Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

 

 

I commit myself to - when and as I hear words that activated a reaction as energy movement within and as myself, to investigate the word, to redefine the word and purify myself as the living word wherein, when hearing a word, I  won't activate memories, associations, definitions, beliefs within and as myself which I will automatically give attention to and accordingly, give myself up, become non existent as I gave permission to my mind to be the directive principle instead of me, purifying myself to accordingly direct myself in every given moment, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to SHOW how through the reactions of our parents to specific words, we decide who we are as we've copied and duplicated our parents reactions, because apparently, they know it all, they know what is best for us, despite of the fact that has been proven in many psychology studied that parents has no clue about the influence and consequences they cause to their children.

 

I Commit myself to become intimate with myself as my human physical body in a journey of exploring myself and the investigation of the definition that I've gave to specific organs of my human physical body to assist and support myself with being comfortable with myself. I see now, that I'm lucky to have a human physical body to cross reference my application and it is my responsibility as such, to stand equal and one as my human physical body as the entirety of the body, all the organs, cells, veins etc. and accordingly, to utilise my body as a support of my process of stepping out of my mind instead of continue abusing my body through my acceptance and allowances of participation in my mind.

 

I Commit myself to assist and support Parents in qualifying them with supportive and effective parenting skills, as I walk my own process from the moment of emerging to this earth, in a time line till now, through my process of sharing my self-investigation process of who I am, through sharing my process of how I practically assisting and supporting myself to unchain myself from my social beliefs and norms that I've integrated into myself as my mind and accordingly, reprogram myself from fuckupness to perfection as I walk my process of self responsibility, in self forgiveness and practical corrective application in self honesty.

 

I commit myself to correct my past sexual relationships within and as myself through a process of self forgiveness in self honesty, to stop the self sabotage/abuse patterns that I've accepted and allowed myself to become through suppressing sexuality and making it more than what it is as a physical communication with myself and my partner.

 

I Commit myself to educate myself with regards of the relationship between the mind and the physical, to be able to understand myself and what I have become and accordingly, stop judging that which I do not understand and rather, change myself according to principles of Oneness and Equality.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that we are busy judging that which we do not understand because we didn't have an example, as effective parents with parenting skills to walk with us as equals and explain to us, from the get go, the relationship between the mind and the physical.

And I commit myself to support those who will walk the development and establishment of parenting skills programs, to bring about, a balance and effective parents who would become the example of the generation to come so that we could once and for all, stop the fuckupness we call earth and humans and create a world of humans beings that walk, move and direct themselves according to that which is best for all. 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a child of this world, to feel and experience shame when and as the words: "Vagina, Penis, fuck, sex" where spoken as an automated reaction within and as myself and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, from a very young age, to react in shame and un-comfortability, when and as I heard the words: "Vagina, Penis, fuck, sex" because I've attached, defined and connected those words within a negative energetic charge and within it, have attached, defined and connected those words to the emotions of shame and un-comfortability.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to connect, attach and define the words "Vagina, Penis, fuck, sex" with sexual connotation and association as 'wrong' and/or 'bad', as if the words in itself are dirty/impure. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate my own reactions to specific words and simply accepted the words to exists within and as an energetic charge that I've imprinted from my parents as I saw their reactions towards those words and accordingly, adopted the reactions as my own.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that the 'sexual' organs of the human physical body are not to be touched, not to be discussed, not to be equal and one with. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create the belief that the sexual organs are not to be touched, discussed and stand equal and one with and have thus, accepted and allowed my own separation from and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate the touch and explore me as my human physical body through the belief that I must not "go there", it is forbidden and wrong and within that acceptance and allowances of the social codes and norms of my environment, I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my human physical body without seeing, realizing and understanding the consequences that I would face in my adult years in relation to Sexuality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge sexuality from a very young age as wrong, forbidden and dirty due to our collective belief and idea that there is a time and place to practice sexuality and before you get to a certain age/place, you may not speak, think, explore sexuality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my early age relationship with a male because according to my belief, I shouldn't have a sexual relationship until I reach a certain age and accordingly, I've decided to suppress my sexuality and didn't allow myself to explore who I am as a sexual human being, with myself or with my partner because I gave all my power away to the voices in my heads/policemen in my head that told me that it's not the time, I'm not allowed to do that, my parents will be disappointed of me and when the policeman in my head was unbearable, I've decided to end the relationship so that I won't be in a tempting position of actually exploring my sexuality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see the relationship between my mind and my sexuality wherein I've only defined sexuality through the mind, disregarding the physical aspect of Sexuality.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to explore my sexuality within and as myself because the idea of touching myself came with the experience of shame, dirtiness, filthiness, disgust and immoral and because I haven't understood the Equality and Oneness with and as my human physical body, I've judged myself as all those mind component and accordingly, have decided to suppress the physical reaction that emerged within and as myself because if I allow myself to act on the physical requirement for sex or masturbation, I will be defined as dirty, filthy, disgust and immoral.

Sexual Expression – Overview Day 112

This is a continuation to:

 

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

Suppressed Self Expression - The beginning of the End - Day 102

Singing Expression Character - Day 103

The Shyness Character - Day 104

The Shyness Character - Self Forgiveness as the parent - Day 105

The Shyness Character - Self Commitments Statements - Day 106

Singing Expression - Self Forgiveness - Day 107

Singing Expression - Self Commitments - Day 108

 

 

Within this blog, I will be looking at the relationship between children and parents and how one evolved one's sexual expression from early childhood years into adulthood.

 

As a child, one do not attach, define or associate one's sexual organs with sexuality. When one touch oneself, as a child, one does it for only ONE reason - it is enjoyable, exactly like adults enjoy the touch of one's sexual organs. Only later on, Morality kicks in and the parents forbid the child from touching oneself from various types and forms of opinions, beliefs and ideas. In Essence, the Parent reacts to the Child's expression and with having no effective parenting skills education in this world, the parent isn't aware of the consequences that emerged from the first moment of reaction.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Parents are not Instructed how to Instruct Children and are thus Not Qualified to be Instructors and are thus Destructors that will even Defend their Right to Destroy their Children in spite of the Fact that if one’s not Trained in Effective Direct Instruction, one is in fact Not Qualified to have Children under one's Supervision and would Never Employ someone Unqualified to do a Job - yet the most Important Job on Earth, which is to Instruct Newborn Children, is allowed to be Instructed by Unqualified, Inadequate Trainers - resulting in a World where No One is in fact Ever Qualified or Instructed to be part of a Society that is Best for All Present on Earth; and Although lip service is paid to Ideals like ‘Love thy Neighbor as Thyself’ it is Never Actualized as the Parent as New Life Unqualified Instruction Never Learned the Practical Implication where ‘Love Thy Neighbor as Thyself’ actually Exists. Bernard Poolman - http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/day-110-children-are-not-born-with.html

 

I have no idea whether or not I have been touching myself as I was a young kid, I can only remember the time I became aware of what I was doing and with that, came guilt, embarrassment and shame; and so, I stopped. Obviously, no one explained to me what I'm experiencing, no one walked me through the understanding of Who I am as my physical body and so, only occasionally, I would touch, just to see how does it feels because it is enjoyable, you cannot ignore something like that; I couldn't also ignore the feeling that I'm doing something wrong, so I did it secretly, while I was in the toilet room when no one was around to question why it takes me so long to get out of the toilet room. In my eye's view - I was doing something I shouldn't speak about, shouldn't be doing and I might as well keep it to myself because after all, it is my PRIVATE organs. Lol.

 

So, why is it that it is wrong? What is the difference between touching one's hands and touching one's 'sexual' organs? Why is it that we have accepted and allowed the touch of our nose/face/hands as normal and validated and the touch of our sexual organs as wrong, immoral, forbidden?

 

Where did we learn it from? Who expose us to this moral polarity? Why is it that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to separate ourselves from our human physical body organs through giving a different values to specific organs? Why is it that we have lived inside our mind, having ideas/opinions/beliefs about our bodies and haven't stood in equality and oneness with our human physical body? Have we born separate from our human physical body or is it programs that we have installed within and as ourselves according to our environment?

 

It is no secret that our parents teach us every thing that we are and are basically, shaping and moulding our characters to be aligned with theirs however, it was us who accepted and allowed all of those characters as who we are and in that, made the decision to separate ourselves from ourselves and become an automated memory based machines. It will then, be us, who must re-birth ourselves through daring looking inside ourselves, through all the things we have been taught to suppress; it will be US that will take the responsibility to disengage from who we have become, to be able to see who we really are. There is no point in blaming others for our faulty creations of ourselves because doing so, it is do abdicate our responsibility. Blaming is done when one isn't willing to change oneself in fact; What was done is done. Our Future though - is ours to write, as it will be measured according to what we will accept and allow, and what we won't.

 

Will Continue investigating this point and assist and support myself, as well as others to uncover the suppressed Sexuality that we have defined as wrong.

For further perspective and understanding what is Sex and Masturbation, I suggest listening to the EQAFE interview series:

What is Sex and the Shocking Secret of Masturbation.