The Rewards and Justifications of the Secret Agent Character (Part 2) - Day 263

In the Previous blog: The Rewards and Justifications of the Secret Agent Character (Part 1) - Day 262, we had a look at a few dimensions with regards to the Secret Agent Character. Within this blog, we will turn the point back to ourselves to see the correlation between a Secret Agent within the world system and the Secret Agent of one's mind. however note - for the purposes of having a context to the following, I suggest to first read the previous blog before continuing.

 

We always know, and we can always trace it back (when we slow ourselves down), to the exact and specific moment that of any decision we had made and within that, see  in self honesty what justifications and excuses we had utilized to CONvinced ourselves to make the decision.

For instance, as I've shared in the blog: Just another Drama Queen - Day 258 an event/Memory that I participated with, when I was 10 years old. When I slowed myself down, I could see quite clearly everything that moved within my mind and specifically, the fact that I knew, already at age 10 years old, while fully participating in the event described, that I was deceiving myself and others to be able to get the Attention that I was seeking for and thus, I deliberately kept on going despite of seeing myself deceiving and manipulating the moment. Why? For the Reward that I was after, as an Experience of feeling cared for as well as being in the Centre of everyone's attention. How I have justified it within and as myself was - "well, everyone are already here, so what difference does it make if I stop now".

 

Another example which some may relate to is Cheating. Let's say one is having a secret crush towards someone that is in a relationship. Within ourselves, we know and we can  directly see that going after this person isn't what is best for all because obviously, there are people that would get hurt from this. Also, within the principle of 'do to another that which you'd like to do to you' - who would want to be cheated on? no one. And yet - we allow ourselves to be participate with cheating.

 

However, within ourselves, the crush is slowly but surely override common sense and accumulate to a point where we lose control (because we feed the desire/crush by giving it constant attention through our thoughts participation) and we will act on it, either physically or mentally. In both cases, we would justify why it is ok to participate with this pattern/personality/behaviour on a physical level or in our imaginary/mind domain.

And why would we do such things? Why would we diminish our awareness and bury our self honesty deep in the ground? Why would we disregard the Consequences we see our decision would lead to? Because we are going to get something - a Reward, an Experience. The Reward, the Experience would be then now, our directive Principle. within that context, I suggest listening to the following interviews:

Life Review - A Cheater in my Mind

Life Review - My Life of Cheating

I Liked Married Men - Life Review

 

But let's take an example of something most people would relate to - Mind Cheating.

Meaning - in self honesty, can you tell me, that you have never, ever, ever, ever had thoughts about someone else while being in a relationship? While having Sex? Didn't have any Fantasy about another human beings that isn't your partner? Well, it is a rhetorical questions - everyone knows what I'm talking about. However, the real question is: How did you justify it for yourself? Did you say something like - "it is innocent, it's not that I'm going to cheat on my partner, I love my partner, it doesn't harm anyone when it's in my mind only" but doesn't it really? can you stand accountable, for eternity, that the thoughts that you have about another human being won't harm anyone? Here, self honesty is required. What did you accepted and allowed yourself to participate with thoughts about another that isn't your partner? What have you gained from it? again - a reward, an Experience - Excitement, Special, High..

 

I will leave you for a moment to take a look within yourself and find examples in the context of your Life where you acted as the Secret Agent, justifying for yourself what it was Ok, and within that, have a look at what have you gain from it.

 

Within the next blogs to come, we will continue looking at the correlation between the Secret Agent within the world system, and the Secret Agent within our Minds and within that, explore, investigate the purpose, reasons and consequences for one's acceptance and allowance of Secret Agents - as within, so without.

The Rewards and Justifications of the Secret Agent Character (Part 1) - Day 262

 

 This is a continuation to: The Secret Agent in the Mind - Day 261

 

So, looking more in depth at the Secret Agent Character, both in the world system and in one's mind and specifically, to understand why it is that we won't allow ourselves to really Give up the Mind and Change for Real.

To do so, we can have a look at the Experience of the Secret Agent character and then, to turn it to back to ourselves which may lead us one step further to the understanding of the core/main/source/origin point of our unwillingness to change.

 

As I've stated yesterday, the way I see a Secret Agent character:

 

"The Secret Agent is one who is Reacting to what one sees in one's Environment/world that one had defined as unacceptable and within that reaction, one will go against the System, within the justification that one is fulfilling one's purpose, one is doing what needs to be done, that which no one else will dare doing and thus, one is special, Divine and Heroic. "

 

What the Secret Agent failed to understand is One's responsibility within the creation of the system which the agent is a direct part of. The Agent, defines and categorizes the system as unacceptable, wrong, bad, faulty, etc. and within that, separate oneself from the actuality of being of, as and co-creator of the system. Why? And what is it that none of the Secret Agents that exists in this world didn't change anything for the better of the human race and if anything, only perpetuate the abuse, the suffering and the crime that existent in this world. Now, for those of you who would disagree with the above statement - I understand. I really am. You probably think that the job of the secret agent is essential and that without them, the world would even be worse. I was one of you, wanting to hold onto the innocence that there are guardian angels in this world that keeps us safe but fortunately, I was able to move through the blinded hope and investigate these points to be able to see what lies beyond that which meets the eyes so to speak. 

 

If you read the book - Confessions of an Economic Hit Man by John Perkins, you would see the Unspoken inner truth of every Secret Agent - they are very much aware of their accountability for the consequences they take part with and within that, they are aware in most, if not at all times to the actuality of what they accept and allow both within themselves and within the world system. One of the things that keeps them moving against their own inner self awareness and self honesty is for instance, the rewards they receive for their 'respectful' loyalty to the Government or/and Agencies.

They would justify to themselves why it is ok to accept the bribes they receive even when they know exactly the extent of harm that such 'rewards' are causing.

 

To be able to be a Secret agent, one must proves one's loyalty to the Government or/and to the Agency and/or cause because otherwise, one would be removed and 'removed' means - gone, diminished, complete 'disappearance'. Thus, what is it then, that sustain one's loyalty? Fear. (We would see in blogs to come the correlation between the Fear as the Directive Principle of the Secret Agent and the Fear as the Directive Principle of self as the mind. so for now, keep this point in mind because we will come back to it in a later stage.)

 

Also, another point that we are going to have a look at is the 'Targeting System' both in relation to the Secret Agent if the agent dare to Question the Employee/Agency/Government/cause and the 'Targeting System' when One dare to Question one's mind. Note that, the Targeting System is a Direct Divertive of the Fear that I mentioned above, which I will expand on in Blogs to come. (and if you cannot wait to the blog where I'll open up this point, you can go ahead and listen to the Quantum Systemization Interview Series that explains these system that keeps one enslaved to one's own Mind.)

 

In the Next blog, I will show the Secret Agent in the Mind in relation to the Rewards and justifications, in correlation to the points that were discussed here.

 

 

The Secret Agent in the Mind - Day 261

I was looking today at the Secret Agent character as this character reveal itself in the Dream I had last night and as I was looking at the Character and who I am as the character, I've seen the following:

 

The Secret Agent is one who is Reacting to what one sees in one's Environment/world that one had defined as unacceptable and within that reaction, one will go against the System, within the justification that one is fulfilling one's purpose, one is doing what needs to be done, that which no one else will dare doing and thus, one is special, Divine and Heroic.

 

However, what one had not realized is that in essence, Reacting to a problem does not solve the problem but only perpetuate the gap, the separation, the inner and outer conflict instead of walking according to the Prevention Principle, standing from and as the system through which a change would be both internally and externally possible. The test of time shows and proven that Secret services and Secret Agents never in fact supported practically in bringing about a substantial change with an outcome that is best for all. Secret Services is ONLY done within the Principle of Self Interest, to benefit oneself or a handful amount of people while the Majority is being ignored, abused and compromised.

 

When I turn this back to myself, I see that I've programed and created myself as a Secret Agent within my own mind, always moved and directed myself according to my Secret agendas in self interest to fulfil my desires wants and needs. And even then, the test of time showed and proved that nothing of that which I wanted was actually manifested the way I wanted it to be which then one must ask the question - where I was 'wrong' within my application because obviously, the way I walked my life wasn't working. however instead of investigating my starting points and what was really that I wanted and desired, I kept on looping the same patterns over and over again while the only thing that was changing was the characters that acted in the Scenes that I created within and as my mind.

 

What was not addressed, investigated and questioned was: "What do I want"?

What I see, realize and understand thus far is - that which I perceived that I want, was conditioned and controlled by my pre-program design that I've created within and as myself throughout my life which was a direct influence by my Culture, Environment, Family, friends, Media, etc.

When existing according to one's preprogram design, we are actually trying to create ourselves a future that was already written by us in a very limited version of what the future can be because our frame of reference is our mind. we would try and live out our wants, needs and desires based on our self interest patterns and within that, won't allow ourselves to expand and empower ourselves in being able to assess in absolute and unconditional self honesty what is really best for all in every given moment and Live ONLY that which is best for all; and therefor, letting go of the desire of something that I want without even understanding what I want is quite a mind fuck.

 

So for instance, giving up the desire for relationship, doesn't mean that I won't have a relationship if an opportunity to a relationship would present itself and in self honesty I  would see that walking into such relationship would result in the best for all outcome. Because, when looking into my secret mind, the desire for a relationship for instance is very much existent and it influences every decision I make. I would plan my future not within the context of what and where and obviously within that who I am, stand in my utmost potential to bring about that which is really important - a change within and without but I would rather accept and allow myself to plan and brew events that may lead to the self interest desired outcome and within it all, wouldn't not really consider the beings that would be influenced by my inner plans I so desirably scheming to manifest. I would even justify the repetition of the same Life path in the decision that I make within the statement: "But this time it is different, I have changed, they have changed, I will not make the same mistakes, I must give it ago" and yet, the same repeat itself, time after time again while the only thing that is changing is the picture that I store in my mind. but till here no further.

 

And then comes the Trust - which is a big issue as Trust as how I understood trust thus far, was always within the context of trusting the system, trusting my intuition, the mind, the thoughts, feelings and emotions but that isn't a real Self trust - it is a trust that is based on separation, on deception and on what I want to trust instead of what is in fact physically real, substantial and best for all which in most or even all cases, won't stand in alignment to my self interest desires, wants and needs. So here is also to investigate how to redefine self interest to stand in alignment to what is best for all which within that context, the word that must be looked and investigated is the word 'Self' within the principle of oneness and equality that consists of and exists as EVERYTHING. In that context, Self is not only me, as my mind, as how I see myself through the mind  expression. 'Self' is Everything that exists and thus, includes me as well. This is why everything start with SELF change because unless I, self, change, there is no way the SELF that exists as Everything that is here would change. Which thus put the term: 'self interest' in a new light - instead of walking according to the interest of one's individuality in separation from everything and everyone, one walk according to the interest of Self that consists of and exists as everything that is here which then the interest serve and stand in alignment to the principle of 'best for all'

 

Will continue with my introspection within tomorrow's blog.

For now, I suggest reading Marlen's blog: Can Self Interest be Common Sense?