,Y,Z are then the only possible outcomes.

 

An Example -

As a child, I dreamt about being a National Geographic Photographer because:

 

A. I enjoyed taking pictures.

B. I Fantasized on traveling around the world.

Thus, A+B brought me to the conclusion that I must become a National Geographic Photographer.
Then, as i grow up, more variables came into the Equation:

C. There isn't much income in it.

D. I won't be able to have a stable and constant Home and Family because I'll be traveling around the world.

Thus, A+B+C+D brought me to the Conclusion that I cannot pursue my Childhood Dream because C+D had more value according to my Pre-program Design.

 

From there, when seeing that C+D are more valuable and powerful, I changed the Variables:

E. I want to be a Psychologist because I want to help people.

So I registered to the University, got accepted, found an apartment and was 2 months a way from starting my new life path.

But then, in the Summer brake, I discovered that there was 'More' to life then what I knew about life thus far (School, Army, Traveling, University). I discovered 'Partying', Alcohol, Men and a perceive sense of Freedom and thus now:

F. I want to Party and have fun - that doesn't work with studying.

So I dropped out of school before I even started and now, the Family Pressure started to kick in as I was pushed to do something with my life meaning - get education.

So now that F is a valuable variable, I looked at how I can manipulate D with maintaining F.

My Parties Friends told me about a Private Collage where they plan to go to, and how awesome the Social life there, and the people are all rich and good looking and.. The parties.. The best parties ever.. And because I knew that my parents will pay anything for the sake of my education, I thus decided:

G. I will Study Business and Marketing within a special program that include last year of Education in Las Vegas. That sound like Fun. But, it doesn't really fit in with the Preprogram design because, I must stay in Israel, Develop a Career, find my partner, get married and have Kids. So The Family Pressure kicked in again and I decided to change G. to:

H. I'll study Business with specialty in Finance and at the same time I'll do L.L.B in Law.   

 

I finished school and now had to stop the Partying stage, find a job and be something in this world. I started a job in marketing. Without realizing, I became poor really quick because I could no longer be a bar tender and make lots of money with the living expanses of renting a house and owning a car, Food, Electricity and Etc.

 

I quit my job for a what was seem at that time as a promising career as a trader in the Capital Market. That wasn't a huge success and I had to quit after a year because I was really not good at my job. I didn't know what to do next because all my attempts to manifest D were coming to nothing. Sure, I had B.A in Business and L.L.B in Law but there was absolute nothing I wanted to do with that. I still couldn't see my future and specifically, couldn't see future happiness unless D will in some may would manifest.

 

This all story is to show you that we are making our decisions based on Prospect Experiences/Desires and Past Memories/Experiences, Beliefs, ideas and etc. that were infuse into us already in childhood and we blindly accepted this is if this is who we are and the life we must walk as who we are.

 

D, was a direct influence within every decision that I made throughout my life while I never stopped and actually invested a moment to investigate each and every point and within that, look at what I really want, Where and how I can discover my fullest potential that would truly give me a life that I'll be satisfied with, in every single moment with no Shadow of Regret.

 

When looking at D: 

 

"I won't be able to have a stable and constant Home and Family because I'll be traveling around the world"

 

Stable and Constant Home/Family indicate that what I wished for in essence was Security of the Future that only Money could give me. Home and Family Represent Stability according to the world System eye's view and that is something that each one of us is being trained to desire from the first moment we remember ourselves. It has been advertised in any Children books, Movies, Magazines and TV Shows. It has been advertised in every Religion and Culture. We have been Programed, generation after Generation to maintain and sustain a Life of Survival within Separation as a principle. We have been Trained to do what ever it takes to Win the life anyone wants to have while only 1% of the 1% can physically have. We have Compromised through the Belief that Love worth it all despite of the Common sense seeing that Love doesn't bring food to the table but Money is.

 

To Understand Preprograming in a nutshell, I suggest reading my blog series - 'The correction Process and the Desteni Message' and in the Future to Come, a new series will be available on EQAFE - the Physical Quantum Mind which would explain in Detail how the Pre-Program works on a Physical Quantum Mind Level and how  the first 7 years of a Child life would be the stepping stone from which the Child develop and Establish the Variables that would shape and mould every decision one would make throughout one's life. 

 

The point here to understand is: The Future is Unknown to us at the moment as we have separated ourselves from who we are and as such, can not see the physical reality clearly within all the relationships/variables it consist of and exists as. Sure, we can make common sense plans to make sure that our survival in this world is stable because we are still living in a system of Money and Survival. A point to consider here - is this the Life we want to leave for our Children? Is this the Future we want our Children to have? Isn't it the time to stop and create a future of abundance for all the member of the Family - Humans, Nature and the Animal Kingdom? If you find it in you to stand up for a future of Absolute Security, safety and dignity for all, I suggest to study the Equal Money System Proposal.

 

And on the Individual Level, one must understand how limited we are within our mind wherein, we believe that we can predict our future according to the variables we place in our Life-Equations without realizing that there are much more variables that we haven't consider at all. The Depression that I experienced in my life was due to me looking at the future through the glasses of the Past and not seeing anything that is worthwhile that may manifested within the Frame of Reference I programmed myself as.

I've realized though, that being Depressed when the Physical reality doesn't meat the Future Reality that I've planned, desired and wished for in my mind indicate the extent of separation that I have accepted and allowed within and as myself because in self honesty, I'm in a process of self discovery and if I project to  the future who I am now, I'm not giving me the space and time to expand, grow and discover myself because 'Who I am' in every moment was never part of the Dynamic Equation of Life.

Holding onto a Grudge - Part 3- Day 233

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

Seeing the Evil Nature in Dreams - Day 229

Holding onto a Grudge - Day 230

Holding onto a Grudge - Part 2 - Day 231

 

Before you read this blog, I truly suggest to Invest in the Quantum Mind - Self Awareness Interviews as it is a tremendous assistance and support for me in getting to know the origin of myself in how I programmed myself to behave, speak, react, form personalities and so forth. In this, I can slowly but surely, expand my awareness of myself as what I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become through years of Self Programming with Zero self and real Awareness.

 

I Commit myself to Further expanding my Direct seeing of my own mind, from the Conscious to the Sub Conscious to the UnConsious and to the Quantum and the Physical Quantum Mind to understand the Mechanics of the Mind in how I've accepted and allowed myself to program my relationships with myself and with others with No Self Awareness.

 

I Commit myself to Investigate my Current Relationships within my Physical Environment to allocate the 'Preferences' that I've formed within these relationship so that I could see, realize and understand for myself, how I've programmed these preference in relationship with Past Memories Experiences as the Building blocks of how I would automatically experience myself in their presence, what Back chat would I have, How would I react and so forth. Within that, I commit myself to change my Relationship from Mind Experiences to Physical Living Expression of and as myself.

 

I Commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing defence mode in relation to another human being, to investigate and check if there are any memories from the past that I've associated and connected to this being and accordingly, assist and support myself to Forgive myself and delete the memories that I've utilize to Protect myself through holding onto Grudge as I now see, realize and understand that so long as I hold onto grudge, I'm not giving our relationship to transform to a supportive and effective relationship where we expand and grow ourselves within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to investigate all the fears that I've programmed myself within and as because I now see, realize and understand that so long as I'm approaching relationship within the starting point of fear, there is no way I could develop and establish a real and physical relationship with any human being as I would not allow myself to trust them and would keep a wall that separate us from really getting to know each other and develop a supportive and effective relationship that would stand for eternity.

 

I commit myself to - when and as I communicate with another human being, to allow myself to truly listen to their words, in letting go the defense mechanisms that I've created within and as myself from the starting point of fear. In this, I commit myself to self honestly getting to know the other human being in their totality as I now see, realize and understand that I have never accepted and allowed myself to see the being as who they are, but always approach the being from my own limitation of my own mind, through my opinions, beliefs, ideas, fears, reactions that I have created within and as myself throughout the years.

Holding onto a Grudge - Part 2 - Day 231

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

Seeing the Evil Nature in Dreams - Day 229

Holding onto a Grudge - Day 230

 

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Delete the Past Memory Experience, Either a Negative or Positive, as I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that storing Past Memory Experiences is how I enslave myself, further into my mind in how I would from there develop preferences, likes/dislikes and emotions and feelings towards other human beings and within this, how I would chose the people I like/dislike being around instead of, assessing and checking the alignment between us to see if the relationship would produce an outcome that would result in the expansion and growth of each other within the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that as long as I hold grudge towards another human being, based on a past memory Experience where I felt betrayed or hurt, I do not give the relationship a chance to transform to a supportive relationship where both are standing in alignment, assisting and supporting each other to become a better human beings in this world and through that, empower we are through strengthening ourselves with the assistance and support of each other because, the grudge that I hold onto the other human being is like a wall that I'm placing between us, a wall that cannot be walked through so that we both become One, unless I remove the wall in absolute self trust, through deleting the past memory experiences and within that, accepting and allowing myself to walk with a person, as who the person IS, in that very moment of Breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to train and program myself to hold grudge towards the people in my world and my environment as part of my Survival tactics, in case that one day, I could utilize that grudge and transform it to a revenge, to strike first with all the weapons I have stored within and as myself, before they could harm and hurt me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that my approach to any relationship is within FEAR as I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to trust anyone due to past memory experiences where I perceived people to harm and hurt me.

 

Moreover, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've approached Relationship from fear, from a very young age and within that, didn't walk the 1+1 equation in understanding that that which I fear, persists and manifest itself over and over again, until I stand up and change.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that when and as I hold grudge towards another human being, I'm not accepting and allowing myself to create a co-existing relationship with them, because I would always be in a state of protection and defense towards a possibility of getting hurt.

 

In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that so long as I hold onto past memory experiences of all the times I perceived others to disappoint me, harm, compromise, betray or hurt me, I cannot expect having relationship with people from an Equal and ONE physical starting point as I gave value to past memories experiences which through the memories, as fears, I accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that so long as I'm holding a past memory Event/Experience that I've defined within and as myself as Negative, I'm Not accepting and allowing myself to really get to know another human being as my approach from the get go was of and as fear. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I have never in fact, accepted and allowed myself to get to know another human being so long as I hold memories within and as myself through which, I would interpret what I think and perceive they are saying, through associating their words, behaviour and mannerism with past Memories Events/Experiences that I've stored within and as myself.

 

 

Will be continued..

Spirituality - The Bigger Plan - Day 40

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a light worker to believe and hope for a better future without me having to do anything about it but sitting on my ass, meditate and pray for Love and Light, despite of the physical evidence that even though the number of light worker increase over the years, the atrocities is worsening.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as a light worker to question the relationship between the increasing amount of light worker participants and the elevation of the world catastrophes and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to justify and validate the world worsening condition with the statement: "it is part of a bigger plan" and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that the only way I'm able to speak such a statement is because I have money to support me and my life and I'm not starving to death like the majority of this world.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as a light worker to see that by sitting on my ass and meditate within the belief that I'm doing something good in this world through raising the positive energies, I'm feeding my Ego personality through defining myself as a good and positive person but I have refused to see that by that very accepted and allowed behaviour, I'm in fact evil in my nature because I accept the belief of: "the world atrocity is part of a bigger plan, there is no need for me to actually stand up and practically/physically work towards a solution and change that is substantial in this world"

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a light worker to make excuses and justification for why people are being abused in this world through stating that: " it's their lesson to learn, they have chosen this life, they are paying for their past lives sins, it's part of the bigger plan, I was also going through this lesson in my past lives" and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to spite those who are suffering in this world because I believed they had to experience the absolute suffer in this physical world as part of their ascension process and I have never questioned, cross referenced and truly investigate the belief because I didn't really care for them as long as my life is protected and safe.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk the living expression of the words "Equality and Oneness" but rather, used and misused those words to higher up the good and positive energy within me in separation of me as a physical being because if I would have lived the physical expression of the words: "Equality and Oneness" I would do what ever is necessarily to be done so that All as One as Equals will have a dignified life on Earth, that the earth resources would distribute Equally, that no one will ever have to survive again, that everyone will have equal access to re-educate and apply themselves and practically change their very beingness, in every breath according to that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a light worker, to believe that there is a "bigger plan" for the atrocities of this world without me ever questioning the nature of the "bigger plan" and see in self honesty that the "bigger plan" is in fact an Evil plan - a plan that was designed to keep people enslaved to their mind as within, and to Money as without so that only a select few could experience a life of abundance.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that spirituality is based on knowledge and information that was misinterpreted and manipulated so that beings could remain enslaved to their mind, as energy and within that, wouldn't stand up for a practical and substantial solution that is physically best for all LIFE.

I commit myself to show, expose and reveal the Evil 'bigger plan' that was designed to control and enslave beings in this world so that beings could wake up from their delusional self interest dream/perception of Life and practically stand up and do something in this world that is substantial and best for all.

I commit myself to show in common sense why and how spirituality has become the most evil religion in this world as it is based on Self interest experiences that can only exists within and as the mind and as nothing to do with the physical reality.

I commit myself to expose the various aspects of Spirituality that I've participated with as a light worker and to share common sense of how I've seen for myself that Spirituality is in no way the solution that will practically and physically bring about heaven on earth.

Please read - Spirituality Under the Microscope - Volume 1 as well as Listen to the following interviews:

1. Spirituality - Astral Projections in Detail - http://eqafe.com/p/spirituality-astral-projections-in-detail

2. Spirituality - Out of Body Experiences - http://eqafe.com/p/spirituality-out-of-body-experiences

3. Spirituality and Rebirth - http://eqafe.com/p/spirituality-and-rebirth (F*r**e*e Download)

Also suggest to read - Day 38: Rebirthing as Life

Curiosity of Knowledge and Information - Day 27

Art by Scott Cook

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed to design myself in the nature of limited form of curiosity wherein, I’m curious about the insignificant knowledge and information and disregarding the practical physical application of and as a living being that moves and direct according to that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the self dishonesty within the nature of curiosity wherein I seek for self empowerment through knowledge and information so that I won’t have to focus on the practical living application from the starting point of taking self responsibility to change myself, and could define myself as an intellectual and smart being to validate myself as EGO.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that curiosity is a tool that I'm using to preoccupied myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a spiritual being to preoccupied myself with curiosity of who and what I was in my past lives despite of the irrelevancy of the knowledge and information as it is clearly hasn’t assisted and supported me with realizing Who I am as a living physical being but rather kept me further away/separated from myself and life as a whole.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration the nature of curiosity design where I'm being busy and preoccupied in my mind, wondering and pondering about who and what I was in my past lives and within that, abdicated the responsibility to face WHO I HAVE PROGRAMMED myself to be in this life time and accordingly change myself from the starting point of Who I am as a physical living being that walk, move and direct myself and this world as that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be curious about who and what I was in my past lives instead of focusing on what is HERE and what is require to give direction to manifest myself and this world within the nature of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to program and design myself within curiosity about other people lives because I haven't realized the relationship between curiosity and gossiping wherein curiosity is the trigger point of the  desire to gossip about other people either with other beings or within one's own mind.

(For better context with regards to Gossiping, please read Facing Gossip - Day 7)

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to seek for information and knowledge that will satisfied my curiosity and I haven't even consider my starting point within the desire to "know" and thus, I'm not taking responsibility for the information that I'm gathering from the perspective of zero self practical application and by doing so, I'm preoccupying myself within my mind and allowing myself to miss a breath and thus not living as a physical expression but as a mind expression which do not support a LIFE that is best for all but only the Life of myself as a self interest individual.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give value to curiosity within the definition and belief that a curios being is pushing oneself to be better, to be intellectual, to be smart but within that I've not realized that those components are a mind component that are based on the validation of self through external and separated forces and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that intellectual/smart/wise is useless unless it comes with a physical practical application that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to develop curiosity towards irrelevant and insignificant points in my life to preoccupied myself in that which do not support LIFE because if I would have done so, I would have to take the responsibility to change and focus only on that which support all life.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the starting point of fulfilling one's curiosity is because self experience oneself as limited and inferior.

Art by Scott Cool

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that we live in a world where the information and knowledge is not accessible for everyone and thus, those who hold on the information are taking the rule of powerful and superior and the rest takes the rule of powerless and  inferiors and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a world where information=power even though, the information is in no way a support of life that is best for all but rather the opposite

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see how information is being a tool to manipulate and control within the power game of authority vs. submission  to authority.

I commit myself to focus only on that which can be practically applied as a physical living expression that is best for all.

I commit myself to expose all aspect of curiosity designs such as curiosity of sexual expression within children whom are not being assistance and support to understand and realize sexual physical expression and thus left alone within their mind and within that abuse themselves and others. As well as, I commit myself to expose the abusive nature of curiosity in relation to following one's thoughts in the illusionary/fantasy domain in the mind and the consequences there of.

I commit myself to stop participating in the power game of superiority/inferiority in relation to information and knowledge within the realization that I'm not defined by information/knowledge.