Desteni is a cult - Day 61

You have been trained in a school of thought – that school of thought is claiming that anything that is against it is apparently a cult. We’re not a cult or the occult, we are purely human beings that is no longer controlled through mind control or through money control, I mean mind control and money control is the same thing. If you are ready to consider that war must be ended, weapons must be stopped and humans must be free from their fears so they don’t have to kill each other to be free, then join us at Desteni, we are here for you as well, whether you are with us or not because what we’re proposing includes you in a way that will give you true freedom and that will protect your family and your future. I’m quite sure somewhere inside you there must be some little bit of common sense and you’ll be able to hear some of what I am saying. I understand the fear is immense but one is completely overrun by it, therefore you’ll attack ’cause that is apparently the best defence. But that only means that there is a fence, there shouldn’t be a fence between neighbours, between those that love each other. There should have been sharing but it doesn’t exist. Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define and judge Detseni and the Desteni's members as cult because according to my eye's view everyone who question my right to have my own opinions must be a member of vicious cult that wants to take over the world however, what I have missed within it was my responsibility to truly investigate the Desteni Message, to cross reference my opinions and to see if there is any physical fact that can validate my opinion.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate what a CULT really is and what are the symbolism of a cult according to the System's definition of a Cult because if I would - I would see that religion, culture, family, new age movements hold the very same symbolism of how society attached to a cult.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to stand against those who have dedicated their LIFE to bring about a change in this world that is best for all (which also includes me) and I haven't realized that the point that I'm standing for is my right to abuse as I'm part of this world that is based on the allowance to abuse because even though we are aware to the physical fact that the majority of this world are born to die from starvation, malnutrition, dehydration and diseases we do not do anything about it and in that accepting the continuation of their slow and painful death and within that, I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between me as an abuser, the world system as the foundation that allow abuse abuse and the consequences of my acceptance and allowances when and as I stand against the principle of what is best for all as equal to and one as what is Desteni is standing for.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to defend my right to abuse because being an abuser is what I always known myself to be, as my accepted and allowed CULTural brainwashing that I've made as my own without questioning the starting point of my CULTture, investigate the Principle that my CULTure is standing for because if I would have question and investigate, I would come to the conclusion that I am in fact an abuser of LIFE through my acceptance and allowance of walking according to the principle of what is best for me in total separation from existence as a whole and accordingly, I would take my responsibility as a human being in this world, to make what ever is required and necessary steps to establish a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize, see and understand how I prisoned myself within my own cult as my mind in a direct reflection to how I speak to myself about myself and others as well as how I justify my beliefs/opinions/ideas and try to destroy anyone who do not stand as equal to my opinions and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my self cult as my religion of self is the building block that created and manifested this world in its correct state of spite and abuse the majority of this world in separation of ourselves.

The Religion of Self Cult has been the most devastating of All religions throughout history and is built on the foundations of self interest as the social order of Consumerism, Profit and Capitalism."

‎"The pursuit of Happiness as one of the foundation teachings of the Religion of Self have placed billions into poverty and created a social system of Fake love and individual Glory. The Gore of this can be seen in how animals are driven to extinction and forests decimated just so that self may have the belief of happiness. How can any one put faith in such a religion that have splintered into the millions of Self religions that exist as the Elite with money in this world? There is no real feeling in this religions. Just self interest in the drive to profit and wealth. Investigate equal money system to save you from your delusions." - Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my fears that manifested the experience of hate towards a group of people has caused me to react in spitefulness and viciousness towards them and I haven't seen that the people that I'm actually spiteful and disregard are the majority of this world that are in constant day to day battle to survive and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my FEAR to change is the building block of War, Friction, Terrorism, Abuse and separation in this world because I would rather manifest Hate towards that which threaten my right to abuse other than taking responsibility for myself and my world and practically assist and support myself to walk the practical application of Love your neighbour as yourself and give that which you'd like to receive.

It is self-evident that instilling fear and hatred based on spitefulness, ignorance or mere jealousy is the very trait that is responsible for WAR, TERROR and SEPARATION in this world. Bella Bargilly

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to defend my free choice to abuse and my right to freely express my hatred speech and within that, I forgive myself that I've become SOOOO blind to the fact that I have NO free choice as I've gave a full permission for my mind to dictate, control and enslave me according to my CULTural brainwashing that is based on self interest and the right to abuse.

I commit myself to show and expose those who defend their right to ABUSE by making statements and remarks against Desteni and the Desteni's members as I see, realize and understand that when and as I'm standing in the way of those who are busy changing themselves and the world, I'm allowing the continuation of abuse to occur in this world and am thus, an abuser of LIFE.

Here is an example of EX Desteni hater who have taken the responsibility to let go of his Ego, fears and attempt to defend his right to abuse and practically changed his way and become an example that a change is possible.

http://marleypeterbenjamindawkins.blogspot.com/2012/04/delusional-desteni-hater.html

I commit myself to show and expose how the mind has become the dictator of one's LIFE to the extent of which one do not see how CULTure within its current manifestation is the foundation of the abuse in this world through a process of extensive brainwashing of generations after generations and within that, I commit myself to show, reveal and expose the true nature of religion, families, CULTures, and New age movements as the real and true abusers of it all and how in fact, those above are acting and participating within the structure of a CULT that is against all LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show in common sense how and why one is standing against Desteni, the Equal Life Foundation and the Equal Money system and within doing so, I will prove that the only thing they are standing against is their right to ABUSE, diminish and destroy LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show that those who claim that Desteni is a cult are the cause of WAR, CRRIME and TERORISM in this world.

I commit myself to show and expose how the world system defend those who stand against Desteni by allowing their abusive expression to spread around the internet with no LAWS to stop bullies within the so called free speech while they ban and close the Desteni channels without giving any explanation or a reason for the ban.

For context - read this blog - http://andrearossouw.wordpress.com/2012/04/03/internet-victimization-and-rick-ross/

Watch my Anti Hate Vlogs -

http://www.youtube.com/user/mayaantihate/videos

The Secret War between Women - Cat fights - Part 5 - Day 57

This is a continuation to:

The Secret War between Women - Overview - Day 52

The Secret war between Women - the Childhood years - Part 1 - Day 53

The Secret War between Women starts at home - Part 2 - Day 54

The Secret War between Women - Mother Daughter relationship - Part 3 - Day 55

The Secret War between Women - Daughter in War with Authority - Part 4 - Day 56

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that the War between Women in the nature of Jealousy can only exists when one defined oneself according to Energy that can be measured wherein the velocity of jealousy will be determined by the degree that one defined oneself as energy - if one defined oneself as unworthy/inadequacy the velocity of Jealousy towards other women will be sever and when one define oneself as worthy/adequacy the velocity of the Jealousy towards other will be mild.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that Jealousy can only exists within an energy experience according to how one defined oneself as Energy - either as worthy or unworthy will be the determination of the velocity level of Jealousy.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see, realize and understand that Jealousy manifests when one defined oneself according to an experience of oneself as a personality  and when one perceive one's personality/experience to be threaten by another women, Jealousy is activated as a protection mechanism to protect one's from losing one's experience that one as defined oneself as.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how jealousy is motivated by self hate wherein, the energy velocity that one will face within oneself and one's world will be determined by the velocity of one's self hate that one is experiencing within oneself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the extent to which jealousy exists in one's inner experience of oneself is determine according to how much energy as backchat one has accumulate throughout one's life wherein, when one defined oneself as worthy, the jealousy will be in the nature of validating one as superior/ more than the other woman and when one defined oneself as unworthy, the jealousy will be in the nature of spitefulness towards the other woman.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that Women friendship relationships are based according to a pre-program experience that one desire to have and in essence, one will use another women as an Energy host as the carrier of the experience that one is seeking/pursuing in separation of self and will thus, create and manifest a co-defendant energy relationship to feed oneself constantly and continuously with Energy within the friendship relationship.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that when one feels threaten that the energy that one feeds from, from the other woman will be diminished either through when the other woman moves to another source of energy feed or either when the other woman is using more energy from another energy source and thus the equilibrium of the energy co-dependent feed  is at risk, one will access Jealousy in the nature of spitefulness within the desire to diminish and get back at other woman because she has upset the equilibrium of the co-dependent energy feeds cycles.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that when the co-dependent women friends relationship energy feed is damaged when the attention that one of the parties towards the other party drops for example if one of the parties moves away and create a new relationship either with a female friend of a male, one will experience the energy feed to be threatened due to lack of attention that one required for one's energy fix and one will thus then, compound resentment and jealousy towards the other woman's new relationship creation internally as well as externally.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize the competition for energy experience that one desire for as a pre-program design wherein one's self interest will kicks in no matter who is on the way and thus, for example, when 2 women are fighting for the attention (energy experience) from a man, they would become nasty and evil within their secret mind towards the other woman in the attempt to validate and justify why they deserve to get the energy experience and not the other; and in some cases, the internal conversation will externalized to a physical action - cat fight.

I commit myself to supporting myself with investigating all the dimensions of how, when, where and why I've lived out the design of the desire for energy experience that I've participated throughout my life and within that, missed the actual LIVING expression of myself and thus, I commit myself to stop all desires for energy experiences  and accordingly walk the practical correction breath by breath, letting go self interest energetic desires and become Life that is best for all in fact.

I commit myself to show why and how the jealousy component manifests as outflow when one do not receive the pre-programed design as desire for energy, which is imprinted  in the first 7 years of one's life and than lived out as one's experience of oneself and therefor, when one feels that the energy experience is threaten, one will activate and access jealousy towards those that are threatening one's experience according to one's perception of one's reality.

I commit myself to show that Jealousy can only exists when and as one defined oneself according to energy experience and the velocity of Jealousy can be measured according to the accumulation of backchat that one as allowed oneself to participate with throughout one's life.

I commit to show that energy manifests when the pre-program desire for an energy experience doesn't meet with the physical reality and thus, I commit myself to stop the vampire desire for energy experience feed from within me and share in details how I've assisted and support myself and thus, stand as an example for others.

I commit myself to establish interdependent relationships in my life that are NOT based on dependent energy feed from one another and I commit myself to show how we've thus far, created and manifested co-dependent relationships to feed off each other's energy within the belief that who we are is Energy and without energy, we cease to exists.

I commit myself to stop Self Hate to the extent of which I required to Win in the secret competition with  everything and everyone for a momentary energetic reward experience to balance my energy levels that I've defined myself as.

Love others, Hate yourself - Day 51

This blog is an outflow of an interview that I've heard today which I strongly recommend you to hear if you haven't already - Reptilians - Why Love is so Addictive - Part 47

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire and yarn for a relationship and I haven't realized that the desire is based on Energy that I can cross reference for myself through looking in self honesty at the type of thoughts, back chat and internal conversation within a total obsession and possession in my conscious mind and within that, I forgive myself that I've misinterpreted the energy as desire, love and sex and externalized it in separation of myself within the yarning of being with another being in a relationship/agreement.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I'm barely able to manage myself within the relationship that I have with myself as I'm bouncing from Hereness to absolute mind control in a split of a second which than raise the question - How can I mange a relationship with another if I'm not able to sustain a supportive relationship with myself? I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give myself up for an energetic experience of LOVE and SEX and I haven't stop for a moment, to establish an effective agreement with myself, to sort myself out and align myself back to myself before I even consider taking the next step of walking an agreement with another human being. I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to yarn for agreement/relationship and sex because it is much more easier to live within energetic experience and focus on anything else but myself and thus, use the relationship/agreement as a mean to avoid myself and remain enslaved and control to consciousness as ENERGY.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to introspect and investigate why LOVE is so addictive and why we have been spending most of our time in our mind, desiring for LOVE and SEX and within that, have failed to see that it is a deliberate design that we have placed in order to preoccupied ourselves inside our mind, to not have to consider the living expression of the word LOVE that is best for all from the perspective that each and everyone of us will exists in a world where we are taken care of because we are HERE, in this ONE physical reality and there of, having the right for a dignified LIFE.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the addictive consequences of the LOVE experience of ENERGY wherein I'm being obsessed within not only during the days but also during the nights while dreaming which reveal and show the control that energy as consciousness have on me and the extent of separation because I've NOT stood up within myself and absolutely became the directive principle during the days as well as nights.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the very thoughts, back chat, internal conversation that I have towards others in my world in the nature of spitefulness, jealousy, comparison, competition and judgement are existing in each and every single human being and thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to raise the question whether I would like to be with someone who allows backchat, internal conversation without being willing to sort oneself out if I haven't taken the responsibility to do the same. And I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration that when I'm engaging an agreement/relationship with a being, this being will have nasty, spiteful, judgemental, evil thoughts about me and other beings in this world which I will miss due to the external presentation that we have all are walking and denying it through the yarning experience of LOVE however, if we would equalize our internal nature of ourselves with the

external presentation of ourselves we will most likely will be defined as crazy - which is exactly what and who we are as long as we accept and allow the evil nature that is within to exists as ourselves. And thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that assistance and support within an agreement is to support each other to see that which we have become as the evil nature that we are and transform ourselves within and as the principle of equality and oneness wherein, how relationship currently lived as is within the assistance and support of each other to remain evil as the direct reflection of our thoughts, back chat and internal conversation that we believe to be valid because no one can hear or see it, without no consideration nor awareness of the consequences of such allowance wherein this world, and how it manifested is a direct reflection of the inside or ourselves - evil world that is based on inner desires of self interests where the majority is being disregarded and abuse for the abundance of the few.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to daydream about my prospective partner and the LOVE experience that I will hold and I haven't considered or even imagine the type of thoughts, backchat, internal conversation that my prospective partner is having as the real nature of who one is because if I had to consider that point, I will have to consider my own mess in my mind and thus, would must have taken the responsibility to investigate, introspect and change myself. And I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to focus on my own backchat, internal conversation and thoughts to be able to delete the patterns that it reveals and thus, went into the safe place of the LOVE experience as energy, in my mind, disregarding the fact that I won't even want to be with me with all the spiteful, judgemental, nasty thoughts towards another human being in this world and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how beautifully the design of LOVE was manifested to blind us from what is really going on inside ourselves and in this world so that we will not even SEE that which exists within us, within our partner and within all humans in this world and thus, won't address this problem and come with solution to assist and support ourselves to change our nature according to principle of equality and oneness so that our internal nature and our external presentation will be Equal and One as that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see the examples that are playing out in the world of those who are in a relationships that started out with a huge feeling of LOVE and ended of with a huge emotion of HATE and have thus, refused to consider an agreement that is not based on energy of LOVE nor HATE but rather, based on practicality of walking in this ONE life and do what ever it takes to either making sure that the children to come will have a dignified and worthwhile future or either assist and support each other within our breath to breath process of stopping preprogramed patterns and prepare the way before us for an effective upbringing of our children within the starting point of giving them a future that is free from brainwashed of pattern that we've carried from those who have raised us and giving them a proper education that focus on a life skills to be able to become an effective human being in this world, who will continue the way after us, to establish a world that is best for all lives!

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the example of relationships in the world are an absolute demonstration of the Energy polarity of LOVE and HATE wherein, Love turn into Hate in a split of a second and the Good and Positive LOVE energy turned into a Bad and Negative Hate Energy which than raise the question - Is LOVE real if it doesn't remain for eternity? Is love real if it is not a constant breath by breath application? If love is real when it turns into hate? Is Love real if it's not equally distributed to everyone? Is love real if we abuse ourselves and each other?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between self hate and the desire for relationship wherein, we believe and perceive that we can feel complete and stop the self hate if we find someone who can accept us just the way we are and I have failed to see that in essence the desire for relationship that we seek after is essentially a relationship with ourselves and we have failed to realize that we do not require anyone or anything to feel complete within ourselves; all we have to do is embrace ourselves and be self honest enough to walk through pattern by pattern, and align ourselves back to ourselves within equality and oneness principle and only than, we can have an interdependent agreement with another human being that will stand the test of time.

I commit myself to show and reveal how we have misinterpreted the Energy of Love and Sex and externalized it in separation from ourselves within the desire and yarning for the energetic experience of LOVE within a relationship.

I commit myself to mange myself as the mind into alignment of and as the physical and transform the dependent energy relationship that I've created with the mind to and as an agreement that will pass the test of time as I walk myself out of the mind and into the physical, breath by breath through a process of stopping pattern by pattern

I commit myself to show how LOVE as energetic self egocentric experience is Addictive as equal to and one as Drugs and the similarity between Drug abuse and Love abuse and Why we require developing rehab programs to assist and support humanity with letting go of the energetic experience of LOVE and instead walk the living expression of LOVE within the principle of Love Thy Neighbour as Thy Love Thyself.

I commit myself to stand as the directive principle during the days and nights and to direct myself effectively breath by breath also in my dreams because the dreams are a direct reflection of that which I allow and give permission to in my sub and unconscious mind and thus, I utilize the dream as a gift to see myself where I normally don't.

I commit myself to show and reveal to the world the evil nature that we have become within our mind as the reflection within as the thought, back chat, inner conversation about other people in our mind as well as without as the reflection of the world that we have equally created through our acceptance and allow whether we see it directly or not and I commit myself to present a solution for the mind gossiping pattern through standing as an example within my writing of Self Forgiveness and walking the physical correction.

I commit myself to show how crazy we really are and how it is in fact all in reverse wherein we define those who speak without filtering their thoughts as crazy while all along, the only thing the differ between normal and crazy people is filtering mechanism that 'Normal' people has developed to be accepted in society despite of their mind revealing the evilness that is within as judgement, spiteful, comparison, jealousy and nastiness thoughts towards others.

 

I commit myself to show and explain in detail how self destructive and abusive daydreaming and wishful thinking about the 'one' is, to be able to sustain the experience of LOVE and the consequences thereof.

I commit myself to educate and apply myself to stand as a pillar of supportive education for those who will come after me so that we can end the cycle of robotic zombified beings that exists within and as ONE point of self interest and instead, assist and support the next generation to become effective human beings with a proper LIFE skills so that they can lead the future of tomorrow within the principle of that which is best for all. 

Art by  Malin Olofsson

Friendship Relationship - Day 29

Art by Andrew Gable

System definition - (dictionary.com)

1.a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2.a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony.
3.a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?
4.a member of the same nation, party, etc.

Friendship with the current system is defined by two or more beings that share the same self interest beliefs, mannerism, opinions and so on. The support structure is to remain enslaved to one's self interest and is in no way a support for oneself and each other to face one's accepted and allowed personality and practically change.

My allocation point with relation to the word Friend is ‘Free-End’ which will be debunked through the Self Forgiveness statements.

So what is Friendship within the principle of Oneness and Equality?
2 or more beings that assist and support each other within one's process of stepping out of one's mind as well as walking one and equal with everyone and everything.

Self Forgiveness -

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself from a childhood experience of friendship to define friendship as a suffocated relationship between human being where my beingness is being suppressed and shivered into separated parts of myself and where my freedom doesn't play a part.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that I define 'My freedom' according to a self interest starting point where I'm only taking myself into consideration and my own fulfilment of my desires and not even considering everything and everyone in existence and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be preoccupied with my own search of a perceived freedom instead of walking towards a solution that is be best for all lives which than, we can all physically live the living expression of the word freedom where we freed ourselves from our own limitation of the mind and establish a world that is physically best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define myself within friendship as a being with no self freedom, due to childhood experience within friendship relationship and thus, instead of sorting out myself and getting to know Who I am with no attachment to Whom I am with and allow myself to establish a supportive friendship relationships, I've hold onto the memory experienced and developed a protection mechanism so that I won't experience the same suffocated experience that I've experienced within a childhood friendship and instead, went after friendship relationship where I'm the dominant and the controller one so that no one could ever again take my freedom away or went after friendship relationships that are not based on intimacy so that I could get out of the relationship with ease whenever I wanted to and also, when I found myself in intimate friendship relationship, I've done my best to get out of the relationship without even being aware of my doing.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to when I found myself in intimate friendship relationship to sabotage the relationship until it eventually ended and I forgive myself that I haven't taken a moment to see my responsibility within it and investigate the pattern that played out because I preoccupied myself in my mind, justifying and making excuses of why it was about the other being and why I had to act/behave as I did as self righteous and thus, denying from myself the opportunity to correct my living application that is based on fear and transform/change myself to a living physical human being that is Actually LIVING in the physical reality instead of being occupied in my mind 24/7.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear friendships when I'm not the dominant and the controller part in it because than, I would place myself in a vulnerable position according to my experience with a close friendship relationship in my childhood and within that, I forgive myself that what I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see is my attempt to correct my friendship childhood experience from the other side of the polarity instead of aligning myself and establish relationships from the starting point of walking equal and one with myself and the being I'm in a friendship relationship with.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see my participation as well as my allowance within the friendship relationship connection that I've had in my childhood years and instead of taking responsibility for not directing myself effectively back than within my acceptance diminishment and submission, I've blamed and felt hatred towards the being that I was in friendship relationship with in my childhood years.

Art by Andrew Gable

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the hatred towards the being that I were in friendship relationship in my childhood years is in fact towards myself for how I've accepted and allowed myself to be abused by another human being and within that - abusing myself and I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the emotions/feelings towards another human being are emotions/feelings that I experience towards myself however only project it towards another as well as realizing that there is a point that I've separated myself from and haven't taken the responsibility to sort myself out and align myself to myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to blame others for not seeing that I'm sabotaging and abusing myself within my friendship relationship in my childhood years from the starting point of expecting them to save me from the relationship and within that I've accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on others to fix my own problems instead of seeing and realizing that I must stand up and correct my living application and no one can do it for me we all as I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to expect others to save me from that friendship relationship without allowing myself to share and open the point with them and thus, suppressing and hiding the truth from them because within me I knew that what ever advise they will share with me, I will have to be the one who stand up and correct myself and I didn't want to do so and have decided to take the suppressing approach and find alternative and manipulative solutions of how to end the friendship without me having to stand up and face myself within standing up.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to relive the childhood friendship relationship through other friendship connections that I have had throughout my life but I've failed to see that I'm approaching friendship relationship from the starting point of fear and thus, bouncing between one side of the polarity to the other instead of stopping for a moment to reassess who I am within friendship relationships as well as investigate what and how I've accepted and allowed myself to become within friendship relationship connection and accordingly correct and change myself within the principle of what is best for all as the living application of - do onto another that which you'd like to be done onto you.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be vulnerable and intimate within friendship relationships because it would than mean that I'm placing myself in a position where I can be manipulated and controlled through the information that I'm sharing and yet, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that vulnerability and intimacy cannot be used to manipulate and control unless I allow it as well as I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to give myself the chance to walk equal and one with another human being based on a childhood friendship memory experience and within that, haven't allowed myself to assist and support myself through establishing a supportive relationship with another while walking with another human being in a close and intimate friendship relationship while unconditionally enjoy myself and the other being.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to freak out when and as there was a being that wanted to have a close and intimate friendship relationship with me because I didn't want to take the responsibility that comes with the establishment of such friendship relationship because I've defined that responsibility from the starting point of burden according to the memory experience of my childhood friendship relationship and thus, have misinterpreted responsibility with the suffocation experience which consumed me and haven't allowed myself to walk a physical correction through the establishment of equal and one walking with another human being within a friendship relationship connection .

I forgive myself that I've attached/defined/connected/associated burden with self responsibility because I've defined myself according to What I do and Whom I am with without realizing that none of that is Who I Am as a living expression . I realize that self responsibility is a practical living expression where I allow myself to express who I am within and according to principle that are best for all lives and thus, when and as I see myself accessing the experience of burden, I stop, I breathe and I bring myself back to my physical human body because I realize that within the experience of burden, I've missed a breath and fell into the design of defining myself according to what I do and whom I am with and thus, I go back to allocate my starting point and directing myself through self forgiveness and practical living correction.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as unworthy and thus, when opportunity to establish a supportive friendship relationship with another human being came up, I backed out because I couldn't equalize myself with the being and always saw myself as less than which created a friction within me when the being tried to develop a close relationship with me and I interpreted that relationship creation as a fake relationship creation as if the being is trying to do me a favour by being in a friendship relationship with me because I couldn't even conceive that the other being doesn’t see me as less than and thus would like to develop and establish a supportive friendship relationship with me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to become so fearful from intimate friendship relationships and within NOT standing up from within myself and sorting myself out, I've walked a looooooooooong time loop just to get to the point of eventually facing myself. I commit myself to direct myself to take the responsibility within each and every single and minuet point that exists within me and isn't aligned in equality and oneness because I see and realize that it is a waste of time to be preoccupied with things that I was able to take on and sort out instead of utilizing my physical time effectively and actually do something that is substantial for a solution that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to yearn for a close friendship relationship connection but at the same time feared having one and thus, when and as I saw a potential to establish a friendship relationship that is not obligated in essence, I jumped right into it and changed my entire personality just to fit for a moment and experience the feeling of togetherness even if it meant that I had to compromise myself because I it would be as far as I will allow myself to get without getting the same childhood experience of suffocation, being controlled and abused.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to live the living expression of the word 'Friend' as 'Free-End' due to my childhood friendship relationship and thus, since than, even allowed myself to redefine the living expression of the word 'Friend' and Live the correction wherein 'Friendship' IS: 2 or more beings that assist and support each other within one's process of stepping out of one's mind as well as walking one and equal with everyone and everything.

I commit myself to Live the physical practical living expression of the word 'Friendship' within the starting point of establishing a supportive friendship relationships with beings and walking equal and one with and as them within our processes of stepping out of the mind and accessing ourselves as a physical living expression.

I commit myself to change myself and allow myself to be vulnerable with another human being because I realize that no one can abuse, control and manipulate me unless I allow it and thus, I commit myself to take NO shit from myself and the beings that I'm walking friendship relationships with and to stand in absolute self trust and direct myself and the friendship relationship effectively.

I commit myself to assist and support the children to come with developing and establishing a support structure within their friendship relationships and within that, becoming effective human beings within and without.

I commit myself to go through all my friendship relationships that I've had/hade to see the patterns that played/playing out as personalities that I've allowed myself to have/had and walk the correction within myself to not accept and allow myself to continue time looping and within that, sabotaging myself and my friendship relationships that I've have.

I commit myself to stop the back chat towards the beings that I've friendship relationships with because I realize that if I allow back chat towards another human being, there is a point within me that require direction and correction because the back chat reveals a point that I've not sorted out and/or aligned myself yet which is not acceptable.

I commit myself to stop my backchat in totality because every moment that I allow myself to participate with back chat, it is a moment where I've missed a breath and allowed separation to exists within me and this existence as a whole.

I commit myself to take responsibility within my friendship relationships and to be the directive principle according to that which is best for all