Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

 

 

I commit myself to - when and as I hear words that activated a reaction as energy movement within and as myself, to investigate the word, to redefine the word and purify myself as the living word wherein, when hearing a word, I  won't activate memories, associations, definitions, beliefs within and as myself which I will automatically give attention to and accordingly, give myself up, become non existent as I gave permission to my mind to be the directive principle instead of me, purifying myself to accordingly direct myself in every given moment, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to SHOW how through the reactions of our parents to specific words, we decide who we are as we've copied and duplicated our parents reactions, because apparently, they know it all, they know what is best for us, despite of the fact that has been proven in many psychology studied that parents has no clue about the influence and consequences they cause to their children.

 

I Commit myself to become intimate with myself as my human physical body in a journey of exploring myself and the investigation of the definition that I've gave to specific organs of my human physical body to assist and support myself with being comfortable with myself. I see now, that I'm lucky to have a human physical body to cross reference my application and it is my responsibility as such, to stand equal and one as my human physical body as the entirety of the body, all the organs, cells, veins etc. and accordingly, to utilise my body as a support of my process of stepping out of my mind instead of continue abusing my body through my acceptance and allowances of participation in my mind.

 

I Commit myself to assist and support Parents in qualifying them with supportive and effective parenting skills, as I walk my own process from the moment of emerging to this earth, in a time line till now, through my process of sharing my self-investigation process of who I am, through sharing my process of how I practically assisting and supporting myself to unchain myself from my social beliefs and norms that I've integrated into myself as my mind and accordingly, reprogram myself from fuckupness to perfection as I walk my process of self responsibility, in self forgiveness and practical corrective application in self honesty.

 

I commit myself to correct my past sexual relationships within and as myself through a process of self forgiveness in self honesty, to stop the self sabotage/abuse patterns that I've accepted and allowed myself to become through suppressing sexuality and making it more than what it is as a physical communication with myself and my partner.

 

I Commit myself to educate myself with regards of the relationship between the mind and the physical, to be able to understand myself and what I have become and accordingly, stop judging that which I do not understand and rather, change myself according to principles of Oneness and Equality.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that we are busy judging that which we do not understand because we didn't have an example, as effective parents with parenting skills to walk with us as equals and explain to us, from the get go, the relationship between the mind and the physical.

And I commit myself to support those who will walk the development and establishment of parenting skills programs, to bring about, a balance and effective parents who would become the example of the generation to come so that we could once and for all, stop the fuckupness we call earth and humans and create a world of humans beings that walk, move and direct themselves according to that which is best for all. 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a child of this world, to feel and experience shame when and as the words: "Vagina, Penis, fuck, sex" where spoken as an automated reaction within and as myself and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, from a very young age, to react in shame and un-comfortability, when and as I heard the words: "Vagina, Penis, fuck, sex" because I've attached, defined and connected those words within a negative energetic charge and within it, have attached, defined and connected those words to the emotions of shame and un-comfortability.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to connect, attach and define the words "Vagina, Penis, fuck, sex" with sexual connotation and association as 'wrong' and/or 'bad', as if the words in itself are dirty/impure. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate my own reactions to specific words and simply accepted the words to exists within and as an energetic charge that I've imprinted from my parents as I saw their reactions towards those words and accordingly, adopted the reactions as my own.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that the 'sexual' organs of the human physical body are not to be touched, not to be discussed, not to be equal and one with. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create the belief that the sexual organs are not to be touched, discussed and stand equal and one with and have thus, accepted and allowed my own separation from and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate the touch and explore me as my human physical body through the belief that I must not "go there", it is forbidden and wrong and within that acceptance and allowances of the social codes and norms of my environment, I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my human physical body without seeing, realizing and understanding the consequences that I would face in my adult years in relation to Sexuality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge sexuality from a very young age as wrong, forbidden and dirty due to our collective belief and idea that there is a time and place to practice sexuality and before you get to a certain age/place, you may not speak, think, explore sexuality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my early age relationship with a male because according to my belief, I shouldn't have a sexual relationship until I reach a certain age and accordingly, I've decided to suppress my sexuality and didn't allow myself to explore who I am as a sexual human being, with myself or with my partner because I gave all my power away to the voices in my heads/policemen in my head that told me that it's not the time, I'm not allowed to do that, my parents will be disappointed of me and when the policeman in my head was unbearable, I've decided to end the relationship so that I won't be in a tempting position of actually exploring my sexuality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see the relationship between my mind and my sexuality wherein I've only defined sexuality through the mind, disregarding the physical aspect of Sexuality.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to explore my sexuality within and as myself because the idea of touching myself came with the experience of shame, dirtiness, filthiness, disgust and immoral and because I haven't understood the Equality and Oneness with and as my human physical body, I've judged myself as all those mind component and accordingly, have decided to suppress the physical reaction that emerged within and as myself because if I allow myself to act on the physical requirement for sex or masturbation, I will be defined as dirty, filthy, disgust and immoral.

Spirituality - 'Love and Light' is Drug Addiction - Day 43

* this post is a continuation to:

Spirituality - The Bigger Plan - Day 40

Spirituality - the Message - Day 41

Spirituality - Following Gurus and Spiritual Masters - Day 42

Conversation with the Mind as God

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'Love and Light' is the solution that will bring about a peace on earth and I have refused to see that real Love is an act that can be measured only through a physical consequences wherein at the moment, the world exists as pure evil as we allow the majority of this world to daily suffer and be abused and the Establishment of an Equal Money System is the measurement for the act of LOVE where we gather together as humanity and stand up for LIFE where we implement an Equal LIFE System so that ALL could have a dignified, meaningful and fulfilling LIFE.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to focus on my individual happiness through the belief in 'Love and Light' and I have failed to see that the world is quite Hateful and Dark place for the majority of this world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see the relationship between Money and 'Love and Light' wherein only those who have Money and access to the Earth's recourses can practice the energy elevation of 'Love and Light' while the Majority of this world lives in horrific conditions.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to add 1+1 together and thus see that 'Love and Light' is not the solution that will bring about a world that is best for all because this world is a manifested physical world and a solution thus, must be a manifested physical solution; the solution is first to acknowledge the source of the Problem which is the Energy participation in our mind as within, and the Money system as Energy as Without and thus, take responsibility both as within and without - Stopping ourselves as the energy creation of and as the mind and change ourselves to a physical expression in living application as well as changing the world system of Money to a world system of Equality through the Equal Money System as the building block for a manifestation of a real and substantial change to a physical world of and as Equality and Oneness in it's absolute expression.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that Energy of 'Love and Light' is a gateway from really changing who and what I have become as an energy that consume my human physical body as well as what I have accepted and allowed this world to become as Money/Energy that consume the Earth's resources and I haven't allowed myself to realize that if we continue blindly follow the Energy path as within so without, we will consumed ourselves and this world until nothing of this physicality will remain along with ourselves as the energy mind that we've defined ourselves as.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that I'm addicted to Energy and without the Good and Positive energy I feel lost and I have not even seen that 'lostness' is the Negative Energy within the Law of balance where if I exists as Energy instead of a physical living expression, I will continually bounce from the good to the negative energy wherein for example: my back chat in the nature of gossiping/judging other people reflects the Negative Energy and the 'Love and Light' Positive affirmation reflect the Positive Energy.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that the 'Love and Light' energy experience is equal to and one to a 'high' from consuming drugs and I haven't realized that the 'High' that I experienced was a deliberate self deception so that I won't have to feel Existence and the pain existence is going through as well as not having to feel the pain that I'm causing to my human physical body in absolute separation from myself as myself as my human physical body.

I commit myself to Walk the ultimate expression of LOVE within the principle of Love thy neighbour as thyself where the physical outflows will be the measurement of my action and so, making sure that the effect is equal to the cause because it is not, the cause wasn't clear, direct and in absolute self honesty.

I commit myself to do what ever it necessary to be done for ALL to be able to experience a full and happy life through taking a way the fear of survival due to our dysfunctional World System and making sure that ALL will have Equal access to the Earth's recourses, Education and Health through the establishment of an Equal Life/Money System

I commit myself to show and reveal the relationship between Money and the "love and Light" movement through writing. (For example: Conversation with the Mind as God)

I commit myself to show the relationship between the Energy as the mind as within, and the Money as world system as without and to prove that the only change that is valid and can have a substantial measurable effect is a physical change of ourselves as individual and the world system (through the Equal Money System)

I commit myself to stop destroying my body with the consumption of the physical through Energy and I commit myself to stop the destruction the physical reality through the consumption of the Earth's resources due to the dysfunctional Money System that we are currently existing within and as

I commit myself to stop the Energy addiction, both to the Positive and the Negative and direct myself within a breath by breath process of stopping each and every pattern as this is the only point I can be sure that I'm aware, attentive and Present.

I commit myself to stop the 'Love and Light' drug addiction and to reveal that Energy has the same effect of as drugs to one's mind and body and thus, develop detoxified programs to assist many with their process of stopping the addiction of Spiritual energy and becoming physical living expression in a breath by breath application.