Emotional Attachment and Physical connection (Part 2) - Day 461

In my previous blog, I started to investigate the difference between Emotional attachment and Physical Connection as I saw a reaction within myself towards one of the dogs that was sick. Thus, for context, please read through the previous blog as this series also show a practical example for how to assist and support oneself in investigating points within oneself through a process of writing.

(Emotional Attachment and Physical connection (Part 1) - Day 460)

 

 

 

 

 

I ended off with looking at 2 dimensions that might explain my reaction towards Gracie being sick:

1. Gracie's Nature is extremely similar to my dog that I left behind when I moved to the farm. I was extremely attached to my dog, Yalda, and it took me months to release the emotional connection that I formed within myself however, the characteristics that Yalda has, are very similar to Gracie's so forming a relationship connection with Gracie was very natural.
2. How Gracie in particular and the pack in general stand as stable point in my life whereas, they are always here when I wake up, they are always here when I go to sleep, they are always here when I come home... And within that, I never feel alone. 

 

However, within myself, I "knew" that it was not THE dimension that I was working with in relation to Gracie because when I looked again at these points above, and checked within myself, I realized that it cannot be it because I have already walked these points and tested myself in the physical reality.

For context - For 2 whole years, I didn't allow myself to see Yalda, my dog, when I went to visit my home town; I felt that if I would, I would confuse both her and I due to the nature of our relationship that we had before I gave her a way, where we were both extremely dependent on each other's presence. I wanted to make sure that none of us would experience the traumatic experience of separating from each other again, and I considered that as long as I carry the emotional attachment within me, she would pick it up and access the experience herself because, from the feedback that I received from her adopting family, she was quite depressed when in the first few weeks after I gave her away.

 

Once I was stable within myself in relation to my relationship with Yalda and I  ensured that I walked through all the dimensions, I tested my application in the physical reality. I dared myself after 2 years to go and assess who I am in relation to Yalda when/as I see her in the physical reality - I went to visit Yalda in one of my home trips - it was an absolute pleasure seeing and playing with her again. I found that the emotional attachment was no longer there, it was pure expression of both Yalda and I enjoying each other and when it was time to leave again, nothing inside me moved. Obviously, here one must understand that in no way it means that I no longer care about Yalda - all it means is that the relationship with Yalda is not emotional relationship but rather a physical connection that we share with each other. I obviously went to test myself for the second time when I visit my home town 6 months after and again, when we met each other, it was enjoyable as if time didn't play a rule in our physical relationship that still very much existent.

 

Thus, for me it means that the first dimension that I was looking at in the context of Gracie and Yalda is not THE point - my relationship with Gracie has nothing to do with Yalda per say.

 

The other dimension where the pack is standing as a stability point in my life - again, it is not THE dimension that I am working with here because I left them so many times and I was stable within myself and thus, I came to the conclusion that feeling of "I'm never alone" is a mind trick that I used to suppress the real issue that I haven't seen yet. (This, I will expand on my next blog)

 

So, I set down again and continued investigating the reaction within myself. I was asking myself - what do animals give me that I am not yet accepting and allowing to give to myself? Meaning, what is the specific emotional attachment that I form with some animals as a way to fulfil something inside me that I feel lacking of.

 

The primary point that I'm looking at is the relationship or the difference, to be more specific, between emotional attachment and intimate physical connection with another being, say a human or an animal.

The point with Yalda shows very clearly that by removing the emotional attachment, a physical connection is emerging and if anything the relationship is much more real so from that perspective, I have decided to investigate my relationship to each and every being I have form an emotional attachment to, find what is the specific point that I perceived them to give me which I am not giving to myself and accordingly, I could transform the emotional relationship to a physical connection that stand the end of times.

 

By now, it is obvious to me that I have not yet got deep enough into this point within myself as these points keep on coming up recently which you can also read in the blog: "Over Sensitive".

 

Will continue sharing - stay tuned.

I Think - Therefore I am Intelligent - Day 92

This is a continuation to:

I Think Therefore I am - Day 90

I Think, therefore I fucked this Existence - Day 91

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to THINK that because I'm capable to THINK, I'm intelligent and I haven't considered that all the other LIFE forms that apparently cannot think are the ones who gives me the possibility to exists. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only reason I exists is because of all the LIFE sources that gives me the air that I require to breathe because otherwise, I die; gives me the food I require to eat because otherwise, I die; and yet, I have taken for granted those LIFE sources, abused and harmed it because I haven't consider my dependency relationship with it which that in itself, question my intelligent.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define my intelligent through my ability to think and I haven't considered that in essence, I have no idea how the life forms that allows me to have the Life that I have works and functions in absolute perfection despite of the fact that their ability to exists within their perfected expression doesn't involved with a thinking process.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that all the LIFE forms that are not capable of thinking, created themselves in absolute perfection as nature for example and that perfection is the LIFE source that allows me to Exists within and as this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see, realize and understand that while I'm elevate myself within and as my EGO as my own definition of my intelligent for my apparent capability to think and process information, to disregard, harm and abuse all life forms that I perceive as less than who I am because it cannot think without realizing that the very LIFE sources who doesn't think, gives me the ability to think and exits because without it, my life will cease to exits.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to THINK that THINKING gives me power as I can process information but I haven't realized that I have no idea who Thinking really works and functions and with my greatest intelligent, I still have no clue how to work with simple stuff like animals, nature and earth as I've disregarded those life forms to maintain my own existence that I think I am.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define intelligent within and as the ability to think, not seeing, realizing and understanding that my intelligent is in direct relationship to what I was taught from a very young age by my parents, environment, school etc. and have nothing to do with any REAL life skills that one is require to sustain a LIFE that is best for all LIFE forms in existence.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to make sure that everyone on earth will have equal opportunity to educate themselves as I was busy elevate my own intelligent, my own self interest, my own self empowerment because I believed that if I give someone else opportunity as I have given, they will be just another being that I need to compete with and thus, I rather they die and won't ever have access to LIFE.

More with regards to intelligence by Sunette Spies:

“Intelligence – ‘Intel – Lie – Genes’

INTEL – as the knowledge and information of the mind consciousness system

LIE – the illusion of knowledge and information in relation to actual physical reality

GENES – the integration of the mind consciousness system as energy as knowledge and information into the human physical body that human beings function through and believe to be real, when in fact actually separated from physical living and existing as a system.

Intelligence is a programme of consciousness/the mind – that consist of and exist as the/a entire body of knowledge and information definitions about ourselves/ ‘who we are’ and our relationships towards ourselves, others and this world as a whole that in fact separate us from ourselves, each other and this world/physical existence. Because we’ve created relationships towards ourselves, others and this world through definitions/programmes within our Mind, and not in fact lived and actual real physical equality and oneness with ourselves, each other and this world. Intelligence is the programme/manifestation that actually separate us from establishing real/eternal relationships of physical equality and oneness.

The programme of intelligence manifests within consciousness/the mind and integrates/extends into our human physical bodies, so that what has happened is that we interact/participate through the physical in physical reality within this programme, INTERPRETING reality / relationships based on our own frames of reference in our minds as the knowledge and information we were TAUGHT that was imprinted / inserted / downloaded into us from those that has gone before us. We in no way stand by ‘who we are’ and actually live and relate to others, ourselves and this world within realising that ourselves, others and this world is in fact ourselves, our own creation. In this, each individual has their own “intelligence database” within consciousness/the mind based on individual self-interest, connected to our EGO’s and so intelligence only serves the Ego of Mind, and in no way contribute to the actual establishing/creating/manifestation of equality and oneness as a world/reality that is best for all, as all are too preoccupied with competing through Ego’s with Intelligence.

With Desteni, we’re in the process of transforming the knowledge and information of intelligence into practical living principles, and changing the starting point of self-interest/EGO to standing as an individual living as/for a principle that is best for all, and thus – transforming knowledge and information as consciousness/system into LIVING WORDS that will create/manifest a world that is in fact best for all.”

http://spiritualityexposed.wordpress.com/2012/04/09/2012-kabbalah-human-intelligence/>

Within my next blog, I will be walking the Self Commitments Statements.