Just another Drama Queen - Day 258

 

 

So a point opened up yesterday - I was off, down, without any specific reason, nothing really happened but the general Experience was of a mini Depression. For a moment, I allowed it, I justify it, tried to avoid it, saying to myself that I'm tired because it is extremely hot. The fact that my body is well adjust to heat and that the heat in South Africa is 'nothing' in comparison to Israel wasn't relevant in my eye's view.

I had pain in my upper leg which again, I justified it as a physical point that manifested due to me pushing myself in aerobic exercises. And again, the excuse was that "I need to take a day off from practicing, my body is showing me that I need to rest. it must have been because I pushed to hard in the last exercise session"'.

 

But, I am 'Lucky' to live in a supportive environment that would expose me to my own dishonesties and would 'force' me to a level of self honesty to see the real core/source point that I'm facing which I haven't sorted out as an indication of a physical consequences that manifested in my upper leg. So, Esteni came to see me and while we were discussing the system that were busy showing itself on my upper leg, I was looking at the core/origin/source point that I've accepted and allowed within myself. I saw a few dimensions that I haven't considered before within my application but the main point I would like to speak about today is my Need to Create a Drama when everything is OK.

 

It's like - Everything was fine, things works and I am becoming more effective within my time management which gave me a few hours during the day without any particular responsibility I had walk BUT, without having to work, my mind went into a shock and immediately I created a fake Drama for me to participate with. Which is fascinating because the few hours that suddenly cleared up on my Schedule, which was a shock to my systems,  wasn't something I prepared myself for; it was something out of my ordinary routine and so - instead of moving and directing myself, I allowed myself to follow my mind into fear of - "is this what I'm going to do for the rest of my life? Is it possible that I will have moments without having anything particular to do? Are you sure there isn't something I must do now? How can it be that I have a free moment for myself? Maybe I forgot something? There must be something that I've missed.. And so - from not having any particular task to do, and seeing everyone around me busy, I went into the Fear of my Future - to now think about: "what am I going to do with my life? Will I have a partner in my life? Who is a good candidate for a relationship? Can it be Here or would I have to leave the farm to find a partner in Israel? But maybe I should go to Prague? Or the US? or Canada or Mexico"? Man - my mind went into so many directions - everything but to simply be here, appreciate the moment of nothingness, breathe and be OK with myself without having to do anything..

 

So in essence - this train of thoughts was a distraction, was how I've programmed myself to react when I have a moment for myself and how I would occupied myself in my mind to avoid a moment of intimacy with myself by simply be 'here'. When I snapped out of this mind fuck and re-aligned my starting point through removing all the mind distraction I found an interesting design - the Drama Queen Character.

 

A few years back, I when I was just starting my 'real' independent life, I worked in a company where one of my Co-Workers ALWAYS had a Drama in her life. In comparison to her, my life was a complete boring story. My house was a few blocks from work and we spent lots of time in my house after work. Each day, she would tell me another Dramatic story from the Previous day. I was Jealous because I was bored and I also wanted to have stories to share. You know the saying: be careful what you wish for? Lol  I manifested the Drama that I wished to have but only if I knew that Drama, isn't pleasant in most cases.

 

But when I go back to my memories, the Drama Queen character was always active to a certain degree. I remember one day, grade 5, I fell down to the ground from a small platform. I mean, really small - it was only 3 stairs away from the ground. The platform was in the path between my class room and the teacher lounge.

When I fell down, I started screaming so laud so that all the teacher could hear me, and all the kids would feel sorry for me. Basically, I wanted the attention.

 

So, within my next blogs to come, I'll open up this point in more details to stop the sabotage cycle that I accepted and allowed through the creation of the Drama Queen Character and within that, assist and support myself in becoming Ok and intimate with myself. Now within that context, intimacy isn't from a sexual perspective, it is a relationship with myself of appreciation, care and respect. 

 

 

The Messiah is Coming to Save the World Or take our Money? - Day 225

If you haven't yet watched - Derren Brown - Messiah - I really suggest you do so as this documentary will open up your minds in ways you couldn't believe possible.

 

What I liked about this documentary is the Proven Evidence that one cannot deny, as Derren Brown takes us to a LIVE, groups meetings with Spiritual people, Religious people and all sorts of Believers and unbelievers and completely turns their lives up side down in a matter of minutes wherein, he would "convert" non-believers to believers and Believers to extensive believers through utilizing tricks, technics and skills.

 

Derren Brown himself claim that he had utilized the technics, tricks and "skills" that Gurus, Masters, Psychics etc. had written in their books, and that the fact of the matter is, that there is nothing magically or divine about what he does, to the contrarily.

 

What this documentary shows is how easily it is to alter and change one's beliefs, how easily it is to trick one's mind and how easily it is to install and program the human mind into and as a specific outcome without no awareness whatsoever of the humans themselves.

 

What was also fascinating was that he said to the cameras something like: "If someone would ask me how I am doing what I'm doing, I'll tell them the truth, I'll be honest with them and I'll tell them that it is a trick; the problem is that no one is questioning me".

 

Yes, this is indeed THE problem of human beings - no one is questioning one's belief systems and simply accepting their beliefs as if it was the ultimate truth which they would follow ever so blindly without any physical cross referencing that they would form and walked for themselves.

 

So, Derren Brown could be the most appreciated Psychics in this world, the most Fabulous Dream Reader that exists, the Most powerful Channeller that was ever alive in this world and all of these attributes are confirmed with a rubber stamp by respectful beings in their filed of 'expertise'. He could also make a fortune like all these people that validated the fake personality he presented to them but fortunately, Derren Brown is honest enough in seeing the deception, in seeing that any belief can be changed and altered in  a matter of seconds and that any belief cannot be real as all beliefs are programmable as he shown in his documentary.

 

It is a well known fact that the most "Respectable" gurus, master, spiritual teachers, psychics, churches  makes a fortune from our beliefs and if we change our beliefs, it would result in the reduce of their income. It is a well known fact that all of these above have something in common - Good and Positive messages that would lure one to pay more money to sustain and satisfied their desire for positivity in a world where there is nothing positive about it - we have daily wars, crime, starvation, diseases, terror, child abuse and so on.

It is also a known fact that nothing with these Positive messages had actually resulted with a significant change in bringing about a world that is best for all. It needs to be a known fact that all of these is part of the consumerism system to keeps human enslaved to their own minds with no way out in actually moving and directing themselves towards a change within themselves and within this world.

 

So - Derren Brown shows in a very simplistic way what Desteni is saying for more than 5 years now - we are Robotic Machines that are very easily programmable and therefor, we must take responsibility for what we programmed inside ourselves and change the program, in absolute self awareness and honesty. We must deconstruct every inch of our mind and change ourselves for once and for all so that we all can stand together and bring solutions that would result with practical best for all outcome - FOR ALL!!!

 

Thus, I would suggest to anyone who hold onto any form of belief to stop for a moment and start investigating where the belief came from, when did I start believing in what I believe? Can I cross reference my beliefs? Can my beliefs assist and support in bringing about a world that is best for all? Who benefit from me accepting and allowing my beliefs?

 

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