Fear of being Crucified - Self Forgiveness - Day 110

This is a continuation to:

Fear of being Crucified - Day 109

Principled Living: Maya

And also -

Journey to Life - Day 91 Israeli Self Immolation

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that those who are in the position of power and control due to their abundant of Money in this world, will do what ever they can, to remain in their position and if/when necessarily, they will be willing to kill/murder/assassinate those who question the World System Equations and they will be willing to kill/murder/assassinate those who have the power to bring about common sense into this world because it will undermine the Elite's position of Control and Power and would place them in a position of Equals to everything and everyone which according to the Elite's eyes view, that is their worst nightmare.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the Elite are well aware of their acceptance and allowance of positioning themselves in Power and Control over the Majority of this world because, we have seen throughout History that at the moment their position of Power and Control is being challenged, those who stand up for Equalization are being killed/murdered/assassinate for some "miraculous reason".

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize how the Elite is very much aware of the atrocity and suffering in this world and yet, would do nothing about it because if they would, they would lose their position of power and control over those who are currently being enslaved by them and thus, when the Elite's Life Style of abundance is being shaken by those who stand up for a change in this world that might position the Elite in less abundant position in this world, someone get killed/murdered/assassinate which then, for a moment, their position in this world is safe and sound till the next group comes up and challenged the Elite's position in this world, get killed/murdered/assassinated and the cycle continue and no change is in fact being implemented and established. 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how  through History, we  perpetuate the immobilizes fear of being crucified for that which is best for all to regenerate the preprogram design of Fear, of powerlessness, of uselessness which through this brainwashed fear, we will not stand up, we will not change the world and we will keep accepting and allowing the abuse, suffer, crime, greed, competition etc. to remain our directive principle with no real and substantial change. 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the FEAR of being Crucified when and as a being is standing up according to a principle that may shake the face of the world, is the Fear that immobilize us to in fact become a strong and stable leader in our world and lead the way for a world that is best for all. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question and investigate the starting point of this fear and who and what this Fear serve; to see, realize and understand how we have infused ourselves within and as this fear, to not be able to change in fact, ourselves nor this world and within that, submit to this current world of abuse, suffering, atrocities, greed, self interest and Evilness. And thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to remain in Fear of Change as the fear of being crucified and have thus, accepted and allowed and gave permission to the world to continue as it is currently is and in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility in accepting and allowing the fear of being crucified to enslave, control, immobilize me and how through the acceptance and allowance of this fear, I'm directly accepting and allowing abuse and suffering to be the daily living experience of the Majority of this world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to submit to the FEAR of being Crucified and within that, have decided to give away my power to stand as a pillar in this world, a Pillar of common sense that stand in absolute stability within and as Principle of that which is best for all and through an example, assist and support all to stand up as well because the only way we can in fact change this world, is if each and everyone of us will see, accept and allow our individual responsibilities to create, establish and implement a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore the steps that I will have to take in order to establish in fact a world that is best for all and within that, the first step of implementing the Equal Money System because I've accepted and allowed the fear of being crucified to control and enslave and blind me to the extent of which, I haven't accepted and allowed myself to give myself the permission to look at what will it takes to bring about a world that is best for all, what will I have to give up and what will I have to do, in order to make sure that we as a group will lead the way for our children, our parents, our animals, our plants, our earth - all Equal as One and within that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait for others to will lead the way for me, so that they will be the one who be killed/assassinate/murder and I could remain alive, doing my own things, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I'm preparing the way before me to give up on my principles and my stance if/when one of us will get killed/assassinated/murdered as I know within and as myself, that once that will happened, I'll be immobilized and wouldn't allow myself to continue the way after them.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by giving value and attention to the fear of being crucified within and as myself, I'm in fact creating the event inside my mind, as I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize how I'm the Creator of this reality and the relationship between my mind and the physical existence.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to utilize the fear of being crucified as my stumbling stone for me to not move and direct myself and this world and to bring about a world that is best for all in all ways possible and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that so long as I accept and allow myself to move and direct myself according to fears, I'm sabotaging not only myself, but this world as a whole as I'm willing to compromise everything and everyone in this world, to sustain my own desire for safe LIFE as I will not stand up as long as I consist of and exists as fear and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise the lives of the majority of this world, because I wasn't able to give up the Fear of being crucified for the principle that I stand for as my own self interest of my own survival.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself not to be direct in my communication with people that are not accepting and agreeing with that which I stand for because within and as me, the fear of being crucified resonant and I have thus, accepted and allowed myself to adjust and align myself with abusers, to not create a friction, to not trigger any evil spike within them that will lead to my death. Within that, I see realize and understand how through shaping and moulding myself to be accepted by society through the fear of being crucified if I won't, I'm sabotaging and compromising our lives as a whole and in that, giving permission to the fear to dictate our lives and existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking up in common sense because common sense as that which is best for all is the opposite from everything that we have ever taught to believe and be because what we have become, is a self interest desire for our own survival with no consideration of everything and everyone as a whole. And thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the fear that is existent within and as me, to be my directive principle where I will compromise and shut up and won't speak/stand up when and as I see that a point must be directed, must be understood, clarified and explained.