How to use Comparison in a constructive way - Day 379

About a year ago, I wrote the blog Inadequacy, failure and self judgement - part 1 - Day 30 where I dealt with comparing myself to someone who I perceived to be more effective than me, better than me and through comparing myself to this person, I defined myself as inadequate and a failure as a point of extreme self judgement and sabotage. These are some of the commitment I have written down in that specific blog:

 

"I commit myself to stop comparing my process to other being processes as I realize that I'm walking my own process that has nothing to do with other people.

 

I commit myself to stop defining myself according to other people."

 

In the past month, I started walking a new journey that requires my full attention, focus and responsibility and within that, I had to realign my time, adjust myself to different working hours and to still manage to walk through my previous responsibilities. Obviously, I got all the support I required to walk this point as effective as possible and the only point that I wasn't consistent as much as I would like to was my daily writing. I found myself struggling with this point because practically and physically, I could have spend another hour to do my writings but instead, I justified for myself that it has been a long day and I should go to rest now. And you know, there were days that I only slept 3 hours so here, I'm perfectly ok with not having my writing done as I must also take care of my physical human body and get it to rest but there were also other days where I could write but instead, I justified for myself that it has been a long day and it's cool to instead watch one episode of a TV series for instance. Here is where I found myself in an inner conflict where my desire to take a moment to watch something override common sense and my own commitment of walking in every moment according to what is best for all and within that, having my writing done is a point I define as best for all as it is the ultimate self support I am able to gift to myself and through which, I expand my moment to moment stability so that I can stand as a pillar of support for others.

 

So, last night, it was one of these days where I wanted to justify for myself why it is ok that I won't follow my own commitment of daily writing but instead, take the time for entertainment. But in self honesty, I couldn't pull it through by accepting my own justifications and limitation and thus, I decided to look at the person I compared myself to a year ago from the perspective of seeing the example this person is standing as, what can I learn from this person and how can I practically support myself in walking the time line that made this person effective within themselves. As I looked at the point, I realized it is all about a decision one is making within oneself and within that, the decision to walk one's own self commitment, self will and dedication in any given moment. From here, all I had to do was to  breath in, breath out, make a stance within myself and walk my commitment of daily writing. So yes, if it means that I won't get to entertain myself for a while to ensure that my commitment to myself is met then so be it because at the end of the day, I have to live with myself and personally, I prefer living by knowing that I've done everything possible to make a change within myself and this world and I mean, we have only one life to do so, so why not make the best (for all) out of it?

 

This is a simply example of how to transform destructive competition and comparison between oneself and another into a point of constructive application. When one compare oneself to another, all it means that another is standing as an example of what one perceives oneself as lacking and so, with a decision and practical application, one is able to utilize the example of another and walk the necessary steps to become the point one would previously saw oneself as lacking, inadequate and/or a failure and to accordingly, expand, empower and grow oneself into a being that is trustworthy through a practical and physical application.

 

 

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How little do we know about our Body - Day 223

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219 Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220 Depression - Self Interest or a Real Physical Condition? - Day 221 Stress and Anxiety - Self Creation or Elite's Mind Control? - Day 222

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Behaviour Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Behaviour Dimension:

* Shoulders downs

* Back carving in

* Head leans on the left hand

* Dragging the legs

* Rub my eyes

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to automate how I would Behave and how I would move myself as my human physical body, with no self awareness, when and as I've activated the 'I don't have Time' Character. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize how and why I've automated my Behaviour body movement when and as I access the 'I don't have time' Character and within that, How I would accept and allow myself to sabotage my physical body through accepting and allowing myself to position my body in postures that do not support the physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've taken for granted my physical body and completely sabotaged myself as the physical body through accepting and allowing myself to access a total mind possession, as the 'I don't have time character' wherein I would accept and allow my body to be positioned in postures that do not support the body in any way whatsoever.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see, realize and understand how in the moment of realizing that I will not get a task/work done wherein a moment before that, I've been stable within and as myself, I, in that moment, would change my body posture according to the Negative Experience that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself, in comparison to the Positive Experience that I've had within and as my mind and so, I my shoulders would go down and my back would crave in and I would lean my head on the left hand, in total desperation and self victimization that I've Perceived the Experience that I face to be. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to drag my legs when I'm walking while I'm in the 'I don't have time' character, so that within the way that I walk, I would be noticed by others, and they would either feel sorry for me, or offer to assist me and I have NOT seen how I would compromise and sabotage my human physical body for the sake of getting attention to validate the Character that I embodied within and as myself so that I could justify to myself why it's ok to 'Feel' what I feel, not seeing realizing and understanding the Design of the 'I don't have time' character that I've created within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realized that I deliberately rub my eyes when I'm possessed within the 'I don't have time' character that I've created within and as myself, to further justify for myself why it is ok to give up now and not push myself to finish the task/work that I've set forth to myself within the excuse that I'm apparently tired which manifest a physical consequences of dry eyes.

 

I commit myself to be aware and attentive to how I move and change my body behaviour in any given moment to assist and support myself in seeing what I've accepted and allowed within and as myself so that I could investigate the point for myself and accordingly walk the correction process, as myself.

 

I commit myself to - When and as I see myself going down the road of separation from and as my human physical body as I see that I'm changing the way that I move, speak, behave I then stop, Breathe, assessing within and as myself what's going on, what backchat, fear, reactions, imagination I've accepted and allowed within and as myself and accordingly, assist and support myself in bringing myself back here though physical self forgiveness and self corrective practical application.