The Fear of the Beggar Experience – Day 77

For context, please listen to: Live Review - The Money Experience

And read my blog: Give Life to Receive Life - Day 76

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use the beggars on the street as motivation to excel in my life so that I won't end up in their shoes. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to even consider standing up for a change in the current world system so that no one will EVER have to stand in the shoes of the beggars of the streets because I've accepted and allowed myself to program and design my very beingness in the nature of self interest as the desire for my own happiness regardless of the Lives of others.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be petrified that I will end up on the streets if something would go wrong and I wouldn't be able to support myself in this life, despite of the fact that it is extremely unlikely that I end up on the streets and thus, within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to step out of my self interest fears, to be able to see the physical horrific conditions that people are experiencing in this world, conditions that I wouldn't wish to anyone to experience and yet, I did nothing to assist and support them as I was too preoccupied in my own self interest survival.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exists within petrification of how my future is going to be in terms of my financial stability and security in this world because what I brought up to believe is that if you don't have money to support yourself, your life is worthless and you better die. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where the value of life is defined and determine by Money which in essence, if one look at the point, it does not even make sense that we keep allowing ourselves to keep defining Life as Money and thus, it is up to us to truly stand up for the future of all of us, and use what is here EQUALLY within and as the principle of give as you would like to receive.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that we have placed beggars as a motivation to excel in the world system to have our future secured instead of utilizing that motivation point to stand up for a world that is best for all to make sure that NO ONE will have to experience the life of a beggar unless they self honestly wants to.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to think that it's better for the beggars to die instead of facing their physical experience of suffering and pain and I haven't considered what I'm actually stating - if you don't have money, you better die and of course, within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the thought to be valid without actually doing something to support those who are less fortunate in this world through redefining the Value of LIFE to Life that is best for all, rather than how currently Life is defined as: Life=Money.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where beings are abusing the status of beggars to make profit/living despite of them having other means and way to literally support them and thus, making a bad name for those who are truly suffering and actually living on the street through the doubt that comes up when and as we see a beggar within the inner question - Is this person truly require assistance or he is faking?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question my back chat when I see a beggar on the street wherein, I will calculate how much money I can give to this person in a reference to the experience that I can have with that money. Within that, I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the money that I'm using for my own self interest experiences, can be shared with others to sustain their basic physical requirement to have a life that is worth while in this world.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason for why we are not sharing what we have so that all could have is because of the fear of not being able to have our self interest experience and we haven't expand and even looked at how we can make sure that ALL will have the utmost fulfilment experiences in this Life. And for that, I encourage you to investigate: Equal Money System/Entertainment.

I commit myself to show the irony of how we fear ending up in a very bad position in the world system and yet, do not do anything to change the current money system so that no one will ever exists in a position of suffering, pain and atrocity. Thus - show that you truly care and stand up for a life that is best for all because it's up to us to move/direct this world. Invest your time and investigate the Equal Money System.

I commit myself to show, reveal and expose our biggest fears of ending up in the worst position in this world system and how, we've done all that we could, to make sure that WE won't end up in those conditions and yet, we allowed the majority of this world to exists and experience this physical pain, hunger, horror. I commit myself to stand up for those who are unfortunate in this world system and implement a system that will take care of everyone EQUALLY so that all would have a worthy, dignified and fulfilling life.

I commit myself to assist and support myself with stopping the petrification experience with regards to my future within writing and self forgiveness application. Within that, I commit myself to place all the points for myself, all the possibilities and the outcomes that may come so that I could make sure that I stand no matter what, in absolute stability and trust.

I commit myself to show that self interest motivation based on fear of one's survival should and must be addressed and transform to a motivation to stand for and establish a world that is best for ALL.

I commit myself to show that a life of a beggar is equal to and one as a life of the elite in this world; is equal to and one as any animal and plant in this world; and thus, Life as the interdependent relationships, should and must be supported Equally.

I commit myself to show that our self interest desires for experiences is that which blind us from seeing what is really going on in this world and if we allow us to expand our self interest desire to a interest that include and involved everyone equally - all could have a fulfilling life, full with experience, so long as the experiences do not harm or abuse anyone else.

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Art by Joe Kou

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to become possessed with the thought/experience of not having enough time during my days and within that, felt sorry for myself and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to miss a breath, to miss myself as the breath by breath living application within the realization that spending time on the thoughts : "I don't have time" will not assist me with having more time but vice versa - keep me occupied in my mind in absolute self destruction unless I make the decision to STOP in absolute commitment. 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to direct and move myself in self interest and thus, when the moment comes and I have more responsibility to walk with, I become possessed with the experience of feeling sorry for myself instead of simply walking the decision to move and direct myself breath by breath by breath according to that which is best for all without giving my mind the permission to influence and essentially control me in an energetic experience that manifest pain and nausea within my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the energetic possession that I've become to abuse, compromise and sabotage my human physical body through pain and discomfort because I haven't walked the absolute decision to live breath by breath without the giving my power away to my mind and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider that the allowance of energetic possession will manifest consequences to my human physical body and within that, I forgive myself that I have not respected myself as my human physical body to walk breath by breath and immediately direct everything that I face with absolute movement of myself as Who I am and to stop once and for all the energetic participation, stop the enslavement of my mind, stop creating consequences and simply STAND in absolute commitment to myself, to Life, to ALL. 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk the decision of breath by breath living application and thus, allowed myself to participate with thoughts that accumulated energy enough to manifest consequences of pain and discomfort and thus, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to walk in absolute presence  and awareness to assist and support myself and my human physical body within Stopping all energy participation and simply walk breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to experience stress even though I've already realized that stress can only emerge when I'm not breathing effectively and thus, what I'm seeing within it is that I've not completely and absolutely gave myself the permission to change and become the directive principle within a breath by breath application and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not realize that defining the process of stopping the energy participation is indication of deception because if I would to make the decision to stop, I would stop and it wouldn’t be a process of stopping but would be immediate correction because the only process that is valid is the breath by breath stopping my abusive life as the mind, stopping pattern by pattern as this is the only point where I am present, aware, Here.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only process that is valid is a process of stopping patterns, breath by breath and if I require a process to stop a pattern, it indicate that I've not absolutely took the responsibility to become the directive principle because absolute decision means ABSOLUTE responsibility, absolute directiveness, absolute hereness. 

Art by Damian Ledesma

I commit myself to stop the thoughts: "I don't have time" because that is a waste of time lol. Rather, bring myself back here, walk breath by breath.

I commit myself to stop the experience of self pity because I realize that self pity can only exists within the starting point of self interest and becoming possessed with feeling sorry for myself for not having enough time, won't assist me with having the work done and I rather commit myself to walk breath by breath, with patient, comfortability and in ease.

I commit myself to consider and respect me as my human physical body and to stop creating unnecessary consequences as pain and discomfort through the allowance of energetic possession. 

I commit myself to stop the energy participation and become the directive principle as I move myself and let it go absolutely  and use my body as a cross reference for my application.

I commit myself to stop the manifestation of stress and the accumulation of thoughts in the nature of stress because I realize that stress can only exists if I allow myself to follow my mind, as thoughts instead of walking breath by breath.

I commit myself to stop pattern by pattern in breath by breath and once I've seen a pattern that I've allowed myself to participate with, to immediately apply self forgiveness and walk the corrective action of stopping absolutely.