The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to
   it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences
   would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self
   interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to it's utmost potential.

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create an idea within and as myself that within each and every breath I take, I must do something that is constructive from the perspective of having some work done, and within that idea, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when and as I use the time that I have for pleasure, entertainment and indulgent Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that who I am is not define by what I do but rather Who I am within what I do that is actual measurable in the outcome/result that is best for all and thus, through not accepting and allowing myself to realize that it is not what I do that defines me but rather who I am within what I do, I've accepted and allowed myself to project my own self judgement onto others within the belief that I will be judged for not being worthy if I won't invest in every second of the day, in doing a work and have it done.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged by others as unworthy when and as I'm taking a moment for myself because I've created an idea that worthiness is associated/defined/connected with what one do in every moment of every breath and unless one is working as much as possible, one isn't worthy. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my desire of being righteous within the point of doing a work and using the time effectively in having things done as a point of judgement of others who are not doing the same and so, through judging others regarding of how they use their time, I make myself feel more and righteous within and as myself and in that, always keep myself busy in having things done so that I could sustain my own worthiness in my own eye's view as well as the experience of righteousness in comparison to other people in my world and my environment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define TIME within what I do without seeing, realizing and understanding that I've Tied myself to TIME as I've lived the word TIME as 'TIE Me' wherein I have literally tied myself to the idea of time, enslaving myself by Time and being control by the living definition I have given to Time.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define 'utmost potential' within the context of having work done instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that having things done, doesn't define me as who I am as the utmost potential application if the work that is being done, is being done in separation within a starting point of Fear of judgement, fear of disappointing others and the desire of being defined as worthy by others. That implies that what ever I did, wasn't for and as Self, wasn't within breath by breath living application of actually seeing directly what needs to be done within and as the principle of that which is best for all and accordingly, walk as the utmost potential I can be as life that is physically here, breath by breath.

 

 

Self Commitments:

 

 

I commit myself to SLOW myself DOWN and within that, making sure that I'm Physically Here, walking, moving and directing myself, breath by breath. I see, realize and understand that Worthiness isn't defined by the 'More' that one does, but rather as Who one is within what one does wherein Worthiness is measurably proven by one's actions/application within one's consistency of walking breath by breath within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through letting go, removing and deleting my own self definitions that I've defined myself as, according to my own programming that I was busy programming myself throughout my life. Within that, to question every action I do, everything I like or dislike, everything that makes me feel worthy and unworthy and to truly discover who I am without all those definitions that I set forth for myself which I automatically live as according to and by.

 

I commit myself to instead of walking according to TIME as Tie-Me, to assist and support myself in walking Breath by Breath, Moment by Moment according to what is physically supporting me and others and within that, walk my day to day application with Ease, in seeing and realizing that the pressure I put on myself is a stumble stone for things to not be done as I waste 'time' in thinking instead of practical directive movement in every given moment. Thus Time: T-I-Me = the decision I make to move and direct myself in any given moment, within a clear best for all starting point, breath by breath by breath that is not dependent on Energy.

 

I commit myself to get HERE and find out Who I am as the Utmost potential I can be and become when stepping out of the mind and walking breath by breath within and as a principle of Oneness and Equality as that which is best for all. Within this, I commit myself to assist and support myself to get HERE through walking the layers of my mind from the inside out, in changing myself, my automated acceptance and allowances that I've lived as, as a programmed organic Robot and to transform myself to stand within clear starting point regarding what I accept and allow and what I wouldn't not within myself and my world as a whole.

 

Art Work – Andrew Gable

Memories - From the Smaller to the Greater - Day 34

Life Review - How I ruined my Life with a Memory

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto and contain an emotional charge within a past Memory and within that, have accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to the memory without my awareness of doing so which then thus I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be directed, control and enslaved to a past memory and I haven't allowed myself be the directive principle breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself and others in my world because I've reacted to a point in my immediate environment and instead of directing that which was required to be directed, I've access the memory from my past that was charged with Negative Energy and I acted from the other side of the polarity by doing the opposite from what I've done in the past within the belief that it's the correction however, I've failed to see that going from one side of the polarity to the other isn't a physical correction in fact but rather a self manipulation that is control by the Ego which saying to me - "you are doing the right thing, you don't need to correct yourself now".

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise a being in my direct environment as well as myself because a pattern that they have accepted as themselves played out reminded me a memory from my past where a similar pattern played out by another being which manifested anger and irritation within me and I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to  face my past and walking the correction of STOPing the back chat, anger and irritation and remain in breath and when it's done, assisting and supporting the other being with seeing their acceptance pattern so that they could face themselves and accordingly change.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences of holding onto a memory from my past that contained energetic charge wherein, not only I've sabotaged and compromised myself, I've compromised other being in my direct environment because I refused to see that if I'm not correcting and changing myself according to principles that are best for all, I'm not standing as a support for others beings in my world and then thus, prolonging the existential process for everyone else.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to give value to the small and minuet memories that I hold on to within the containment of Energetic charge which than, I live out the past memory design without being aware of it and within that, giving the permission to be enslaved and control by my mind instead of taking the responsibility to walk through each and every memory, from the small to the greater, correct myself and change.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Refuse to see that small and minuet memories accumulate to a daily application of walking the memory design with no awareness of self as self abdicated the responsibility to be the directive principle by giving the mind the permission to control, enslave and direct self.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see and realize that if I allow myself to walk the past memory design in my day to day application, I'm not giving me the permission to change as I've abdicated the responsibility to walk breath by breath as the directive principle and within that, haven't taken responsibility for the existence as a whole because unless I'm standing up within absolute self change and thus standing as an example and as a pillar of support for others, I'm useless in this world.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that to change ourselves, we have to change all the minute parts of ourselves because those tiny parts accumulate and become a fatal virus in our mind and as within, so without - I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the basic common sense - when we neglect the small parts of ourselves within the definition that they are insignificant we allow the fatal virus in the world system where we allowed an accumulation of many insignificant part that are not being sorted out and thus, manifested a world where the majority is not being considered as they defined as insignificant which created a fatal virus which called the human civilization.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between our mind and the world system wherein, exactly as we ignore the small parts of ourselves in separation of ourselves and thus have allowed ourselves to be controlled and enslaved to our mind, we, as small individual has not realized that the accumulation of the relationships between us all has manifested the greater - the current money system of abuse and suffering for the majority of this world and thus, to bring about a change in this world, we must take individual responsibility  and group together in equality and oneness to manifest a world that is best for all the individual parts equally.

(For more Context, please read - "The Chicken or the Egg?? Part One: DAY 30"

I commit myself to investigate ALL the parts of myself that has accumulate to various networks designs within me and to become the directive principle in breath by breath because I realize that when I allow parts of myself which I've separated myself from, I'm giving the permission for myself to be controlled and enslaved by patterns and memories which is Unacceptable.

I commit myself to become aware and attentive to the trigger points I'm automatically acting on during my days and investigate the entire time line till I'll be satisfied that I'm no longer enslaved and control to my past and I'm in fact the directive principle within each and every single breath.

I commit myself to sort out all the minute parts of myself because I realize that those minute parts accumulate to a fatal virus in my mind and I realize the for changing myself, I have to take into consideration all the parts of myself that I've separated myself from and bring it all here, equal and one and sort myself out part by part in breath by breath.

I commit myself to stand up and bring every single reaction that I have towards pattern that another accepted as themselves, back to myself because unless I sort myself out, I'm a useless support for others and thus, the change of this world will take longer because I haven't taken the responsibility to change myself first.

I commit myself to stand as an example of what does it takes to correct and change all the parts of myself that I've separated myself from through my writings.

I commit myself to bring all the parts of me together in alignment to and as that which is best for all.

I commit myself to educate and show to humanity that to change the world, all the minute parts must stand together  in equality and oneness.

I commit myself to stand and bring all the parts of me as individual human beings together within the alignment of what is best for all and together, we will take the first step of establishing a system that is best for all - Equal Money System - Equal Life System. 

Also read - Day 33: Peace of Mind – Mind in Pieces