Learning to Accept myself - Practical Application (Part 1) Day 411

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to value what others think about me or more specifically, what I believed that others thinks of me and through this perceived value, I would then judge myself positively or negatively and created an idea of myself, in my own mind as to either being accepted or unaccepted by others through which I either accepted or unaccepted myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take one moment of when another was reacting to me, and in that moment, take the other personally and so placed an imaginary shield within myself, believing that this person was no longer accepting me and thus, I must walk away from this relationship. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that reacting and taking things personally, walking away from a relationship/friendship also means that not only I compromise myself in giving power to the thoughts in my mind to define who I am and to then thus, abdicating my responsibility in walking away from the relationship/friendship without introspection/investigation and so, creating the same pattern again in the next relationship/friendship that I start immediately developing.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as I am reacting to another and taking them personally, I cannot practically support them in seeing their self-responsibility within their reactions and thus contributing to the predisposition of our dysfunctional relationship.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create a pattern within and as myself wherein the moment I react to another within the context of taking their words personally to then leave, either physically or mentally instead of taking a breath, looking at all things, all relationships, dimensions, play outs, etc. and from that moment of clarity, to then direct myself effectively, stand in self responsibility and if necessary, communicate the point with the other within the starting point of mutual assistance and support.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place self value, self worth, self acceptance through other people's eye views without realizing that what I perceived to be the way others are valuing or accepting me is through my own mind, as how I saw myself and through this separation, not realizing that I was my own worst enemy and that I was always the one who in fact sabotaged and compromised myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to see a conflict as the end of a relationship/friendship and so, when and as a conflict was created, I believed the end is close and so, not realizing that through that belief, I have actually created the end of the relationship/friendship slowly but surely made this belief real within and as myself as justification for myself to either run away from the relationship/friendship or unconsciously behave in a way that would literally end the relationship/friendship.

I commit myself to when and as a conflict with another comes up, to then stop any and all participation in reactions within and as myself, breathe, investigate, stand in absolute self responsibility in self honesty and direct myself effectively.

I commit myself to when and as another is making a statement about me, to stop any and all reactions that come up from within me, ask the person to clarify the statement and investigate in self honesty who I am within that statement, what is the context of which the statement was said and thus, I commit myself to make assumptions in my own mind as to what the person meant but to instead, be direct, clarify the point and if there is a problem to then find and walk solution that is best.

I realize that within self acceptance - no matter what another is saying to or towards me, nothing within me moves as I take in the information, assess, investigate and check the information, who I am in relation to the information and accordingly, trust myself to direct myself to the utmost potential in any moment of breath. I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself through and within taking another personally and thus, I commit myself to transform these reactions into solutions through effective communication.