I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
Ignore the thoughts that are running in my mind towards another human being and
allowing it to go rampant in my mind instead of taking a moment and investigate
what is the nature of the thought, What is it that I’m showing to myself when
turning the point back to myself, what Am I missing while accepting thoughts
towards another human being in my mind?
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed the nature competitive
personality that I have become because when I was looking and observing the
world, I’ve seen that everyone are competing with other human being and thus, I’ve
accepted that as a social norm, imprinted that into me and lived out the competitive
personality within my mind as well as in my actions.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
confuse standing up for myself with standing up as what is best for all wherein
– when and as I’m standing up for myself, I access competition
personality design where I’ll do my best to win a secret competition that I’ve
created in my life due to jealousy that I’m experiencing towards that being;
while standing up for what is best for all means – to not accept and allow any
shit that is coming from me as well as other people and rather walk in every
moment as within directive principle of what is best for all life in fact.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
sabotage my relationship with females throughout my life as I’m taking a step back
from them due to accepted and allowed jealousy towards them and instead of
sorting out myself and aligning myself, I’ve taken the quick
fix “solution” as disappearing from their lives. And within that, I forgive
myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to always create myself as
righteous in my mind, justifying why I was right and they were wrong in
addition to why the reason I disappeared from their lives was valid. What I’ve
missed within it all is the opportunity to face myself, to face that which they
were showing me, face the secret jealousy and competition and physically change
myself to a respectful and humble human being.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to –
exists in this world as a competitive human being that always seek for one’s
own self interest.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to connect the nasty thoughts that I have towards another human being with
Jealousy and competition.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see the relationship between competition, spitefulness and jealousy.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see that Fear of lose and fear of Failure are the origin/source/core of
competition, jealousy and spitefulness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
learn from those who came before me through an example, how to design and
program myself within a competitive personality
design because I believe they know better than me, despite the fact that if
they would have known better, this world wouldn’t have become a world of
horror, abuse and suffering for the majority of this world.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
want/need/desire bad things to manifest for other human beings so that I could
feel better with myself and my life, without realizing the consequences of my
creation, without realizing that I’m sabotaging not only them but me as well,
without realizing that I’m responsible for this world to manifest as an evil
and abusive place because I allow those type of thoughts to occur in my mind
and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to occupy my
mind with secret back chat about other human beings to make myself feel
superior, worthy and more than and I haven’t taken the responsibility to
realize that which I allow myself to participate with and the consequences
thereof – What I allow to exists within me, I allow to exists within this world
and thus, I’m responsible for how and what this world has become as the equal acceptance
of human beings that walk and direct themselves and this world according to a
principle of “the strangers will win”.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed competition
between human beings in this world because I learnt through history that only
the strongest survive and if I want to survive in this world, I have to compete
for my status/spot with everything that I’ve got, regardless the effect that it
has on other human lives and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT
accepted and allowed myself to connect and see the relationship between
competition and fear of lose and through accepting competition, I’ve suppressed
and deny myself the gift of facing my fears to be able to change myself and
therefor my world to a world that is best for all, in all ways possible.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to
see the polarity
design in competition of losing and winning and thus, I’ve not accepted and
allow myself to consider the losing side that exists in this world as those who
were born to die so that only a select few could win and through me denying and
blinding myself to see that which is HERE, I’m part of the winning side that
disregard those who are unfortunate in this world.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to realize that we require a new education system so that we can stop for once
and for all walking the sin of our fathers and support the next generation to
be and become beings that are in fact applying and living the principle of
oneness and equality.
I forgive myself that I’ve Not accepted and allowed myself
to see the consequences of the current education system within the world system
as a whole and within the family system as a part of the whole and thus, I’ve
blindly walked according to those who came before me, never questioning reality
and in that I’ve proved that I am a walking organic brainwashed robot that has
no free will because if I had free will/choice, I would have utilize my will to
make something substantial in this world and push myself to change myself as
well as this world to never again create and manifest a world that is based on
fears, survival, abuse and suffering.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
take the competition nature of human being for granted without question the
starting point of such creation as well as not considering a world that is best
for all because if I have, I would assist and support myself to stop and change
me as equal to and one with this world.
I commit myself to stop the existence of me as a competitive
ego personality design and change myself according to principles of do onto
another that which you’d like to be done onto you.
I commit myself to work and establish a constructive
educational system for the children to come where they will learn, apply and
walk from the get go the principles of Oneness and Equality.
I commit myself to – When and as I see myself accessing
competition with people in my world, to stop, breathe and investigate the
core/source/origin point of what I’m actually dealing with.
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