The Value of Self-Interest - Day 444

There are these moments, infinitesimal moments, where one can really see one's participation in one's mind and clearly see one's manipulation towards oneself within the justifications and excuses one's tell to oneself. These moments are a potential for self to physically change and align oneself within the principle of Oneness and Equality, within the decision of 'Who I am' in this very moment. Yet, it is also these moments where falling to one's own self-manipulation, one's own Self-Interest decisions is very easy and to practically stand up within oneself and make the decision to physically change, is faced with great resistance.

 

Let me give you an example that I faced this morning -

I normally don't work with the horses on the farm though recently, I assisted the team when extra support was required. This week specifically, there is a short of people working with the horses and I offered to join them with the responsibilities. One of the responsibilities is to wake up in the morning and walk the horses to the neighbor's farm where they have enough grass to eat during the day while the grass in our farm is busy growing. For me, waking up in the morning to walk the horses is a story because in terms of my normal working hours - I go to bed very late at night and the horses walking time is very early in the morning.

 

When Sunette woke me up this morning to walk the horses, I had this cringe inside myself like: "oh no, I didn't sleep much, I want to sleep" but at the same time, I realized that I committed to this point and that I must wake up now. Sunette said that she will check up on me in 5 min and during this 5 min - I walked through the open door of my mind, bringing on all the justifications and excuses that I could find of why it is ok if I wouldn't walk the horses this morning and when she came back 5 min later, I told her that I'm not joining them this morning.

 

So, I went back to sleep BUT, I could clearly see what I was doing inside myself and physically, I didn't feel comfortable as I saw how I was manipulating myself and how the decision that I made to stay in bed is based on my own self interest. At this stage, I was still in bed, struggling with the decision. I then asked myself one simple question - "If the plans were different and I had to wake up for a meeting in town, would I still justify to myself that I hadn't slept enough? The answer was: "Obviously not - I would wake up for these purposes". Then, I asked myself another question: "Is the value that you give to walking the horses is less than the value you give to other plans you would have made?" and the answer was: "Yes". This is where I stood up from within myself and went out of bed as I realized that what I was accepting and allowing myself is purely unacceptable  and so, I join the team and walk the horse to the neighbor's farm.

 

I continued investigating the point within myself, the relationship between Self-Interest and Value and I've realized that in every moment, we assess the value of our decisions. Value of the decisions meaning - There is a difference between making a decision and applying the decision. Making the decision is done by oneself in one's mind while applying the decision is the physical application of what the decision entails where one is actually 'walk the talk' so to speak. Making a decision is the easy part but walking and applying the decision is a different story as one have to physically make the decision again and apply oneself in one's physical reality.

 

What was suddenly obvious is how we assess the value of our decision within the principle of: "What is it for me" and according to the value that we have defined the result to be, we would either act on our decision or change our mind.

So for instance with me - I didn't develop any particular relationship with the horses and thus, in my internal reality, walking the horses did not contain great value and so, in the moment of truth, when I had to remake the decision to wake up and walk them, it was very easy to fall inside myself because the value of the decision was not important to me based on my self-interest inner reality.

 

What I had to align within myself is thus the point of 'Group-Interest' within the principle of what is best for all from the perspective of - I committed myself to the horse team that I will be there in the morning as I've seen that I was able to support in terms of my schedule. The Value of me walking a horse is that it place less pressure for one member of the team where instead of the walking 2 horses, they will walk one horse and within the principle of Prevention is the best cure - it is much safer to be responsible for one horse instead of 2 horses because who knows what can happen during the walk and if one of the horses snap out and become crazy, it is very difficult to control the situation if you have 2 horses in your hands. Thus, if I were to sleep instead of walking the horses, I would place the group in a compromising position unnecessarily. In this, it is no longer: "What in it for me", it is "what is best for the group and for the horses".

 

Obviously, this experience in the morning shows that we have to reassess the value that we give to specific points in our reality and accordingly, move from one's self interest to the best for all interest. Yes, one may have a preferences but one's preferences cannot make the decisions for self, based on one's self-interest design as one must look at all that is here and assess the points in self-honesty within the principle of what is best for all. For example, my preference was to not wake up after 4 hours and walking the horses but what was best for all is for me to walk the horses, do what needs to be done and when I'm back, go back to sleep if physically, my body requires more rest.

For myself, moving through the resistances to wake up in the morning was a struggle, so long as I looked at the point from my own self-interest point of view - there, it was very easy to follow the mind and decide to stay in bed. It was only when I saw the window of opportunity to physically change my living application, when I saw what I was accepting and allowing within myself that the actual physical decision to get out of bed was effortless.

 

Another point to consider here - the fact that I was able to see the point this morning and make the decision to get out of bed, in no way means that I have walked through the point into an absolute change as a physical expression of myself. Lol - this was just the tip of the iceberg and it would take an accumulation of moments until my absolute living application would be according to the principle of what is best for all.

 

My Dog as my Comfort Zone - Day 251

 

 

This is a continuation to the Series -  'How to Cope with the Death of a Pet':

 

Today, I will be investigating one Dimension within my relationship with my dog, Yalda, due to a point opened up yesterday. But first, I will share the Time Line of Events so that one could follow the reason for the point that had opened up.

 

As I've shared, we experienced on the farm a wave of unexpected Death of Animals that had now extended to a Domino effect wherein Grootman, Fidelis's horse, Physically reacted to the Lose of Titan and become Extremely Sick with a Colic diseas, to the extent of us having to be with him 24/7 to monitor his health. It seems that he pass through the hard phase and he is now alright.

Yesterday, when I was spending a moment with Esteni and Robert, Maite came to see us and called us to run towards the stable to assist with Grootman. We had to keep him moving and in turns, we took him for a run. This event went on for an hour and that was an hour after Leila, Cerise, Gian and Fidelis were running with him.

 

At some stage, the horse Vet came and we were all there to support Grootman while receiving the treatment. We were all there for hours, waiting for him to stabilize with no results. There were moments when Grootman had to be sedated and injected with Pain Killers and we were sitting outside his stable, having conversations and you know - having "forced" to have communal evening with each other. If it wasn't for Grootman suffering in Pain and the circumstances of us gathering together, it could have been a pleasant and enjoyable night.

 

I've been on the farm for more than a year now and it was the first time I spend time with all the farm people together which made me wonder about why is it that only when consequences emerged, people come close to each other and stand as a support for each other. Why can't I just enjoy the company of others and arrange Communal Gathering in a spontaneous way, without having to have consequences that would place us together in the same time/space?

 

So today, I was looking at the point of my relationship with my Dog. What also supported me in opening up the points regarding the Relationship between Humans and Pets was the Dog's Life Review we recorded Yesterday.

 

What I have not realized within my Relationship with Yalda was the Mirroring System and what she was actually busy showing me which I wasn't willing to see, till today.

 

What was cool about having a dog is that the responsibility 'forces' me to get out of the house to allow the dog to pee and shit. What was also cool that almost everyone in my neighbourhood had a dog and accordingly, I met many new people Which I enjoyed as I got to know them.

I was always grateful for my dog for being the reason of meeting new people because without her, I wouldn't not approach new people and I would not dare to start conversations with strangers.  That is the point Yalda was showing me - that in essence, I didn't really had to have her around to be able to get to know new people, I could have simply do it, approach people, with no fear. But.. I didn't saw it.

 

Yalda was my comfort zone, the thing that I could either get close to the people that I wanted to get close to, or either go away from those that I didn't want to get involved with. And on a certain level, she could sense who I didn't like and who I liked and accordingly support me in giving me the door to choose how I want her to behave in every single moment.

 

I didn't feel alone with her - I could go to the beach when ever I wanted, without having to schedule it with anyone to come with, I could go at night and take a walk in the dark, I could do what ever I wanted, as long as she was with me. The moment we were apart, I felt uncomfortable, that something is missing and I did what ever I could to go back and be with her. It was to the extreme where if a friend didn't allow me to bring her with me, I didn't went to see them, they had to come visit me. And lol, after a while, I quit my job and found other jobs where she could come and join me.

 

Anyway - the point is that - Yalda, or Animlas, give us the 'excuse' to develop Relationships, open for us a door to start talking to people and get to know them. what I haven't realized was - that the point that held me from doing the same without her was Fear.

 

I'll go up to here for today and continue with Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective application tomorrow.

How to Deal with a Death of our Pets - Part 2 - Day 249

 

 

This series was started with the Death of Babitjie, a cat that I had created a relationship connection to, which I suggest reading through the blog I wrote yesterday for full context and understanding of this blog.

As I've opened up the point, I've seen multiple points to look at and investigate wherein the main/core point to be aware of is our Self Interest design within the Context of Pets in particular and Animals in general.

 

Unfortunately, we had another death on the farm - Titan, Gian's horse had to be put down immediately due to extensive cancer that suddenly emerged which caused with inability to drink and eat. There was also no treatment that could have cured him.

And yes, we had another death yesterday, this time it was a Duck but interestingly enough, I didn't give it much value. I didn't know about it but even if I knew, it wouldn't move me, I was to focused on the Death of Babitjie. which again, the questions I must ask myself are - why it is that I give value to a horse, a cat, a dog but nothing moves inside myself when a duck or a chicken dies? Why is it that nothing moves inside myself in every single moment of the day/night where lots of beings dies.

 

This has obviously to do with the extent of separation we have accepted and allowed within ourselves. This has to do with the extent of limitation we as human beings are consisting of and existing has. This has to do with our value systems that we have created, Morality, social norms. This has to do with are true Evil Nature of Self Interest.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attach Positive Value to specific beings and Neutral Value to other beings and accordingly, activate or deactivate specific emotions and feelings, not seeing, realizing and understanding that either Positive/Negative or Neutral is still based on Separation and in the lack of understanding within absolute self realization of Equality and Oneness as a living Principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to care for the Animals that I attach a positive Value to and disregard the animals that I attach a negative or Neutral value to and within that I forgive myself that I haven't thus far investigated the nature of the Value I assign to Animals or Humans in separation of me as I see, realize and understand that feeling ashamed or guilty about it won't make a difference, won't assist and support me to stabilize and equalize myself but it is rather a coping mechanism, as a reaction, to avoid the real problem, the core of the problem, to not face the problem and change my approach from a Mind separation to Physical living application.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that feeling sad over one being that had died in comparison to the millions beings that dies in every moment, implies separation which I've accepted and allowed and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the fact that I cannot feel anything for the beings that dies in every single moment, is how I would abdicate my responsibility as a human being with the means, sources and capability to actually stand up, investigate all points, investigate the outflows and consequences, investigate the starting point and the core of the problem, understand the problem in its totality and accordingly, make the decision to move, direct and walk myself into and as a solution that is best for all Lives, Equally.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what I accept and allow in my direct environment is what I would accept and allow in the world system as a whole. Here, I've just realized that I had accepted and allowed myself to not give a moment of consideration to the Duck that had died but was all possessed by a cat that died at the very same day. Which is the same in the world system, I would not accept and allow the harm of my family and closest friends and would be possessed if anything will happen to them and yet, children and adults are dying every single second from Starvation, Malnutrition, dehydration and diseases and I do nothing to Prevent and stop this from ever manifesting again.

 

I commit myself to get myself to a point of Equality and Oneness with and as everything that is here, from the smallest to the greatest as I see, realize and understand the irrationality in accepting and allowing Separation to exists within and as me and the consequences of such acceptance and allowance both in my direct environment and in this world as a whole.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that what exists within, exists without and in that, what we accept and allow in our direct environment, is what we will accept and allow in our external environment which then thus, perpetuate the extent of the Problem as why and how we would ignore the cruelty that exists within this world through deliberately attach a Neutral/Negative value to the Majority of this world that are in great suffering so that we won't have to take responsibility for them in making sure to create a foundation/platform of a world that is best for all equally, exactly as we attach a neutral/negative value to the 'irrelevant' beings as we have defined them as irrelevant within our own minds, in separation, such as the Duck example that I've shared above but it can also be the ants that we walk over, the bugs, the flies, etc.

 

 

 

 

 

Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Day 228

Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 1

Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 2

Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 3

 

Us human beings, Believe so Dearly that we are much more advance, Superior and intelligent than the Animal kingdom However, when listening to the Animal Life Reviews, one would NOT be able to deny and ignore the fact that it is quite to the contrary.

 

A horse is coming through the Portal for 2 hours interviews and shares insights about the Awareness, Consciousness and the Mind processes of the Animal Kingdom, within the context of How Animals had Evolved while Human Beings had Devolved in our relationship to Awareness, Consciousness and the mind.

But more specifically, the Horse focus on the Pregnancy and Birthing Processes of horses, from Conception till the moment of birth and their Level of Awareness in comparison to the level of Awareness of Humans in the utmost Specific Details that Science could never reached before.

The Pregnancy Process of the Horse, the Emerging of/as Life from the Physical is absolutely Fascinating Process that we, human being, should all learn and align ourselves with.

 

Unlike the Human beings, that are emerging as a mind into this world, the horses are emerging from/as/within the Physical. So from this perspective the horses are walking a Re-Birth Process of the Physical as the Physical while us Human Beings, incarnate as a Mind over and over again, in total separation from the Physical body and existence as a whole. Now, there is no doubt that us Humans are coming to this world with a mind that we utilize as a tool to create, later on, multiple personalities according to how we shape and design ourselves throughout time within the Environment, Culture, Religion and Family influences. While Horses for instance, are simply expressing themselves as who they are and do not create multiple personalities dependent on their environment, generational blood line and so forth.

 

Within this, a point to consider is our responsibility as Human Beings in bringing Life into this world which at the moment Life, is not something we are actually aware of as our awareness of Life as the Physical is very much limited as our awareness is mostly oriented to our Mind and not even to all the layers of our mind as for instance, all the points that we suppress within and as ourselves which play a role with unconscious decisions that we make in any given moment.

 

Now the Horse Female for example, would prepare her Body, before and during the pregnancy in making sure that her womb would be the Manifestation that would function as a chamber of Life meaning - the horse, that is standing as Equal to and One as their Physical structure, will assess and check the body structure alignments, in terms of the food, the organs, the cells, the chemical and the atoms that would function in the best supportive way to nurture the Life that is emerging from and within her Physical body. Not only that, the horse would also make sure that the external environment would function as a chamber of Life for the horse to birth into however, currently, within this world system of human's consequences, it is not possible for the horse in comparison to the equilibrium with how Nature was functioning before Earth was introduced with Human's consequences.

 

However, the Human beings, are in no way preparing the Chamber of Life for our children, internally and externally. Internally from the perspective that we are so far from standing in Equality and Oneness with every cell of our Human physical Body, we have no clue what would be the consequences of the food we eat and how it would affect the Child, we have no idea how the relationship between the Mind and the Body is created and what are the consequences of such separated relationships.

 

Also, the human being are in no way preparing the External Reality to be and become the Chamber of all LIFE on earth, as our world system is not a system that all children are being taken care for, considered and regarded. So, despite of us bringing children to a world of constant survival and fear, while wishing the best for our children, we would not do anything practical to manifest a world system that would be based on Principle of what would be best for all children of Earth.

 

For instance, when we introduced the Equal Money System, we have mostly faced resistance and friction from the majority of those that heard about it, which perpetuate the ignorance and separation that exists within and as our mind to the extent of which that even when a solution to create a chamber of Life and as Life on earth was introduced, people cannot hear and stand with because these people, have the money that would protect their children while the majority of the children of this world are in daily suffering and struggle.

 

So, there is much more to learn from the Animal Kingdom in how to prepare the body and Earth as the Chamber of Life instead of existing constantly within fear and Survival within the principle of the survival of the fittest as we currently, both Animal and humans existing as, due to Human's consequences.

 

I suggest to all Parents and Future Parents to listen to these interviews to get some perspective of what is possible and the Level of Awareness and Communication one could have with oneself and one's child as an Equal and One part of oneself, in Physical Equality and Oneness. 

 

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